JSM's BEGGING FOR BAN THREAD # 7

[no rose colored glasses]

Blink has a new post up about SOmer Thompson.   

  I read it and I don't get it 

[joesamas mama]

I'm Sorry you are feeling so badly Fanny. Please know I am here if you need anything. I won't be here tonight because of the stupid meeting, but hope and pray that I get out early so I can get in the cage tonight. 

Thanks JSM, I knew that already that you would be here. I am safe and snug here now. 

I know you hate these meetings. Start coughing really loud, and maybe they will dismiss early. 

I tried to ask them to postpone it because it is raining. No Dice they said. 

[trimmonthelake]

Tevye, roll a couple of doobies, I'll be right over, just make sure you have some extra apple pie 

I guess I'll have to check into my state's medical mary jane laws.....LOL! for now, tho, I'll just get wasted on ciggys! Oh, and there's another apple pie in the kitchen...that seems to be folks favorite "feed the sick" dish, and I am SO good with that!!!

Ask the doctor for Marinol (not sure if that is how it is spelled), same thing, just in pill form. They gave it to my friend during chemo/radiation. 

Notice how she keeps mentioning the apple pie?I really want some now.   

[no rose colored glasses]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

What a beautiful little one, I'm so sorry for you and your entire family 

[no rose colored glasses]

Apple pie does sound good 

[trimmonthelake]

I'm Sorry you are feeling so badly Fanny. Please know I am here if you need anything. I won't be here tonight because of the stupid meeting, but hope and pray that I get out early so I can get in the cage tonight. 

Thanks JSM, I knew that already that you would be here. I am safe and snug here now. 

I know you hate these meetings. Start coughing really loud, and maybe they will dismiss early. 

I tried to ask them to postpone it because it is raining. No Dice they said. 

Turn your heater up high in your car and get your self really hot and sweaty.When you walk in they will beg you to leave.   

[trimmonthelake]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 
Maybe  it is gone now. 

[Missiontoconvict]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

[trimmonthelake]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

 

[Fanny Mae]

Trimm  My thoughts and prayers.         mizjay, I know what you are saying about your dad, that is with my dad also, married for so long, and then your wife passes, and what to do. Very difficult indeed, and scary. And the guilt I have being so far from him       Fanny, do I know what you are talking about, boy do I. I got a bad one yesterday while shopping. I also don't leave the house much, and when I do, a trigger goes off telling me I have to go home, now. Not funny at all. I will shop and I see moms with their grown daughter or son shopping and I get mad, mad as hell, I want that, ain't ever going to have it again. And your right the anxiety meds help to some degree, but not enough. I've gotten to where everything just sets me off, whether crying or angry, hardly any in between. Glad you are going to the doctor, I will be also next week, to tell him give me some pills that somewhat work.    Carrie, glad you are going to the doctor. 

Thanks NOROSE. I knew you would understand. My son will go with me wherever I need to go, but he is really on a tight schedule, and Saturday and today he was sick. It just aggravates me no end that I have gone all of the US by myself, and now I can't even go to the grocery store by myself.

I would have really had a bad anxiety attack myself, if my pants almost fell off in the parking lot!    Sorry, I just can't get the image out of my mind. 

[Fanny Mae]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

I missed it as I was typing a post. But I know he was precious and beatiful. 

[Fanny Mae]

Apple pie does sound good 

ARGH!! I am not going back for an apple pie. Do they still have Hot Apple Pies at McDonalds?  I could probably make it through the drive up. 

[trimmonthelake]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

I missed it as I was typing a post. But I know he was precious and beatiful. 

You know all children are beautiful.   

[Tevye]

Fanny, do you go out at all? Like to church or visiting? Is it special situations (I know I'd be a better shopper if they would just let me bring my Smith & Wesson in with me!) or just "not being home" that seems to trigger the anxiety? Maybe if you did limited runs, it would be easier on you. Sort of "aversion therapy". Unless, of course, your whole reason for staying home is just so you can be with your monkeys. Now we're talking trouble, hunny!

These were limited runs to Kroger. It is only a few blocks away, and I didn't have much to get either time. Church has gotten to be short, and leaving in the middle, way before time. Hubby and Son are with me there. I think it is just the "leaving home" part. Saturday, hubby was with me, so I thought I would try alone today with worse results.  Of course, being here so I can be with the monkeys doesn't sound half bad either. 

