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I love that poem, one of our friends I love most in this world gave us that poem framed, it's on my desk and will always be there.

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One treatment down, five more to go.........we're with you all the way.



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My sentiments exactly.

I know from reading here that you are a strong lady.  Stay strong and know that there are many more giving you strength.

keep that positive, wonderful fiesty attitude and we will be there with you when you kick cancer's butt!  Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts!

(((Peaches)))

“Most of us, swimming against the tides of trouble the world knows nothing about, need only a bit of praise or encouragement - and we will make the goal.”

 Robert Collier (American motivational author, 1885-1950)

We love you Peaches. You can beat this!! We're here for you and we stand behind you, sweetie!!!

Peaches. you are in my prayers and i know you are gonna be as good as new! You have a wonderful attitude. we love you sweety!!!
positive thoughts all around you!

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Peaches,  you are an inspiration to all of us.  I admire your positive outlook and upbeat attitude.  

Ms Vada

Dear Peaches, you have been an inspiration to many of us here on SM when we have had both major and minor setbacks in our lives.
Wishing you the best outcome possible and God's strong and caring angels to be with you through this latest hurdle, which I know you will overcome with your usual humour and flair.  Go get it, Peaches!

Peaches,

You are special to many of us and a constant inspiration.  Keep up the fight and know we are here for you.  Lots of prayers sent your way.  Big Red Ones too!  :wink:

Love ya sister,
Beans

I was just heading to bed, I wanted to let you know you are in my heart and my prayers.  :D

{{ HUGS }}

Peaches - We will be here for you with our thoughts and prayers. You mean a lot to everyone here, and we want you to know that, and take strength from it. You have many, many friends at SM who care.
Hang in there.....we'll be with you all the way.

Peaches -- I was driving in my car yesterday when Ray Charles came on singing "Georgia" and I immediately thought of you and sent the best vibes that I have.

I know we have lots of posters from Georgia -- but with your 'Georgia' Peach avatar -- to me, you are the very essence of Georgia :lol:

I listen to a lot of Ray Charles... I hope the good vibes help  8)

Peaches, my heart broke for you when you told us they found another spot of cancer. I had so hoped you would not have had to go through more treatment. May God bless you and carry you through this again. We are all here praying for you. You are our Georgia Peaches!

Peaches
For the rest of my life anytime I think of Georgia I will truly think of you.  I have already told you that you are my hero.  As I told TerryD, I don't give out that distinction very often.  You have been one of the strongest people I have ever met with your battle against cancer.  Hang in here with us and know that I am praying for you.  God loves you and His plans are perfect.  He made you and brought you to us and for that all of us monkeys are ever so thankful.

Peaches!   Girl hang in there.  We are all rooting for you..cheering you on.  You are indeed loved lots and lots!

I luv your wit.  I know your fiestiness will bring you thru once again.

You are constantly in my prayers.

God Bless you Friend.

Peaches~

I'm sending to you lots of good vibes, lots of {{{{HUGS}}}} and many prayers your way today.  :)  

GO PEACHES!!!  :)

Roos~

God Bless you buddy.  You're going to beat this again.  I think of you daily.  You're my hero.  Now slap this cancer silly!!

just wanted to add my love and prayers to a special member of our monkey family!! so wonderful to come here and draw inspiration from this amazing group! thank you peaches for being an important part of sm!!

Lest you all worry that I am truly a terminal case, let me tell you why I expect a miracle.  A couple Sunday mornings ago, I was channel surfing and landed on Joel O’Steen.  I only caught the last couple minutes of his show but my ears perked up when he said “don’t believe the ‘never’.”  He told a story about earlier in his career when he was trying to raise funds for a building.  He heard a lot of “never” but chose not to believe the “never” and went forward, living with gratitude and hope.  

