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Her husband was admitted to the hospital today with a blood clot.  Nonesuche will let me know how he's doing as soon as she get's a chance.

According to Nonesuche it's not uncommong to get blood clots caused by the treatments.

Please, they need alot of prayers right now.

I will light a special candle - I left you some encouraging words on the chat thread None - hope it will all be OK!

Sistah,
  You know you and your hubby have been in my prayers BIGTIME since you told me he fell ill. Know that I think about you guys every day.,,(heck you know that ..:)  )  I love yah.. and I dont know what to say that I havnt said already in emails and IM's.. and on the phone. We are here for you anytime day or night. Keep your chin up and keep hubby fighting!!
  Prayers for you guys and the kids!!  Love you with all my heart. :)

Nonesuche, you and your DH are never far from my mind.  I've been worrying and talking to Him all day about this situation.  Feel free to funnel your updates via Klaas and call me if you need me.

None,

You and your husband are always in my prayers.

San

None~ I have been concerned about y'all, and trying to find out what was happening......please know how very much I care, and your family is constantly in my thoughts, and above all, in my prayers.  Much love and many hugs~

Dearest Mr. and Mrs. None-

Please know that you have a place in my heart and I pray for your every night.  I wish for you - much sunshine, a beautiful patch of daisies, deep belly laughs, and love.

Hugs -
Beans

None, I think of you and your husband daily and pray for you.  My husband developed a blod clot from his PICC line when he couldn't eat eve though we used heperin and flushed, it is quite common.

I hope things work out for you and will keep you both in my prayers.

None,
Please know you have our prayers and support. I say a prayer for you everyday!

((hugs))

None --

Prayers to you and your family for strength and good wishes. You are in my thoughts.

sharon

Mr. and Mrs. None,  I am praying for you both daily and you are both in my heart and will continue to be until all is well. Know that He is healing Mr. None right Now...May He wrap you in His warm light, give you Peace and Understanding Love you, Comfort you, Heal you and Protect you now and always.  Please let us know through Klaas how things are progressing..it is easier to pray specifically..  My love and best blessing to you both.

Thank you so much, each of you, for your kind and caring support and prayers. It was a challenging day, he does not have a blood clot as they thought yesterday, but rather an enlarged tumor now pressing on his vascular system in his left leg. So thank you again for your prayers, our family thanks you too, as we continue to pray for a miracle.

God bless each of you.

None....our whole family is with you....Love and prayers....Mere

Namaste

Sending up a prayer from GA for Mr. None and family.

None, I've kept you and your husband in my prayers, but wanted to send a little note telling you that I'll keep special thoughts throughout the day for you two. Keep the faith hon, and tell hubby to be as strong mentally as he can. You two just keep your faith that this will pass strong within your hearts; it's a common area for you both to visit and be able to share. Draw close as one and allow God to hold you safe. Hear His voice above the circumstances and let Him provide a place of calm and strength for you.
My prayer is that God will honor your faith and love for one another, that He has already certainly Blessed. I'm asking that he return your husband to perfect health and restore the relationship to His glory so that your marriage may be a shining example of His perfect love.
HUGS!!!

none...you have been here for me for over a year now... you have supported every poster here in their time of need...always with a loving heart...now it is your time of need! i hope you know how many peoples lives you have touched and how many people are holding you and hubby up in prayer...may god bless you!

None and Mr. None....although I haven't posted much on the forum lately, please know I've kept you in my prayers (and very much in my thoughts) daily and will continue to plead for His merciful healing of Mr. None and His comfort and sustenance for you and all of your family.  I also ask for His blessings of wisdom and guidance for all involved in Mr. None's care, that their every choice, their every action may be according to His perfect will.

I'm so sorry to hear of this setback but I still believe miracles are possible.

You've both found a permanent place in the hearts of so many people here, most of whom you'll never know face-to-face but only through words on a computer monitor.  That doesn't diminish the sincerity of the love and concern felt by each of those hearts, mine included.

{{{{{BIG Hugs to you both}}}}}

Nonesuch, I do not really know you other than on the forum  but I do know you have been a great supporter on here for Natalee and her family as well as a supporter of all the monkeys who have been in need.

I have prayed for you and your family ever since we first heard of your DH problems.. I pray for not only your DH recovery but also for you to have the strength to endure whatever comes. So stay strong and know you are in all our thoughts and prayers.

PS. What are the Drs. telling you. Is this tumor operable? Can it be shrunk with radiation? What are your options?

Sam

None, I'm so sorry to hear the news and am praying for you both.  We love you and think of you often.  Words can't express how much I would like to take your pain and problems as my own.  Take care of yourself and know you are loved.  You've been an inspiration to many of us here.  Let us be a strength to you in this trying time.

Dearest Nonesuche, DH, and family:

I have been praying for each of you throughout every day since DH got sick. You are never far from my thoughts. You are all such very special people who have truly been blessed to have each other. I lift you up to God, that He will keep you strong and steadfast in your faith and love for each other. Please keep your ears open to Him, that He may lead and direct you in what His plan is. I pray for your miracle and His will. Please know that all you have to do is ask, and I will be there in whatever capacity you need me.

Much love,
Mishy

None, you know you are in our prayers, and not just your husband, but you and your whole family.  Please let me know if there is anything I can do.  It is times like these that I feel so helpless.  I want to do something but not sure what.  

When life is settled and roses bloom in the fall, I hope you will be able to bring your loving mother and take a walk in my garden.  I would love that.  You know I am not far from the Crimson Tide.

My sweet monkey friends, thank you again. Sleep evades me tonight but I know it will arrive soon, and I wanted to thank you again for being so constant and so affirming when we most need that support.

You know, I have found a greater clarity today, in thought and in purpose. My mind travels through all the why's, why him, why us - but it also travels through the important moments and milestones we have had, the love and the joy.

The very reason this is so horribly painful for our family is that indeed, we did find and create something wonderful in our tiny corner of the world? Any of us who ever do find true deep and abiding love are lucky, so very lucky, so our family must celebrate that and find new ways to honor it.

Some have called me a know it all on this board at times, but more importantly some like all of you, have inspired me to care more and to do more to demonstrate humanity and caring in each and everyday. Red and Tom cared enough to build this forum to honor why the lives of Natalee and other missing persons matter, Mrs Red and Klaas helped to further this and continue that support, and each of you built upon that which is something I think each of us in the circle of this community have benefitted from. That is Natalee's ripple effect that means so much and is so heartening to me tonight when I can't sleep, that yes her life mattered in ways she could never have known.

Without Natalee, I wouldn't have your special and caring support. This has enlarged our life, our entire family, so thank you all for this. Each and every one of you, it is both an inspiration and a great comfort.

Dear None:

I just now saw this 'sticky' and wish to send my prayers & hopeful wishes to you too. Here's a prayer I hope will uplift :

"Comfort, we beseech thee, most gracious God, this thy servant, cast down and faint of heart amidst the sorrows and difficulties of the world; and grant that, by the power of thy Holy Spirit, she may be enabled to go upon her way rejoicing, and give thee continual thanks for thy sustaining providence; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen."

God bless you and yours Nonsey, Ono

None, know I am praying for you and your DH also.  Your letter above is so inspiring to me, and I thank for sharing your thoughts. The Grace of God is with you.  Blessings and Love

Nonesuche,

My thoughts and prayers are with you, and my thoughts were also tuned in to what you've already said.  Anyone going through what your busband is going through, needs that support system, and thankfully, we all have an extended one here.  I may not express things as eloquently as some or as often, but hope you know my hand is here if you need to grab hold.

Keep smilin...keep shinin...(Stevie Wonder)

Nonesuch:
You know my story and you know that I truly know what you and your DH are going through with this illness.  I read that hospice will be arriving, as well as your dear mother, and I am glad that you have this support at this time.  I have prayed daily for your DH's complete recovery, be that if it is God's will, and also for you to be comforted and uplifted in this difficult time.  God bless you and all the kindness and loving help you have shown to others surely must come back to you now.  I wish there was something I could do to help.  My words are so inadequate to express the way my heart feels.

thank you so much, each post means so very much, I cannot thank you enough. When he's past the shock of this, I will print it out for him, so that he too can feel the warmth and care from each of you.

{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}

Dear None & Mr. None,  I hold you both in my heart and pray for a miracle.  I also wish I could do more for you at this time.  You are a very dear person and friend and I was so saddened to hear what you learned on Friday.  I'm glad your Mother is coming to help.   May God bless all of you and give you a miracle.

Love,

tidycat

Dear Nonesuche,

This is a Jewish prayer for illness. In addition, I say many more informal prayers for your husband's recovery. Every day.

All my love,
Louise

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91st Psalm

O thou that dwellest in the covert of the Most High, and abidest in the shadow of the Almighty;

I will say of HaShem, who is my refuge and my fortress, my G-d, in whom I trust,

That He will deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.

He will cover thee with His pinions, and under His wings shalt thou take refuge; His truth is a shield and a buckler.

Thou shalt not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flieth by day;

Of the pestilence that walketh in darkness, nor of the destruction that wasteth at noonday.

A thousand may fall at Thy side, and ten thousand at Thy right hand; it shall not come nigh thee.

Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold, and see the recompense of the wicked.

For thou hast made HaShem who is my refuge, even the Most High, thy habitation.

There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy tent.

For He will give His angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.

They shall bear thee upon their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.