I realize there are monkey here, including you, that have much worse problems than me. It almost seems trivial to put it in writing.  But after I got home, I just sat in the bathroom crying, until my hubby and son heard me, and we have been talking about it. I never smoked a doobie, but maybe that wouldn't be half bad either.

Now, Fanny, I may have to send you my magic tea pot with my special "recipe" in it! Please don't think that your troubles are less than mine. I have something that's screwing up my life, you have something that's screwing up *your* life. Trouble is trouble, it doesn't go by degree. Please don't ever hold back! We are here for you. You took a big step by telling us what's going on. That was very brave of you. I'm proud of you!!

[Tevye]

Tevye, roll a couple of doobies, I'll be right over, just make sure you have some extra apple pie 

I guess I'll have to check into my state's medical mary jane laws.....LOL! for now, tho, I'll just get wasted on ciggys! Oh, and there's another apple pie in the kitchen...that seems to be folks favorite "feed the sick" dish, and I am SO good with that!!!

Ask the doctor for Marinol (not sure if that is how it is spelled), same thing, just in pill form. They gave it to my friend during chemo/radiation. 

but here's the thing: Way back in the day, I always got paranoid! So I never did it much!

[Missiontoconvict]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

I missed it as I was typing a post. But I know he was precious and beatiful. 

Yes yes he is a beautiful and precious child - my heart stilled when I saw his photo - I am not for sure what happened to him Trimm I have only caught bits and pieces here and there and hate to ask anyone to relive such devastating and tragic things - but my heart goes out to you 

I am taking off and heading home now Monks I will catch you later - I am going to go home and crack a full bottle of wine and make a toast to better things for all my monkey friends - see you all later.

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us.  That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand.  ~Emily Kimbrough

[Fanny Mae]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger. 
 

I missed it as I was typing a post. But I know he was precious and beatiful. 

You know all children are beautiful.   

JUst as I thought. Precious and beautiful. TRIMM, how you get through the day, day after day for two years, I cannot imagine. 

[Fanny Mae]

Fanny, do you go out at all? Like to church or visiting? Is it special situations (I know I'd be a better shopper if they would just let me bring my Smith & Wesson in with me!) or just "not being home" that seems to trigger the anxiety? Maybe if you did limited runs, it would be easier on you. Sort of "aversion therapy". Unless, of course, your whole reason for staying home is just so you can be with your monkeys. Now we're talking trouble, hunny!

These were limited runs to Kroger. It is only a few blocks away, and I didn't have much to get either time. Church has gotten to be short, and leaving in the middle, way before time. Hubby and Son are with me there. I think it is just the "leaving home" part. Saturday, hubby was with me, so I thought I would try alone today with worse results.  Of course, being here so I can be with the monkeys doesn't sound half bad either. 

I realize there are monkey here, including you, that have much worse problems than me. It almost seems trivial to put it in writing.  But after I got home, I just sat in the bathroom crying, until my hubby and son heard me, and we have been talking about it. I never smoked a doobie, but maybe that wouldn't be half bad either.

Now, Fanny, I may have to send you my magic tea pot with my special "recipe" in it! Please don't think that your troubles are less than mine. I have something that's screwing up my life, you have something that's screwing up *your* life. Trouble is trouble, it doesn't go by degree. Please don't ever hold back! We are here for you. You took a big step by telling us what's going on. That was very brave of you. I'm proud of you!!

Not brave at all. It just seemed like the natural thing to do. 

[no rose colored glasses]

Have a good night Mission                      I just took Zoe for a walk, we were innocently walking down the sidewalk, and she jumped into the bushes, I figured for a lizard, because she loves to hunt lizards, it was no lizard, it was a mouse, it squealed and ran further into the bushes. I'm still in the pants that are too big, I'm surprised they didn't fall off with me running and screaming. I have now come home and took a whole xanax, hell with the half.

[Fanny Mae]

Tevye, roll a couple of doobies, I'll be right over, just make sure you have some extra apple pie 

I guess I'll have to check into my state's medical mary jane laws.....LOL! for now, tho, I'll just get wasted on ciggys! Oh, and there's another apple pie in the kitchen...that seems to be folks favorite "feed the sick" dish, and I am SO good with that!!!

Ask the doctor for Marinol (not sure if that is how it is spelled), same thing, just in pill form. They gave it to my friend during chemo/radiation. 

but here's the thing: Way back in the day, I always got paranoid! So I never did it much!

PARANOID!!!!