We should live with an attitude of gratitude, hope and expectancy.  It’s better to live with hope and expectancy than with despair and discouragement.  Therefore, we should stay hopeful, make preparations and thank God in expectation.  Keep the vision in front of you and don’t settle.  Some people are content to wait for God to answer their prayers rather than thanking God that the answer is on the way.  One needs to go from waiting (passive) to expecting (active).  

If I believe that God is always with me, I have to believe He knows everything about me and my cancer.  He is the only one who knows the number of my days.  He knows the prayers on the hearts on my family, friends, co-workers and my beloved SM family.  I have to trust that His answer is coming… in His time, not mine.  I have to wait expectantly.  

“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future” – Jeremiah 29:11.

Seems like a simple concept.  Live expectantly.  Expect a miracle.  Thank God the answer is on the way.

Peaches - you're an amazing person and my hero!

((HUGS))

Peaches,

we are supposed to be supporting you and after reading that you gave me some much needed support today!  I am in awe!

and even if I don't post it ~ you are in my prayers every day!!

As I type thru tear filled eyes, I sit here in awe of you Peaches.  What you have written in this post is a Life Lesson that applies to all facets of someones lives.  I really needed to hear this and I will apply this to my life.  Thank you for blessing me today.

I have no doubt in my mind that you will come thru this with flying colors.  I have such respect for you - You are a true inspiration.  

God has blessed me through you.  (((hugs)

Peaches what an inspirational post.  These are such encouraging words and I thank you for writing them for all to hear.

I want you to know I say a prayer for you every night and I too expect a miracle for you.

Peaches

The thought has never even crossed my mind that you are not going to beat this. I know that you are, without a doubt. You have had the surgery you needed to have, and now you're having the chemo that will finish taking care of the problem.

You are a strong woman with a wonderful attitude, and you are going to be totally healthy again before long.

Big hugs and smoochies.

You are an amazing woman.  You inspire so many.  I know I'm blessed for knowing you.  I have never had any doubt, and still don't have any doubt that you will beat this.  God Bless You buddy.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Peaches-

I so hope you feel the love for we do want and pray for that miracle for you. What a stunning post, thank you for sharing so much of your heart and soul and determination within it.

From my heart to your heart, we need you here, don't forget that.

{{ HUGS }}

Peaches,
 I posted in the wrong thread.. but it was in the prayer thread.  :)
 TY for such a moving post. It was awesome.  When I think about all that you have been thru and what you stil are gouing thru.. It makes me and my hubbys problems seem minimal.   Your post was very uplifting. and lie others have said.. we are here to support you.. and look how supportive you are for us. God love yah. We love yah and you are in my prayers sweety!

Peaches, thank you for that uplifting post. Your faith is so inspiring!! I know you can feel us lifting you up...your strength and determination are an example for us all. God Bless you and much love!!  Daily prayers for you, sweetie!!!!!!

Peaches you said"Seems like a simple concept.  Live expectantly.  Expect a miracle.  Thank God the answer is on the way."

You really are an inspiration to us all. We do expect a miracle for you.Your enthusiasm for life will be rewarded.

Peaches, my partner in crime, You know I hold a special place for you in my prayers. Now, beat this nasty crap once & for all, we have work to do  :cool:.

Peaches~
Thank-You so very much for your inspirational post. I read it when you first posted it and try to come back here to read it as much as time allows me to do so. Everytime I read it, it brings tears to my eyes and it truly speaks to me with my daily life struggles. Thanks so much!!  :)
I am praying for a miracle for you. You are always in my thoughts & prayers. I know you'll beat this. Sending you lots of {{{hugs}}} your way today.

Roos~

Keep those positive thoughts Peaches - we are here with you!

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Peaches - you are such a treasure. What a beautiful, inspiring post.
God Bless you!