Thou shalt tread upon the lion and asp; the young lion and the serpent shalt thou trample under feet.

'Because he hath set his love upon Me, therefore will I deliver him; I will set him on high, because he hath known My name.

He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him, and bring him to honour.

With long life will I satisfy him, and make Him to behold My salvation.'

- Psalms 91: 1-16

 

Nonesuche: My prayers for your D.H. and for you as well.  Thank you so much for the wonderful poem you sent me I read it at the service and it touched many hearts. It was exactly like aunt Fanny would have said to us all.  God Bless you.  Sandy Leiva

Dearest nonesuche, my heart and prayers are with you, DH and the children. I'm available anytime as an ear to listen and a shoulder upon which to lean.

Love,

justin'smama

Nonesuche- Please know that you, Mr. None, and your whole family are in my prayers as they have been from when I first learned of your DH's illness.  I pray that you will feel God's loving arms wrapped tightly around you & DH.  God is with you always.  Draw from his boundless strength.  ((((hugs)))).

Nonesuche

I am not here as often as in the past, Work and life keeps me away.

I am so very sorry to read of your Husbands illness.

I know personally how illness affects the entire family.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Be strong and keep the faith.

After reading these posts at work, trying to hold back tears, litererally, of deep found pride in all you monkeys.  You are all such amazing, wonderful, caring people.  I even see people posting who typically do not, which just shows the true impact of SM.  I thank God for finding you all, as I know None does too.

Having said that, None,  I am at a loss for words, because everone has said it all.  You are truly a special person and just know that all the love and prayers are with you and your family, and God is by your side.  My favorite is "Footprints" , just look down and see only one set of them during your walk.  NO matter what, you are NOT alone!  Know we are all here for you and praying!

God bless you and Mr. None!

None,

I keep saying this to you, but I'll say it again here. I love you and if there is anything at all that I can do to help you and your family, all you have to do is let me know.

Hugs and Smoochies

Same here, my daisy sistah.

None, Mr. None, & family,

You are in our prayers and thoughts.  Wish we could be of more help.  Let us know if there is anything we can do for you.

Trust in God.

Love,
Missin & family

None

My strongest prayers have been for a miracle because I know they are possible.  I've seen two that happened for no medical reason .... the only reason was strong prayer and faith.  If that is not possible, I wish and pray for all of you to have moments of joy, peace and happiness every day.... to lighten your burden.

Klaasend, FlyingMermaid, Angie, Peaches, San, tcumom, Frijole, cp405, Mrs Red, Sharon, MAca, MeMere, Leslie, Sunfreak2, Crazybabyborg, thecuz, Tesslacoyle, Sam, AZLady, Mishy, tylergal, Ono, Jerry from Ohio, sirensong, 2NJSons_Mom, Appeals, Tidycat, LouiseVargas, SandyLeiva, Justinsmamma, Kimmy53, Starr, Dihannah1, BTGirl, MissinNat.....what a wonderful list of caring and compassionate monkey souls?????

THANK YOU, thank you ever so much for making time in your days and your lives to care and to pray for us. All of you are so kind, and it's so special to sign on in a low moment, to see all of your hopeful messages. It helps, please know indeed it helps to sustain us.

Some of you have asked for an update, so tonight I will share what we have for now. After 50+ radiation treatments and six weeks of intensive chemo, unfortunately his melanoma tumors have not responded well - this means they are not reducing or dissipating. Today we made the decision to pursue some alternative treatment, for traditional treatments have not worked. It is a long shot but thanks to Peaches, we have a resource we would like to pursue at this time.

The reason this cancer has been so 'virulent' as his oncologist described it, was likely due to environmental and also vaccine impacts to his system during the Gulf War. So as we look to the conflict enlarging in the middle east currently, please remember all of the risks our servicemen and woman are agreeing to take. Some are known, others are unknown, such as the early anthrax and nerve gas vaccines. Increasingly the link between melanoma growth and suppressed immune systems is significant.

Since we are truly in the heat of summer I would ask something of each of you. As a family we have learned so much, about the risks of this disease and also possible and confirmed carcinogens. Protect your family, please share the following cautions with anyone you love:

** Use any form of a tanning bed EVER
** Avoid sun exposure in the heat of the day, 10am thru 4pm, at all costs. If you must be outdoors then please, please know a heavy-duty sunscreen and clothing and hat will protect you somewhat from the UV rays but you are still clearly at greater risk.
** Melanoma is now the fastest growing cancer in the US, due to environmental hazards such as tanning beds and also our ozone erosion.
** If you have fair skin and fair or red hair, your risk is five times larger for developing melanoma.
** If you have "celtic" ancestry, even once removed, your risk is increased by 75%
** Sunscreens are rated by numbers, say 15 to 40, in terms of how LONG THEY LAST, NOT HOW STRONG THEY ARE. So keep that in mind, keep applying them, the higher the number the less often you must apply.
** Take no risks with your immune system. If you work around known carcinogens or even come into contact often with chemicals like pesticides, cleaning fluids, or even clorox - change your lifestyle or your job or your cleaning habits. All erode your immune system.

I apologize for the length of this, but as you have demonstrated your care for our family, I want you each to be protected. There is no cure for melanoma once it invades your organs or your immune system, one can only buy time and traditional therapies only work for 20% of all stage IV patients.

We are coping and we are a loving family, we know God must have a plan and are keeping our faith that despite the recent news, there is always room for a miracle. So we pray for a miracle and try to make each day count.

God Bless each of you. We appreciate you and we value you. Thank you.

Thank you Buckeye, what a special sentiment and thank you for reminding us of the importance of faith in prayer and miracles.

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None, you will forever be the daisy lady in my mind and heart.  Here are some beautiful daisies for you and Mr. None.  God loves you, this I know.  Miracles happen.

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Trying this one more time.  Daisies for you and Mr. None.  You'll always be my daisy lady.   :lol:

None, I will continue to bombard heaven with prayers for you, DH & your family. I pray God has opened a door through Peaches. Miracles do happen!!! Bless you all & my love is with you.

None
I love you.  You know I don't need to say anything else.  Just that I love you and your family.  You are always at the top of my prayer list.

None, thank you for taking the time to warn us about the risk of melanoma.  We never know what God has in store for us.  May God sustain your family as you travel on this troublesome journey.  I'll keep sending prayers up for that miracle to happen for y'all. {{{hugs}}}

None, just that you would take the time to warn others of the dangers you and your loved ones have faced, speaks volumes. Many of us know that but it has such great meaning and impact when it comes from someone who "has been there."  You know so close up and personally of the inherent dangers of all those things you list.

You areo so caring to think of others in this way.  You and Mr. None are very special people who have captured our hearts and our make us a little better than we are through having known you this way and at this time.  Difficult circumstances can bring out the best and the worst and I think with this group who has Natalee's and her family's best interests at heart, we have yours too and we have through Natale bonded with you and your family in such a special way.

Never question miracles.

Dear nonesuche:

Ihave been trying for several days to find the right words to say to you.  The right poem or scripture, but nothing seems to sound right.  Please know that you, hubby, and your family are always in my prayers.  I continue to pray for a miricle for your family.

I know just having you by his side gives your husband great comfort.  Maybe not only did God send him to you for wonderful memories, but so that he would not be alone in his struggle.  God Bless You.

And thank you for sharing the dangers of the sun and chemicals.  I had my son and daughter read your post.  My daughter has spent way too much time in those tanning beds, and this has been a real eyeopener for her.  After she read your post she said maybe being nice and tan wasn't such a big deal.  You have touched lives and I am thankful for you.

If I can help you in any way please let me know.  My time is pretty free now, and I would come.  Yes I would.

Love;

snoopy

Oh None I have no words to express how I feel. I do pray you get that miracle. I do believe in miracles after my own bout with cancer. I know that the radiation and chemo helped but I also believe God did his part as well.

Thank you for sharing about the dangers of  chemicals and tanning and Melanoma. We all needed that reminder. Tell your Hubby how much we appreciate his service to our country.

I hope that having your Mom with you will give you some much needed rest. Again my prayers are with you.

Sam

None - Even tho I don't post here anymore, I have been checking in to see how the Monkeys are doing.  Your situation has really touched me, but what brings tears to my eyes is your graciousness towards and caring for others in such a difficult time.  As another Monkey said, you will always be the Daisy Lady to me too...and I hope for a miracle for you and your family.

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And breathe............just breathe.........

NONE...you know you and Mr. NONE are in my thoughtss and prayers daily....Thanks to Peaches for her new information re: the alternative medicine...and thank you NONE for taking the time to remind all of us to take care of ourselves.....you are a blessing.

Dear Nonesuche, DH, and family,

None - words can not express all of my feelings.  I am so sorry that you are going through this, especially after all the support and comfort you have provided to many monkeys.

I was amazed when reading the previous posts in this thread that, even though you are going through a difficult time yourself, you took time out to provide information to others on the risks, etc. of melanoma.

You are so right - think of the support base that has been built here because of Natalee.

Many hugs and prayers to you, DH and your family.  

Sleuth

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Nonsuche I don't know that much about cancer and all the complications and hard-core facts. I just know that we are all just a pawn in the game of life.  Sometimes we are swept into this game and we become part of this game and hopefully your husband and you will be able to smile at this part of the game and will see it from a distant, ghost-like memory..  I have nothing to offer except if your husband and you need someone to talk to, you have my email and phone number, just call.. When I think of you and your husband, I too think of daisies..  This weekend I will try to take some pictures of catching some fish if not then just fishing and hopefully that will make Mr. Nonsuche smile..  I think I might even have an old Jimmy Buffett's hat..  My other friend just bought a boat and I haven't been out with him yet but he keeps asking..

http://www.bethmann.net/nick/digPics/2006/06MayBoat/

and my other friend that I usually go out with..

www.decastri.com

Hopefully they will make both of you smile.. Ted is kinda strange, he just bought a little motorcycle for his wife, and she really can't drive a car and now a motorcycle..  Well I will have him take some pictures and post for you and your husband can enjoy..

td

Nonesuche,

A daisy a day...saved it... been through similar but cannot compare...in my prayers, daily.  My hand is still reaching out if you need to grab hold.

http://www.homestead.com/deeopus/daisyaday.html

AZLady, Yapperz1, Lala's Mom, Sunfreak2, tyler, snoopy, Sam, AnnieMW1 <we miss you>, Jacq, SunnyinTX, Sleuth, terryd270, 2NJSons_Mom......bless each of you.

I signed on tonight and continue to be so touched by the wealth of caring and lovely posts by so many of you. I can't tell you how much it means and also how caring and supportive the community of SM really is. It is so touching to me.

I thought I would share something which has been on my mind of late, that I think has held many lessons for our family, and heartens me now in some respects. Three years ago this fall, our son moved to a new school with a scholarship in another state for high school. It was a great chance for him to receive some exceptional educational opportunities along with a school that had the goal to make the state finals with football as well. So as much as we missed him, we wanted him to have the best education possible.

The parents at this school were a bonus, we met so many interesting and delightful families from across the US. One was a single mother, like myself at that time, whose son became a dear friend of our son's. Her name was Jan, one of those people who lights up a room, you gravitate to her happy and engaging nature. Soon she was the team photographer, chanting to the boys, always greeting everyone with big hugs and the team cheer. She was from a wealthy family too, you would never have known, in that she was so gracious and generous and kind. We began speaking by phone and email, she flew in each Friday for the game with her younger son, and our friendship was so special to me. She was special to me, just a joyful person to be around. She was lovely too, so pretty and young and slim, only 43 years old.

Soon we began meeting for coffee before the games, even staying at the same hotel if away games, just great mom buddies. The team did so well too, after not making the state finals in 20 years, suddenly we were in contention and in the semi-final. I knew she was driving in and what time to expect her, and I waited in the parking lot looking for her, then began to worry as kick-off approached. So I called her cell phone, her younger son answered in tears, then another mature male took the phone to speak to me. She had checked into her motel the night before, had some chest pains so had called her doctor in TX, then laid down to go to sleep. The next morning she still felt some pains but got into her rental car with her son, to head to the game, they were about an hour away. En route Jan had a sudden heart attack, pulled over as the event began, and passed away within moments. I left to retrieve her son, he was in the care of the police and with her family in TX and Seattle, he needed arms around him until family arrived.

Her older son left our school in the spring, he needed to be close to his younger brother, but we all stayed in touch. What is remarkable is he played in that semi-final that day, it was his decision upon hearing the news, and the team cried with him in prayer for her and then won that game. To this day we remain close and in touch, how such a young man could find the courage to continue on as he did, is quite remarkable. The love between he and his brother is such a shining example too. As horrible as this tragedy was for them, they found their way through it with love and support for one another, and great kindness to those who supported them.

Jan left such a mark on me. I actually made a recording of her voicemail message to keep forever, along with her emails. I miss her, I will always miss her, she was such a positive force in my life in the short time I knew her.

This week we continue to pursue alternatives for we must, giving up isn't an option but even if our miracle doesn't arrive we have been fortunate. Like Jan's wee family, we are surrounded by love for one another, which never falters. We have had warning she never had, the time to adjust our priorities and make each day meaningful in new ways. We have a chance to make this challenge in our life a learning and sustaining experience however painful, for our children. We can teach them how to endure and what love looks and feels like, in the face of adversity.

Jan deserved all of those same options, her sons did as well, unfortunately it simply did not happen that way. Natalee Holloway's family, any family deserves those options. Ultimately my message is to love your families to distraction, know that none of us is promised anymore than the day we live today, and that angels are everywhere as are inspiring people such as Jan's young sons or Natalee's family or countless others we post about in the missing persons thread or on the lively. We only have to look around us to see them.

Angels are everywhere as the monkeys prove to me daily. With great affection, thank you for sustaining my faith in the importance of humanity and compassion.

None, that is such a wonderful story and a wonderful person you knew and I am sure the feeling was mutual.  She would be extremely proud of the way you are handling this with such grace, dignity and tenacity.  We are all proud of you and what you represent, the way you have always been here for Natalee and the Monkey Family.  

We try so hard to tell you what we want you to hear and how we feel what you are going through but our words just fall short of what we all want to say, but I think you said it quite well.  

Lovingly,
Your Monkey Friend.

None, I am crying as I read this!  What a wonderful person Jan was as are you!

Nonesuche --

Your continued grace is inspiring.

You did not ask for any of this. Nor did your family. Neither did Jan. Yet you do not dwell on the parts that you cannot have any control over.

Instead -- you look at each experience in terms of the lessons learned and the lessons you can share. Always thinking of someone else and how you can help, rather than 'why me'.

Always seeking the 'plan B' or 'C'. Things to be done -- to be researched -- calls to make -- appointments to keep.

A true role model -- although you did not seek it.

I pray for your continued strength.

I pray for that miracle.

The love that you and your DH and family share is already a miracle. I wish for so many more miracles for you and your family. You are a very special person -- to touch so many hearts.

sharon

I wish I had the eloquence to express my many thoughts to you None... but again, just know that you are lifted up daily in our prayers!!

tyler and casa, hugs and affection to you both

sharon - please know I have doubtful moments, even angry ones and I think your praise is more than I deserve. The hardest lesson of my life has been learning what I can control and what I cannot, such irony. I still struggle with it but when I can accomplish it, it frees you to do the work that can matter, at least I feel that way.

mrs red - your faith sustains our faith. You and Red and Tom have allowed us a 'forum' in which we can express this, along with equal support for those with different interpretations of our creator or faith. Speaking only for myself, how could we have known this challenge would have arrived and that as his illness isolated us both in certain ways being confined to home, that SM would play such a large role in supporting and encouraging us?

Thank you, thank you all so very much.

None ~ You ALL are in my constant thoughts and prayers ~

None , just as we have became a part of Natalee's extended family it has woven us all together and made us all family. So we share your hurt in our hearts and pray for you and yours just like we do for our biological families.

Sam

Dear None
I do not post that often but I have been reading this thread for the last week or so and I just want to tell you that I admire your strength during this very difficult time.  Since a near death auto accident at the age of 15 I have tried to live each day to the fullest and never take the time I am allowed with loved ones for granted.  I find it so inspiring that you too are able to see light in even the darkest places.  I will keep you and your dear husband in my thoughts and prayers as I have been since first hearing of his illness.  Your earlier post about the special joy that comes with being able to share a deep love and connection with another person really hit home with me as well since I feel blessed everyday that my husband and I crossed paths.  May your deep love and faith see you through this most difficult time.
Best wishes,
hubbylove

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My prayers are for you and your family.  

AZSunny

tcumom, Sam, hubbylove and AZSunny, bless you all. Thank you so much, I have printed this thread out for inspiration for our family to read and share together tonight.

Klaas, you know why that photo touches me so much, just so poignant. Natalee is such an angel  :)

nonesuche

I'm not much for words, I'm not much for church, however I do believe in prayer (in my own way).

You have someway become and still are an inspiration for me seeking the inner strength I know is still in me somewhere.

Mom always had a patch Daisies in the yard that I had to mow around.  But one time I mowed over them.  Mom was mad and when I asked why over a bunch of flowers. She said somehow / someway they always made her think of what she had to be tankful for.

Many years later I think I found out what she was taling about>  

Mom once said she remembered my older sister came in one day with a big bunch of Daisies that she had picked.  When Mom asked why she had picked them she replied something to the effect they are pretty, I love you and you need some in the house.
 
My sister died at age 6 of leukemia a sort time later.

I picked this one to convey my hopes/desires & prayers to you and all that you hold close.
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But also sending these along too for the same reason.
http://www.betterphoto.com/gallery/dynoGall2.asp?catID=510

{huggs}
OldF

It always amazes me how God provides what we need and not necessarily what we want.  I've witnessed His grace when He brings people together for the purpose of sharing love, guidance and comfort.  Natalee is most likely one of his Angels now and is smiling down from Heaven.  One of her legacies is uniting the Monkeys and the many other Holloway/Twitty supporters in love & friendship.  

Praying for your family's guidance, comfort and His miracle.

OldFart -
hugs back to you, what a sweet and caring post. I love the daisy photos, I am so sorry you lost your sister to cancer and will cherish that daisy story - it makes the daisies all the more special to me.

Sunfreak-

I have no doubt if Natalee has left this life that she is a guiding force in and around SM, no doubt. Thank you for saying it in such a lovely way for all of us.

Pray for and expect miracles.

Nonesuche,
 
OF made me cry, and I don't have words to match.  All of the others have had sensitive and eloquent messages....

Last post of my day and prayers are for you & yours, with hand reaching out.