  Peaches    When I read your post it literally took my breath away !   God has to do that to me sometimes to get my attention <g>
   Woman, I have always known that you are a special lady and I am always praying for you , I still stand in awe of your courage and spirit.
    You are truly one of GODS chosen leaders by example !
  May I also ask also if  may  use you as my own personal Hero ?  your the best Peaches  <g>     
                         Hugs Jerry from Ohio

Peaches! I'm thanking God everyday for your miracle! How we face a challenge is a real indicater of character, and you're something to aspire to! We're all supporting you with our prayers! {{ BIG HUG! }}

Thank you all.  Today is Chemo #2 of the new drug combo designed to kill anything microscopic that may be surfing around my innards.  We know we're chasing the microscopic here because the surgeon took at "second look" and I have no visible tumors. 

I had to stop here first to read through all the RALLY prayers.  My platelets have rallied big time.  From 20,000 on Monday to 225,000 yesterday. Gotta have 100,000 for chemo.  I got 'em.  I didn't do anything to make it happen so it must've been the good Lord and y'all that made it happen.  God is good all the time.  And I am blessed daily by all of you.

Smoochies from Heat Wave Central.

What great news Peaches! You're in the perfect condition to 'knock out' Round 2.

Thoughts and prayers for you today -- and everyday

Peaches - Thoughts and Prayers coming your way today during this round of chemo.  Hang in there girl!  ((((((HUGS))))))

Another Monday & another prayer for our Peaches. 

Asked my 7 year old son to say a prayer with me for you Peaches...God really seems to listen to his prayers more than mine!! lol
You are in good Hands Lady!!! and we are always here for you too!

Peaches, my thoughts and prayers are with you! Love you!!!

Peaches chicky,. you are in my prayers daily ! Luv yah my potty mouthed friend   :smt052

Peaches~
Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}} You are in my thoughts & prayers everyday. :)

Roos~

Peaches - you are always in my thoughts and prayers {{{HUGS}}}

Well, AWRIGHT PEACHES! Got the numbers you need, and we're just absolutely standing firm with you and asking God to make those microsopic meanies look like a gourmet lunch for the chemo to gobble up! ALL of them!

I'm keeping you in my prayers, and your needs in God's ears! Love and Hugs from me to you, too!

Hi Peaches I'M pullin for ya..Thoughts and Prayers are with you!!

Big {{{HUGS}}}  :D

Good Morning Peaches from the land of BIG RED.  Thinking of you also and sending positive vibes your way.  Love ya sistah,  Beans

Peaches, my love and prayers are with you every day. God is good all the time!! :smt041 Sending you big hugs!!!!!!!  :sunny:

Hang in there, Peaches.  You are always in my prayers.

Peaches you continue to inspire so many of us, you're in our hearts and our prayers today and always.

A friend sent this to me last week, I think you personify it. {{ HUGS }}

 LIFE
 
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realise it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is costly, care for it.
Life is wealth, keep it.
Life is love, enjoy it.
Life is mystery, know it.
Life is a promise, fulfil it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it. 
     - Mother Teresa 

Peaches,

I cannot beat None's Mother Teresa quote, which was wonderful...but, I did bcc you on an email and it was returned....guess because the email was unknown.  Just tried to bring a giggle to your day....

I will try it again...

XXOO

While reading through this thread, and being uplifted by Peaches' faith, it again occurs to me the gift that Natalee continues to give us. Out of the horror of what happened to her, and what her amazing family have endured, we have been strengthened. Natalee truly is an angel with whom God has blessed us.   

None, that was outstanding!  Thank you so much.  This has been such a learning experience.  You have all helped make it bearable. 

Had my10 days after chemo labs done yesterday.  Got the report today.  I have TONS of platelets.  WOOHOO!  God is good all the time!  They do labs 10 days after chemo because that is the nadir, the lowest your counts will be that cycle.  The news I have good platelets is excellent.  I won't be all bruised up and I'll be good to go on Round #3.

Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart.  This is such a warm and cozy place for me.  Smoochies to each and everyone of you.

What great news Peaches.

Peaches!!!  Excellent news!  I'm so glad you checked in with us and let us know!