None, just checking in before I turn in to get latest.  You know I love you too and I agree that you are definitely an inspiration.  Thanks for the story about your friend.  It is interesting that you could make such a good friend based on such limited time together, and she made such an impact on your life.  

Goodnight and I hope you are able to get some rest.

Hugs,

tidycat

None,
The irony of going through an experience like yours is that suddenly we find our greatest strengths and qualities, and they come shining through to carry us along. I think you have taught the Monkeys, and certainly me...to search ourselves and find our inner strength and good character on a daily basis...and not to wait until tragedy strikes. May God Bless you and your husband, and may you feel His arms carrying you during your troublesome times!!

You are always in my thoughts and Prayers!!
Lisa

NOne
I haven't been around much lately, but you and your hubby are always in my prayers.
Hugs and love

2NJSons - I so appreciate your virtual hand to hold onto and hope you feel it when I do, thank you.

tidycat - thank you, just know Jan was exceptional, no other way to describe her - a bright light. My daughter adored her too, we all did. The team dedicated the win to her, eventually a special small garden with a plaque near the athletic building was installed in her memory.

ldstlou - you are so very kind to me, thank you so much and God bless you always.

artcolley- I wish we had better news but good to see you.

FYI for all, the power of prayer for yesterday mr none was very ill, today he awakened looking so much better and actually eating as well.

All of you, each of you, thank you, I cannot say it enough, thank you so very much.

None, you are my hero.

None, I think about your situation daily. The thing is tho, when you come on, even tho you are going thru this, you always brighten my day with your faith and inspire me. I think your husband is a lucky man to have you by his side in this, God brought you together. There are some people, internet or not, that's heart just reach out and grab you and their goodness and attitudes are inspiring. You are one of those people for me.
I pray for your continued strength.

ArtColley, I miss you!!

tidycat

Aw, Tidycat, I miss YOU too!!!
I'll be back to posting soon...I cracked a few ribs in my  "little fall" last week or whenever it was. I lost track of time!  Haven' t been able to move much! :oops:

Dearest Nonesuche,

I wish you a happy birthday. I'm also sending prayers your way and postive uplifting thoughts for Mr. None.

All my love,
Louise

AZlady- I am far from a hero, but thank you for those lovely daisies too and your faith in our family to travel this path.

Shell- thank you, there are many wonderful hearts full of integrity on this forum and yours is special to me as well.

Tidy - Hugs and thank you for your prayers.

Artcolley- You are in our prayers for a speedy recovery, come back soon.

Today was a good day for DH, he felt better than he has in days, no chills or tumor fevers. I can't remember the last day he didn't have those recently. I just know your many prayers and good wishes for him helped to fuel that, so thank you. To enjoy today together was the best possible gift I could have hoped for.

We pray for all of the monkeys daily, we thank you for all your prayers and hope we all keep the faith.

ArtColley, I'm sorry to hear you cracked ribs and know that must be very painful.  I'll add you to my prayers for a quick recovery too, as I pray for None and her family.  Be careful!

tidycat

(http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c100/crazybabyborgs/daisy.jpg) To None and her Hubby: Even the sunniest, most perfect daisy sometimes fulfills it's purpose best, with "unlooked for" help. During those times, God visits and gently touches us so that we can go on with the beautiful brightness He created us for. And we find that even when His hovering has no need to be quite so near, we are left forever changed, renewed in life, and assured of our role in creation. Hold strong to your faith and believe in the future. He has a plan, and He loves you. HUGS!

AMEN AMEN AMEN!!!
You said it beautifully Shell and None I second her thoughts!!!

To Dear None and Mr. None-you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.  I pray for Mr. None to regain his health and hope he and the None Family can feel the love and care from friends far and wide.  God Bless

Louise, CBB, ldstlou-

Thank you so much, we appreciate all of your prayers and concern. Either he truly did feel better on my birthday or your prayers assisted, but he was able to enjoy some of the day with me which was a great improvement.

CBB- sending you hugs and prayers, please know we are so saddened by your recent loss. I do trust that God has a plan but I also hope God is reminded by our prayers how deeply our family loves and appreciates my DH.

MuffyBee - we have missed you. I hope you have returned to the US and are happy and safe. Thank you for making time to post your care and concern, God bless you.

Hi, Nonesuche,

Altmetroguy was asking about you & DH last night, and has probably sent you a note.  In case he wasn't able to here's a link:

http://www.scaredmonkeys.net/viewtopic.php?t=130&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=360

You know my prayers are with you all.

Thank you, none! Hon, everyday the hope, faith, and expectation is taken before Him that your DH will be fully restored to health and that your marriage will be even better than ever! I wouldn't and couldn't ask for anything less................it's just not in my heart. I believe He will answer that prayer! Faith as small as a mustard seed can move a mountain, and I join with all us "monkeys" in standing firm in expecting that miracle you're looking for! Scripture teaches that sometimes we don't have, because we don't ask. I'm asking for full recovery, strength and ecouragement on a daily basis until the healing is complete, and absolute protection be wrapped around you both. I believe in the future for both of you, not seperated, but joined together as was your and His intent on your wedding day! Love you, None!

None:

I am away and did not know the latest about your husband's illness.  Please know that I am praying for Mr. None's complete healing and also for you and your family as well.  When you posted about Mr. None from the beginning, I always thought how wonderful things were and how lucky you were to have him in your life.  I now know how lucky Mr. None truly is to have you in his life and by his side to join him in fighting this horrific battle as well as to receive the abundance of love you have for him.

I also read your touching notes and your reminder that there is no guarantee of tomorrow.  My nephew was killed in a car accident this year and Friday would have been his 21st birthday.  I watch my brother hug his sons and my son a little tighter and a little longer and know that in his death, my nephew taught us all how to love a little stronger and to recognize the gifts that family and friends truly are.  I have been reading this thread and see that you have opened many gifts that are your true friends here at SM.

I wish Mr. None the best and will continue to pray for a complete recovery for him.  With God, all things are possible.

With love and a hug that is a little longer for strength, Bearly

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Thinking of you today nonesuchedaisy   :wink:

Hey, None, wanted to leave you a note here since I am not able to get online much these days.  With tourism season + kids  all out of school I ahve precious little free time and we seem to spend all of it on the boat or at the beach........

I keep you and your hubby in my prayers.  You have been a great supporter and asset to this board and I hope our thoughts and prayers will bring you the strength you need to get through this.

In the words of one of my fave people of all time, NEVER GIVE UP.  (That was Jimmy V.......)

Dear None and family,  I'm been praying for all of you......I am so glad you have each other during this difficult time.......I'm not good at putting my thoughts into words, but please know I will continue to pray for a miracle, and for all of you.

Mr None's mother is here visiting and so I've had less time to read and keep up on SM, but just came into my home office for some solitude, lit my prayer candle and then signed on to read your supportive prayers and comments. I pray for all of us when I pray, we all deserve good things and health, every monkey. Please know all of you are so dear to my heart...

CBB- I could cry, you write such beautiful messages to me when I know your own heart must be full of grief for your loss. You are truly remarkable, I love you too. Sending you so many prayers particularly now.

NJSons_Mom- Thank you, metro was kind enough to email, he is such a tender and caring man. I know you always hold my hand when I most need it NJMom  :wink:

BearleyThere- Thank you, I am so sorry to hear of your nephew and perhaps God needs more angels {{ HUG }}? I could never help all of you, as much as you have our family. Thank you for your prayers and we do believe a miracle is possible so we pray for that too.

2N-
Smooches to my sweet 2N, thank you for that beautiful daisy prayer reminder. I've missed you.

Whodunit-
I know Jimmy V also and he was inspirational in his quest against cancer, thank you for reminding me of him today, I've missed seeing you too. Please take care and thank you for keeping our family in your thoughts and prayers. We will keep yours in ours too.

A note for all - Klaas is perhaps the most modest human I've ever met but she send a birthday gift this week as did MeMere and San and Angie. All lovely, thoughtful, cherished friends of ours now. I am so touched by their generosity and friendship. Klaas sent a monkey, the one I posted on the birthday thread. Please know my daughter now puts that monkey next to mr none's pillow every night, it is a comfort to her and to him, for she knows all of you are watching over us  :D Thank you so much for helping not only me, but my precious family to know what good and special people do exist in this community and would share their hearts and prayers with us as you have. I thought each of you would like to know a monkey now watches over him as he sleeps.

Nonesuche, that is so appropriate that it was Klaas who sent him a monkey and that a monkey watches over him as he sleeps. For the monkeys are in constant conversation with God about your DH and your entire family. I'm glad his mother is now there for a visit.

Thank you for offering to help organize the prayer chain. You are so thoughtful and generous to offer, as I know you truly must have your hands full these days.

God bless your family; we are all praying for your miracle!!

Hey ArtWithTheBeautifulColley - I'm sorry to hear about the cracked ribs and I hope you are feeling better soon.

Nonesuche and Mr. Nonesuche - I hope today was a good day for you, and that the rest of the week is as pain free as possible.  Hugs to you,

Oh Nonesy,
I have been away on vacation and then my computer was down for a week and I came back to read the latest developments with your husband.
I feel like such an awful friend for not reaching out to you sooner, but I see that the rest of the monkeys have got my back.
The monkeys are truly a special group of people, aren't they?
Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and Mr.None and the rest of your family.
I have come to consider you as my dear friend and it hurts my heart to know that you and your family are hurting so badly. I love ya daisy chicky!!!

Dear None and Mr. None,

I pray every night for the 2 of you and your family. I also pray for all the other Monkeys and their families for God to give them the strength to endure whatever he sets before them.

On a side note, I know you are very health conscious. Have you had your DH try Ensure for those times when he is unable to eat much. I am usually wild about chocolate in every form but in the case of Ensure I preferred the strawberry. It also comes in vanilla. If you are near a VA hospital and he goes there you may be able to get it free. My brother says they have it where he goes.

Again you are in my prayers.

Sam

Mishy, Sleuth, Cubbeegirl, and Sam
Thank you so much for caring as you do, for your prayers and for continuing to check in and keep us motivated to pray for a miracle. It helps so much, today has been a low day so it means all the more  :D

Sam-
We tried Ensure but he didn't care for the after taste, so the hospice nurse suggested Carnation Instant Breakfast which seems to be working for him. I'm relieved in that when he doesn't feel like solid food, that he's getting all his requirements for a meal.

I am praying for Artcolley too, for her injury to heal well so she can paint so beautifully again!

I have included him.I know about blood clots,from past friends.Cat

Will your car run on e-85,instead of gas?Do any of you know when TES is returning to Aruba for a search?I would to see Natalee returned to her home and church.I can wait for Justice which is coming.cat

I didn't know which forum to ask about E-85.cat

Hey, None! I couldn't sleep, and was thinking about you, so I thought I'd leave you a note here in the hopes it will find you in the midst of a good day for you and your hubby. I'm keeping you both in the front of my prayers, and sending you all the warm loving thoughts I have. I know you are probably bombarded with advice, and I hope you don't mind, but I do have just one suggestion............
I was pleased that your hubby liked the Carnation instant breakfast. It reminded me that my Dad also drank that while he underwent chemo/radiation. There were times that he just had no appetite for anything at all, and complained of everything tasting like metal. Somehow, I finally tried chilled pears. A friend had sent a box of Harry and David royal pears and I had refrigerated them. He could eat them, and he actually said they soothed his nausea. That's not as nutritious as the instant breakfast, but it was a bit of variety and I found it helped encourage his appetite. It's just a thought that I wanted to share with you.
None and Mr. None, you two are special folks. Hang on to each other and feel the strength that ebbs between you to where it's needed the most. I'm praying for and believing in a healing!!!  HUGS!

NONE...

I can't seem to cross paths with you lately. I saw your response about that post I made in the "2nd Date" thread. That's definitely not the first time anyone has told me that... and not just about THAT one girl, either...

You KNOW I am praying for you and your husband.  :wink:

None:  I just wanted to leave you a note and let you know that I continue to pray for Mr. None, you and your family.  I am not much for words, sometimes I just don't know what to say, but what I say does come from my heart.  I hope that in some small way you can draw strength from knowing that there are people out there - from so many different places, so many different walks of life that care and pray constantly for you & Mr. None.  

I will continue to pray for a miracle for Mr. None. I believe wholeheartedly in miracles.  God is good and I pray for him to give you his strength and mercy and renew your spirits daily.  God Bless you and your family.

I know about cancer.I have lost a lot of my family to it,today more are surviving.I know about blood clots and I will pray for your husband Cat

Hi None.  I hope today is a good day for your hubbie.

When a friend was going through chemo and was so sick, I remember he could eat chocolate water ices.  Is there a flavor Mr. None likes?

I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family.  I am praying for your son, it is so hard to be alone when you need to talk to someone.  You can always direct him to the cage when he needs to talk or just needs a hug.

Hugs to you and yours.

Love,
BH

CBB-

It means so much you made time during your own family's grief process to write such uplifting things to me, thank you sweet person! Like you, I found fresh fruit and for some reason cantaloupe and mango, still tasted as they always did. So when he just can't find an appetite, that chilled fruit seems to hit the spot.

Thank you for your prayers, we continue to pray for a miracle and your prayers help to keep us motivated to believe in all things and all possibilities. Many hugs to you, our continued prayers for your family as well and your grand-nephew. Please take care.

SB-

I always knew you were like mr none, an honorable man, and smart women know that is worth it's weight in gold. I hope your father is healing well, I've kept him in our prayers along with your family.

Yes I knew you were praying for us, thank you for being a much appreciated guardian monkey angel.

thank you Cat, We do appreciate your prayers and concern very much.

Kimmy-

You write lovely words, thank you for caring so much and for your prayers from your heart for our family. God is benevolent and faith and love are powerful forces, so we do appreciate you praying for a miracle with us. Surely God hears so many generous and caring prayers, I am certain of that.

God bless you too Kimmy, always.

Bearly,

Thank you, the flavored ices are a great suggestion, particularly when it's so hot. We'll give those a try. Thank you for caring and for your prayers, and for those especially for our son also. He is just very reserved and I know he's posted once on the FP, but I knew he reads here and I've sent him links to this thread so he will know how much all of you truly do care. I feel sure he draws strength and hope from all the caring monkeys.

Hugs to you Bearley, you've been a good friend and we appreciate you very much.

nonesuche~ You and DH have been on my mind all day. I pray all is as well as can be expected.

None, I know your time is precious with your family as it should be, but we do so appreciate your updates as we continue to pray for you and think of you and your dear precious family.

None, thinking of you and yours today and every day.  Rest when you can.  Hugs always.

Justins, tylergal, & Peaches

thank you so much for your continued support and prayers, and encouragement. Today he does seem a bit better :D

Peaches-
I pray everyday for this disease to vanish from your life forever.

God Bless you None and your hubby.  I hope the feeling beter continues.
You are both in my thoughts.

Hugs,
MissinNat

None,

Thinking of you and your family... sending sunshine, daisies, smiles and big hugs.

Missinnat and Frijole-

Thank you, hugs in return for you both, our family appreciates your ongoing support and prayers so much. Today he ate well, so that is a good day. He also tried to goose me with his control for his hospital bed, so his sense of humor is still intact  :oops:  :lol: mr funny guy!

Now that is what doctors call animated and "animated" Is good.

LOL! Glad he's still spunky, none!

Nonesuche,

I think of you and your husband so often - even when I don't have time to post - and want you to know you both are in my prayers.  May God's strength fill you and give you peace and hope and joy.

Bless you,
SSD

tyler and justins-

His humor was why I fell in love with him, he could make me laugh at myself so quickly but never in a mean way. So that silly gesture today just meant the world, I know you understand what I mean. I joked that the next thing may be to walk in finding him nekky with the bed doing all kinds of mechanical ups and downs just to make me laugh!! We have the monkey velcro'd to the side rail against the wall as well, so the monkeys are always watching over him  :D

SSD-
Thank you for your kind post and for checking in, I really appreciate it. I've just printed out this thread for him to read with me at breakfast, it truly is an important part of each day for us.

Hi None and Mr. None--

Glad you are feeling spunky, Mr. N, next time I want to hear you got her with that bed control.   :lol:

Hope you are having a good day and the days get better and better.  I hear you have invented a new pastime--riding nekkid on the monkey bed.  :shock:

You guys are really lucky to have found each other, wishing you a long lucky lifetime filled with laughter and surprises.

Praying for that miracle.

Bearlyhere

None, this is for you and Mr None, wishing you a beautiful and rosy day from my garden pickings.

http://tinypic.com/2419v7r.jpg

Bearly-

Trust me, no nekky for me I am over the hill now  :lol: but thank you for such a sweet note. Humor is such a great diffuser for us, it does help lots as do all of your kind notes and prayers. I'm looking forward to our prayer vigil tonight, it's such a comfort. {{ Hugs }}

tyler-

You are so talented, those roses are just breathtaking, thank you!!!!!!  :D

None~

I have been gone for 2 weeks on vacation and now with my 3rd day back home I finally have started the great task to get somewhat caught back up. (might be days before I'm up to speed)  :)  

This is the first thread I opened up out of all the threads at SM. I am truly sorry for what you, Mr. None and your family are going thru' right now. If there was anything I could do to take the pain away from you and yours and make things be great for you I'd do it in a heartbeat. My heart aches for you all!  I want you to know that even though I don't post much and am in the background for the most parts, Mr. None, you, and your families are in my thoughts and prayers all of the time. I do think of ya'll alot and know that it's a difficult journey that you're on. I also wanted to say I'm in full agreement with what all of the other monkeys have posted to you (None), Mr. None, and your families.

Faith is not what we see, but what we believe. Please remember that the Lord has ya'll right in his hand, he has never let you go and He will not give you more than you can handle. I'm sorry for this being to long but I just want to send lots of {{{{HUGS}}}} your way and tell you that you will continue to stay in my thoughts and prayers until otherwise noted not to. :)

Roo~

None and Mr. None,
I just finished my prayer time.  I want you to know that much of it was for you both.  I know life has dealt you a blow and there are no words of comfort I can give you. If I could wish this burden from you both, it would already be gone.  I have wished it many times.  I just want you to know that I love you and even though we haven't met, I feel as if I have known you for a long time.  I have found out that love is truly the one enduring thing that nothing can touch. Not pain or sorrow.  Love endures all things.  You know where Love comes from, your heart and you know who puts that love there...God.  He's still here with you two and he's holding you in His Hands.

How do you dress in the shower if not nekky?   :P

Bearly-

I try not to look when I'm in the shower  :wink:

Rooscrew-

Thank you so very much for your kind and sweet note, it's wonderful to see you back, I hope you and your family are well and happy.

Lala's-

What can I say? I love you too, you are my dear dear friend. Mr None appreciates all the friends I've made and their care and concern for our family, so very much. My daughter read the thread last night again, her remark with a smile was "this is such a nice group of people and you are all such sweet friends".  :)

Hugs to the None Family {{{{{{Hug}}}}}  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  I had to grin when I read Mr. None tried to goose you, None.  Nothin' wrong with frisky thoughts....

Dear Mr. and Mrs. None and Family:

Just wanted you to know that even though there's so much going on in the regular threads, that a day never goes by that I don't say a prayer for all of you and try to keep good thoughts in my head for you too.  God bless all of you, and I know all will be well because we are all in the hands of a power much greater than ourselves; illness, misfortune, fear, or any of those other things we all battle against each and every day will never win as long as we remember this.   XOXOXOXOXO

Dear None and family -

Am thinking of you this weekend and continue to pray for miracles, happiness and warm moments spent together as a family.  Know that there are many Monkey Angels looking out for you in thought and prayer.

Hugs, daisies, and sunshine -
Beans

None, your last update touched me very much.  Know that we are with you in spirit, if not physically.  Please try to get some rest.  You are a better attendant if you are rested.  I know it is hard but try.  I know you are very, very tired as anyone would be but you give so much of yourself.  I hope when the kids and Nana arrive, you will have more physical and moral support nearby.  I know just having them there will mean a lot.

Mr. And Mrs. None and all your family,

I continue to keep you all in my prayers. May God give you the strength to endure all this with love and humor.

Sam

Thinking and praying for you today and always.... :)   Mere

If love and frienship could make miracles, you would be blessed with an abundance of them.  

God bless you all.

Appeals, Frijole, Sam, tylergal, MeMere & Bearlythere-

Thank you for all your kind support and prayers, it is a challenging time and we had hoped to see the tides turn, but we are staying the course. Daughter took this photo as we lay together and prayed together today. Little Sophie watches over him too, and I thought you'd all like seeing the monkey Klaas sent watching over us all as well.

We feel you in spirit and we thank you for embracing us and lifting us higher, so that we keep our hope, we always have hope.

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This is likely something for the political thread but I wanted to share for so many of you have your hearts tied up in our challenge, and I want you to have answers also. Mr None served in the Gulf War, and post his service was part of a study with the VA regarding Gulf War Syndrome that resulted in nothing, absolutely nothing.

this morning an article appears on AOL via the AP, detailing a group of veterans now suing the Army, for exactly the same type of physical ailments and cancers, which Mr None has been battling.

He returned with issues with his spine, migraines, joint pains, night sweats and short-term memory loss. Just so you'll understand the associative risks, he was an architect for the harrier's which were used to bomb Baghdad each and every night. Crawling around the missle chambers to ensure circuitry was operational among the spent uranium expelled from missle firings has likely cost him his life.

If you have the chance to make a difference here, please do. Roughly 30% of our Gulf War veterans are suffering similar maladies.

http://articles.news.aol.com/news/_a/is-an-armament-sickening-us-soldiers/20060812123809990008?ncid=NWS00010000000001

thanks for posting that sweet pic none!! monkeys and kitties can live in harmony!!lol
is it too late for mr none to join that groups suit? is it a class action suit?prayers and many hugs for my sister!

cuz-

I suspect his parents will pursue obtaining a hearing, I have to admit that today beyond trying to ensure he's surrounded with love and care, that our visit with the head of oncology for the VA Hospital here, Dr. Jacob Gollob, rings in my ears.

He dissed my questions around these very issues, by stating that no latent studies have been done to qualify these ailments? I chose not to fire back that our allies Britain and Australia have, and that Ross Perot funded a study in the US in 2001 for the VA refused to?

Seeing that test for bodily fluids on these vets demonstrate uranium all these years later, just imagine the impact to their loved ones, and possibly to their children they father ultimately? I have to wonder if the VA has any conscience regarding this either.

Sorry for my rant but it's just a protracted way of giving your life for your country, but an extended process with no support from our government to ensure they have best of care.

None and all

I am still praying for a miracle.

I am familiar with the term Gulf War syndrome but I was not aware of the depleted uranium issue.  I will try to bring the topic up with a physician I know who is now running for congress.  He was instumental in keeping our VA hospital open.  The government does work slow...but maybe some good can come from your posting and situation.

I am sure you have researched everything (as smart as you are). A quick search of the NIH (national institutes of health) (which is governmental) brought an interesting file.  I plan on reading and becoming informed.  I will leave the link for you or others.

http://www.ehponline.org/science-ed/2005/depleteduranium.pdf

Prayers.....

None, I, too, thank you for posting the article. I've passed it on, already.

Thinking of you and your family daily.  Praying for a miracle.  (http://bestsmileys.com/flowers/8.gif)

buckeye,

thank you for the article and thank you for caring enough to proactively speak with a political candidate on behalf of so many vets impacted by this. You may also wish to reference to him that the only study to date of a latent nature in the US, was financed by Ross Perot in 2001 when he was appalled by the numbers of special forces soldiers he knew personally had been affected and were getting no VA assistance.

I had not seen this article and it's a really good piece, so I will add it to the file I am building.

He had a rough night with an episode that left his extremities blue and him gasping for breath, gratefully a hospice nurse lives closeby and was able to help avert the crisis. I do believe angels walk among us, post the time, care and attention she afforded each of us tonight, I am convinced she is one.

I do have photos he took from the soccer stadium the harriers were deployed from also, just 30 miles downwind from the Kuwait oil fires, with gray skies for nearly four months daily. The article you provided also mentions the blood-brain barrier, a term I had not heard until DH was administered the only melanoma chemo drug that passes thru that barrier, temodar. Australia is working to bring an immunetherapy drug to market in 2007 for melanoma and also breast cancer. Both are designed to beef up immune systems much like a vaccine, so that they can combat the cancer without destroying normal and healthy cells as traditional treatments do. I also find it interesting this company is a start-up, when we have so many pharma companies of long-standing here who pursue only traditional chemo drugs and not immune-therapy options? Why is this? The almighty dollars earned from cancer drug therapies is massive.

Australia should be commended for their efforts. The website for that company is www.vaccinoma.com and I hope they are very successful.

I only hope this cycle of denial is broken soon but fear it likely will not be, for Bush has had a term-and-one-half to change this, yet the VA continues to deny spent uranium, carcinogenic oil particles, or even bad vaccines has had anything to do with creating Gulf War syndrome despite Gulf War vets in the state of Mississippi having a 6% increase in debilitating birth defects in their children born since their service?

Is there no shame?

thank you Mom, your virtual hand is a comfort always and we continue to pray for a miracle.

God bless all of you.

None

I'm so sorry for what you are going through.  A bad night here and there makes every night difficult with anticipation.  Please utilize the hospice people to have some destress time for yourself.  The hospice nurses and volunteer teams are angels...and they are there for the whole family.  Make sure you realize they are there for your peace also.  Adrenelin only lasts so long.

Gleevac was going to be our new miracle drug.  The US companies are very much tied into profits.  I haven't taken the time to research the current drug "pipeline".  I will be much more aware due to your situation.

Thank you

Buckeye-

I surmised you work in the medical field some time back, thank you for making time to listen to me beat my chest, when you likely have patients galore that need you too.

I guess I just wish we all would choose to do the right thing, we as people for then Nat would be with us today, our governments for then there might be no war, our pharma industries, etc. Life would be so much simpler then.

You are wise, the nights are indeed the hardest for it is what you don't know that you fear  :wink:

God bless and thank you.

Nonesy, Just checking in to let you know that you and your family are in our prayers at the Cubbee household. When I had my mother here with me under hospice care the nights seemed to be so long.
God bless you and your family.....and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

Love you sistah!

Cubbee

None, I am so sorry you are having bad nights.  

When my son was younger and in distress, I used to take the nights 5 minutes at a time.  

I used to say, "okay 5 minutes," and when we reached it, celebrate that 5 minutes and then say, "okay another 5 minutes", and then celebrate again over and over until the morning came.

Maybe this will help you, too.

I was just thinking of you, None, and came here to let you know. You and Hubby remain in my thoughts and prayers many times a day, and obviously at night, too. The nights are hardest for you both, I'm sure. Sending you warm HUGS, and my heartfelt determination to "stand in the gap" for your family. Love you!

Mrs. None, I'm so aware of what all of you are experiencing~I am so glad your family is close~that is a true gift for Mr. None and all of you.  You are all in my thoughts every day, many times during the day~my prayers are constant, and the wish for a miracle still remains.  
I'm not good at expressing my feelings here, but please know how much I care.  With many hugs and much love to you and Mr. None and son and daughter.

Hi None.  Just checked in here and saw the pic of you, Mr. None, et al.  Thank you for posting it.  It helps us all to feel closer to you both.  As if we are there with you giving you strength and support, which is what we would all like to do I know.  Thanks also for the article on the vets.  This absolutely infuriates me that those who voluntarily went out to defend us all and our freedoms...and whatever else they got sent out for...have now been ignored when they are suffering the results of that service.  I think we all need to loudly notify our Congressional representatives...and yes, the President too... of our anger about this and hound them until they do something about it.

Please give Mr. None a hug and kiss directly from me and I'll go say some prayers right now.  Love,

tidycat

Nonesuche,
I was just thinking about you and I am going to go say a prayer now for you and your family. I hope you are staying strong. Big hug!!

Hi None and family....

I do read in here for updates and appreciate the email updates. I am keeping you in my prayers  - and just wanted you to know that I am praying and hoping for the best...

Cubbee- Thank you sweetie, your emails and posts mean so much, and your understanding!

Bearlyhere- Thank you for that advice, I will try that the next time we have another crisis, for he does rip out his oxygen at night and it makes me worry so much I can't sleep.

Crazybabyborg - I've missed you, and it's to thoughtful of you to worry about us when your family is still grieving. Thank you and I love you too, and  you are always in our prayers.

tcumom- Thank you so much, for all your care and your prayers for us, and I hope things are improving for mr tcumom with his job search. I keep him and your family in our prayers.

Tidycat - Sigh, I've missed you sorely, so good to see you back. It's true that it is not just mr none being denied services he's earned, it is roughly 30% of our gulf war vets. If we are to keep our country safe we must all support our veterans as well as our current soldiers and armed services, always ! Thank you for caring enough to want to change this.

Spooky - Thank you sweetie, say one for son for he says he's finding it hard to do his best currently, I think it's just so stressful.

Mrs Red - Thank you, I appreciate your prayers and concern and SM's support for our family, very very much.

I posted this on the lively but also want to post it here as well. Senator Richard Burr's office has stepped up to assist me in navigating the VA and also SSA, and have not let us down within that as many others have to include Liz Dole who is married to a disabled vet and David Price, another senator on the armed services committee! So expect to see me campaign for Senator Burr in the future, his staff has been caring and supportive and doing all that they can to light fires under these agencies which is a godsend.

God bless all of you and know we are very thankful to each of you.

I just read Angie's post on the board, None...

You and your husband are in my heart and in my prayers.

None, Hubby, Son and Daughter -

Please know the 4 of you are in my prayers.

Praying for you and your family, none.

May the Lord hold all of you closely and tenderly in the palm of His hand.

My prayers are with all of you ~ my heart hurts so for all of you ~ it is so very hard, I know.  With many prayers and hugs, and much love to Mr. and Mrs. None, and the None son and daughter.

None you and Mr.None and all of Mr. Nones family are in my prayers during this difficult time. May God give you strength as well as his love to comfort you.

Sam

Nonesy, may an angel ride on your shoulder and may God carry you and your family through this heartbreaking time .

Love ya !

Love you all, and am with you in spirit.  Hold tight.

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My thoughts and prayers are with you.

None,

May your family find peace and strength through God at this difficult time.

Dear Nonesuche, I'm praying for peace and rest for all of you and for many angels to surround all of you and help you during this difficult time.  I love you and my heart just aches for all of you.   Love,

tidycat

Nonesuche - a big hug to you.

 My heart hurts for what you are having to go through.  I hope this time is one of peace for you and your family.

Prayers and jugs,
Sleuth

My prayers are sent for the None family's comfort and peace.   Hugs to you all !!:cry:



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you have been in my thoughts and prayers daily none! your love and compassion is an inspiration to us all. the way you handle the heartaches life sends us with such dignity is a gift.  mr none...god be with you!

None - my thoughts and heartfelt prayers are with you and your family.  May God hold you in the palm of his hand and confort and strengthen you and give you a peace only He can.

Dear None:

I don't know what to say so I'll sing you this song

Sweet Hour Of Prayer

Sweet hour of prayer, sweet hour of prayer, that calls me from a world of care

And bids me at my Father's throne, Make all my wants and wishes known!

In seasons of distrss and grief, My soul  has often found relief,
And oft escaped the tempters snare By thy return, sweet hour of prayer


Sweet hour of prayer, sweet hour of prayer, thy wings shall my petition bear

To Him, whose truth and faithfulness  Engage the waiting soul to bless

And since he bids me seek His face, Believe His word, and trust His grace,
I'll cast on Him my every care, and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer.

We love you None.

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

I’d stay in the garden with Him
Though the night around me be falling,
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling.

http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/i/t/g/itgarden.htm

HOW FIRM A FOUNDATION by John Keith

How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said—
To you who for refuge to Jesus have fled?

“Fear not, I am with thee, oh, be not dismayed,
For I am thy God, and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,
Upheld by My gracious, omnipotent hand.

“When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of sorrow shall not overflow;
For I will be with thee thy trouble to bless,
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

“When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie,
My grace, all-sufficient, shall be thy supply;
The flame shall not harm thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine.

“The soul that on Jesus doth lean for repose,
I will not, I will not, desert to his foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.”


We love you, Nonesuche.

We are all with you...each hour of this day....and all together at 3:00 p.m. your time....to give you and your family the love and strength you need.

THE GREATEST OF THESE IS LOVE

What if I could speak

all languages of humans

and of angels?

If I did not love others,

I would be nothing more

than a noisy gong

or a clanging cymbal.

What if I could prophesy

and understand all secrets

and all knowledge?

And what if I had faith

that moved mountains?

I would be nothing,

unless I loved others.

What if I gave away all

that I owed

and let myself

be burned alive?

I would gain nothing,

unless I loved others.

Love is kind and patient,

never jealous, boastful,

proud, or rude.

Love isn't selfish

or quick tempered.

It doesn't keep a record

of wrongs that others do.

Love rejoices in the truth,

but not in evil.

Love is always supportive,

loyal, hopeful,

and trusting.

For now there are faith,

hope, and love.

But of these three,

the greatest is love.

1 Corinthians 13. 1-7,13

None-May God bless you and your husband.  You will be in my prayers...

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love


Nonesuche and family - you are all surrounded by love.

Your family is in my prayers. God bless.

None- I am so sorry that this had to happen to all of you.  Much love and prayers as you go through this trying time just know that there are many here to offer you all love, friendship and support.

None,
Just want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this most difficult time...
God bless

None....well you know :? .....take strength from all of us when you need too...we will be here for you.

Our Father in Heaven,
I pray today for a family I do not know.  In the darkest hours of their own crisis, they have become a beacon for many.  They are a family of faith, bearing their burdens in dignity and, as the Apostle Paul described, "are fighting the good fight".

I ask today, Father, that this family be blessed.  That they know that others share their burden, and pray for them many times a day.  May they have the peace and solace of loving family and friends at this difficult time.  May they have the comfort of the Holy Spirit, and the strength to endure that comes with knowing and accepting Thy will.  May they know that others weep for them and with them.  May the angels surround them and give them peace for as long as the need remains.  

I pray in the name of our dear Savior, Jesus Christ,

Amen

Nonesuche and family I'm not good at sadness so I hope you understand my words..  When I need to find answers and comfort I go to the ocean and sit in total darkness..I love silence, stillness, total darkness. The darkness is one of the things I love about the ocean. I'll go sit on the beach at night on a moonless night and look out over the water and there's nothing but blackness. It's very soothing to me. Another thing I love about the ocean is that it's so immense. You can't see the end of it. It goes on forever. There's something there that appeals to me.  So tonight I will goto the ocean and sit there and will bring you and Mr. nonesuche with me..  What age do you and Mr. Nonesuche remember yourselves as?  I have a theory that when people reach a certain age (it's different for everyone, I think), they always think of themselves as that age in their minds, even though their bodies age. I'm explaining that poorly, I know. Or maybe it advances in increments as one ages, I haven't figured that out yet. I think my brain stopped remembering my age when I turned about 35, at least that's the age I always think I am before I stop to think about it.   Well I better go and just know that you and mr nonesuche has a date to sit with me over looking the ocean.

More wildlife stories--there is a large flock (gaggle?) of white sand pipers that hang out where I live because there is a man-made pond on the property. Today I didn't see them, so I looked around for them and found them playing in the lawn sprinklers. They were all standing under the spray of the sprinklers, spreading their wings and dancing around, looking for all the world like a bunch of children enjoying the cool shower..Umm I think I might join them..  Remember the time I put the picture of a snake up that was on the French Door to the outside and wanted to know if anyone knew what type it was.. I think it freak out a lot of people having the snake on the blog and it was kinda funny and I really didn't do it on purpose.. I'm glad that you and Mr. Nonesuche enjoyed my stories,  I think thats why people hired me at work, so I can tell them stories about my weekend..  I was told today at lunch that I sound like Marven the martian because I have a sore throat..  They wanted me to leave voice mails messages so they could listen to me later on.. I guess I should be upset but I think with this cold, I do sound like Marven..  "In direct violation of the Neptune accord, you shot off a vast array of quaint lower life forms"..  So if you get a voicemail and the person sounds like Marvin the Martian, its just me...

Sistah,
  I have been praying for you guys endlessly. God Bless you all.
I love yah sistah.

None,  Please know that you and hubby have been in my prayers, and that I continue to pray for you and your family. You and your hubby have endured so much this past year, and I pray that God will continue to guide you through his plan. Your hubby is a very lucky man to have you by his side, this much I know. God bless you both, and your family.

None -
Lexie's prayer covers all of my sentiments.  I don't have the eloquence to express how much I have and will be praying for you and indeed your entire family.
 

(HUGS)))

I am so sorry and heartbroken for all of the Nones.

My thoughts and prayers are with the None Family.

Thank you Tyler for posting this...  I'm glad to see you here.

Thank you for coming here for None and her husband, Mermaid...


We miss all the Monkeys...  I hope you all come back home soon.

thanks for the inspitational postings snoopy,tyler,bt and frijole!!
i know they comforted me!

{{{hugs}}} None.... hi... My prayers are with you and yours...

I was crying before when I started praying the Chaplet of Mercy for Mr. None...

But, as I sat there, I looked at Jesus on the crucifix on the Rosary Beads in my hands.... that Rosary came from Medjugorje, Croatia ~ a place that is very special to Jesus and Mary right now...

So I asked Mary, my Heavenly Mom, to go meet your husband with that prayer in her hands...

Under my tears a smile slowly broke, as I imagined him seeing her, walking towards him with the flowers of that prayer in her hands, coming up to him to place a sweet kiss of welcome on his forehead...

I hope Mr. None tells her "hi" for me...

Hi Cuz ~ I've missed you ~ thank you for being here for None...

None, I know there are many angels gathered around your family, along with the prayers and love of many monkeys.  It is a time of feeling helpless and  also of accepting God's will, when we realize we are totally in His hands, and He will take care of us.  

Amen to Lexie's beautiful prayer.  

Tylergal, that is my favorite hymn next to Amazing Grace.  I have a recording of Elvis singing it and it is truly beautiful.  And BT, I loved what you posted.

Tylergal and FlyingMermaid, it is good to see you here and I hope you will join us back in LCD as well.  We need you.

This hymn has been circling my brain these past days.  I heard it at every funeral I attended of every single relative on both sides.  And I love it.  May I commend Lexie on her fabulous post.  It sums up the feelings and hopes and prayers of so many of us.

May an angel in heaven
                   bless your life
                       with sunny days
                              and starry nights.

May he play for you
         a gentle song
                and guard your heart
                 from dusk till dawn.

You know how I feel and you know that above all you are special to me.

Dear Lord, Please take all of the None's into your loving arms and wrap them with peace and love. We never know the reasons that we suffer in our earthly bodies, but I know you take our spirit and we live with joy and love in your presence for all eternity. Please Lord, if you must take Mr. None's earth body at this time, I know he will be at peace in your presence.  Lord I ask you to help this family with their loss of their loved one. The loving family that is left behind are the ones that are in pain and grieving. Please give them strength to endure and let them find strength in the love and memories they cherish of their lives together. Let the knowledge that we will all be together in your arms never to suffer again, be of comfort to this family in the days, months and years to come. In Jesus name I pray. Amen


Respectfully, rockyroads

It's taken me until today to gather my strength to read this particular thread once again. Thank you to all who supported us with prayers during his illness and subsequent death.

I've discussed with others who have lost family to cancer and it does seem to place you in a form of inertia, I think because you focus your will and entire being toward healing that when that outcome isn't there -- it is a struggle to accept that alone, much less losing those you love so dearly.

My daughter and I talked last night about how important it was that he go with love, she was very brave and stayed with him and myself until the end. The image of her laying her head next to his for hours is one that comforts me. His oncologist wrote that without our love this journey would have been unbearable for him, which is what I am trying to focus on now, just the wealth of love we all shared.

It's slow going though, somedays it's a mammoth effort just to rise from sleep and walk through the day, but we are trying. Thank each of you for giving of yourselves and sharing this journey with us. It is a gift you give to others, and a gift we feel honored to have had.

God bless all the monkeys.

We love you None.

A big hug to you, Nonesuche.  You are an inspiration to all of us.

WOOHOO!  I love your avitar.  I feel honored!  FLY HIGH....FLY FREE DEAR RICK!  You are so beautiful and free!  

None, we all love you.  Of that you should never doubt.

I'm just checking in on you None. Every day I ask that God help you and your family, but I know that sometimes the grieving process itself makes for heartache. Take your time, and know that you are not alone. I love your avatar,,,,,,,it's perfect.
You continue to give us such a wonderful gift. You taught us how to walk through commitment and love even facing loss, and you did that with gentle determiniation. You now exemplify inspiration with your ability to understand and recognize beauty in the midst of grief. You are special, None. You are a child of God. Lean on Him, None. His child has been hurt and He loves you so much. He'll lead you through this. Take care, hon and please know there are unseen friends that care about your every day and keep you in their hearts!   Love, Susan

CBB... You always manage to say what I feel. Thank you - and None, I hope that with passing day, you heal a little more and the greif is a little less.

*self edit... to spell..

May GOD Bless you and your family!   I pray for your strength and courage to get you through.  Just remember, he is with you now in spirit now, his body is no longer suffering.  He is at rest and only a matter of time, before you see him again.

With Love.....

Jacq, Sleuth, Anidac, CBB, Mrs Red, & Dihannah and all the other caring monkeys on this thread-

None of you are unseen friends CBB, all of you are treasured friends and at times it has been easier for me to express myself to all of you, than to friends in person. Writing has always been easier for me than speaking my deepest feelings, so please know how much this helps. It also is something real and vivid our children read also, which is a comfort to them too.

Anidac sent a lovely butterfly lamp to our family, I was unaware of the symbolism of the butterfly in death and rebirth, so this was a special gift. So I can't take credit for the avatar, my friend Anidac inspired that new lesson and it is a comfort. Yesterday I walked outside with my mother and a butterfly fluttered nearby, and then flew across and over our rose. In the last hour as he passed on, I began to tell him to fly with the angels for I could not see him suffer any longer, and he was suffering just to breathe. Seeing that butterfly emerge yesterday the moment we stepped outside helped me to begin to heal and to find solace within.

Many of you have sent emails, gifts, cards and flowers. We have been so touched by all the efforts you each have made, each of you. So I hope everyone sees the importance of what you share with others and how meaningful it truly can be, and how so many of you have impacted our life  during this tragedy in affirming and supportive measure.

Friendship is continuous, it is a circle that can hold you close and only let one fall so far, before the circle catches you. I think if ever we are all that God hopes we can be, it is within our best moments of loving another, whether that is our family, our children, our spouses, or our friends.

God bless each of you for being my friend and for caring about our family so deeply.

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SMOTHERING YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN KISSES, NONE!

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Write when you can.  I love your posts but I look forward to your participation in the forum once again.  Although I might not be there to post, I will always be lurking.  

Your passion for Natalee's situation and for life, your love for your family and friends shine through and I know that you are being blessed because you have been a friend, the circle of friends is here for you.  

We are all here, wanting to know what we can do.  Give us a chore.  We need to feel needed.  Some of us have empty nests and we love projects. :)

CBB,

Thank you, for the photos and the music you have sent and your many caring emails and posts, thank you for being such a bright spot of support. It stopped raining here today so I'm hopeful we'll have a visit from our butterfly for we have much work to do in the yard, after months of little time for it. It would make my day and my week to see one.

tyler-

It makes me sad that you and Anna as well as CBB don't post as you used to on the lively. You as a group had some of the most thought-provoking posts, and your historical knowledge combined with political and criminal commentary helped me to see things that I may not have. I feel I have less to contribute now, for having been away so long. I am trying to read some of the new statement translations and hopefully soon I can get back into the swing of posting.

I know Rick would tell us all to 'go girls' and make a difference in this case, he did speak with Dave once by phone with a security issue, and he like me felt we should all do anything we can to help this family.

An email from tesslacoyle reminded me of something I found interesting at the time, that a candle was lit from Aruba during Rick's last days on this earth, in the virtual candle room. That reinforces my hope that there are some in Aruba that do care about others beyond the obvious ones like Jossy, that might not be able to come forward, but that they have compassion and do appreciate that SM has pursued enlightenment for this case.

So maybe the project we need is to remember that one lit candle from Aruba? I want to thank that person for lighting it, for it pushed me to think beyond my own tragic loss and to remember that perhaps Natalee was there to greet Rick when he arrived in heaven with others he loved and lost.

tyler I also hope you'll continue to write those classic southern short stories for us, there is something special about the south and your writing reminds me of Anne Rivers Siddon's first expose Peachtree Road.

Keep it up -- love you all dearly, so dearly and always.

We can catch up together, None. I don't post because I'm so far behind. I went through a time that I had no time to participate, and now am lost. I'm in 100% support of this forum, and do lurk when I can, but it's gotten hard to contribute.
I'm thrilled the rain has stopped and you are getting outside! That's good for you as well as the yard. I'm sure there are butterflies watching!  :wink:

CBB-

Stranger than fiction, daughter/little none was ahead of me in a front flower bed digging at a huge weed, the very same flower bed she photographed a butterfly in back in May.

She looked up for something fluttered all in her face, she was swatting not knowing what it was at first, then realized it was a butterfly. It actually landed on her shoulder for seconds, I only wish we had gotten a photo of that. But this is remarkable and I wish you could have seen her face, she was beaming ....and I will never forget her sweet face and her joy over this butterfly.

We got photos just after:

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Awwww nonesy, this post made me smile!

AW NONE!!! Your post gave me goosebumps and made me teary with awe. Don't worry about not getting the picture, Your "mind's eye" has that moment safely stored for you to replay whenever you want. Thank you, None! You've made my day and life brighter. HUGS!

I'm sorry.............I can't ever get anything said in one post! None, that is just so awesome! Isn't communication that really communicates without the burden of words so much more real? Thank you so very much for sharing that moment with us!

So nice to hear from you, Tyler!  Have a safe fall!

Missin Nat

CBB-

The moment was all the more special for a reason, will email you why, except to say that daughter so deserves affirmation for her own courage throughout his illness.

{{{ HUGS }}}

Cubbee-

Check your email later as well {{{ HUGS }}} and thank you.