Peaches

That is wonderful news.  I will continue to send hugs and prayers your way.

MsVada

Peaches ~!!  Awesome news for you~!!   :lol:  Hugs and keeping you in prayers .. keep up the great work and positive attitude~!! 

Peaches!

Yippee!  Am so glad to hear an update.. I worry too much.  Wish we could do more than offer support but glad it helps.  Keep up the fight - we got your back!

Hugs,
Beans

Peaches this is just wondeful news :smt038 :smt038 

Peaches
Keeping you in my thoughts....you are truly my hero.  {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}

well said Lalas, our Peaches is an inspiration, I echo all you posted !

Same here.. prayers and hugs to Peaches.  !!

Peaches, I can't add much to what others have said here. You are an inspiration to us all and I keep you in my prayers, daily.

great news peaches!!  you are truly an inspiration... that is an understatement!

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Peaches,

Missing your spunky posts.  Praying all is well.

Heading out to Chemo #3 in this series of 6 treatments.  I feel good.  Thank God for my recovery, my family, my friends, my Monkeys.  I love you all.

Report later if applicable.

Thinking about you Peaches. 

Have a wonderful weekend with your family :)

{{HUGS}}  Halfway done!  Stay strong and stay positive!  You are an inspiration to all of us!

Peaches~
Sending you positive thoughts and great big {{{HUGS}}} today.

Roos~

Peaches, I am so glad to hear that your platelets are good!! I think about you every day and am sending prayers and good thoughts your way...I love you sweetie!

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Peaches
Keep up the good fight. You will win. My prayers are with you sweety.

The power of Prayer, you've got that here sweety!

Keep up your fight, your strength and know we are holding you up!

God Bless you Peaches!

Peaches ~  May you have strength  each  and every day in your quest for restoration of your health and well being.  I think of you often.  {{{{HUGS}}}}  Muffy

Keepin you in prayers PEACHES and sending you positive thoughts !!

Hugs !!

Thinking of you today, Peaches, and every day...love ya! :smt052

Hang in there Peaches. You are an inspiration to me!! Prayers still abound for you my partner in crime. Love Ya

Peaches, even though I am a new poster here I have followed your journey,  My prayers are with you.  MM

 :smt006  Hi Peaches!   You are in my thoughts today and sending you best wishes :smt052

Heh Peach Lady!

Wanted you to know I went to the opening Husker game on Saturday and it was so wonderful... all that glorious red.  The team played great - racked up 650 yds of offense and ran like hell.... just like in the olden days.  Thought you'd want to know.  Keep the faith.

Hugs,
Beans

Ditto on what klaas said! XXOO

  Dearest Peaches   :)
  Allow me to also Join Klaas and everyone else in wishing you all the love and success in my heart  you always make me feel so good when you post a small bit t me  it really picks me up wither you realize it or not .
  YOU are a SPECIAL LADY  with CLASS  that I admire soooo much .
            your Pal Jerry from Ohio .

Morning Peaches... checking in on you... sending big red hugs.  It's game day and I thought you might like to read this article.  Take care and know you are in my thoughts each and every day.  Beans

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Good Morning Peaches! Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you and checking in to see how you were doing. You're half way through, hon, and feeling good! I'm hoping you're having a great week-end, and feel our prayers taking every step with you! You've got cheerleaders!  :smt026

 :smt056 HUGS for my Peaches, keep the faith, I know you can do this.

Hi Peaches and happy Monday to you. :smt006  It's good to have you back here posting at Scared Monkeys today.   :smt024

Peaches... stay strong.. I am saying prayers that God be with you each day...

Hi Peaches!
Just dropped by to say that you're being thought of, prayed for, and {{HUGGED}} in my heart, right this very minute and everyday! Hope you're staying strong and sassy!  :wink: :smt052

Its going to be a beautiful day for you today. May they all be beautiful . We are all keeping you in our prayers today and everyday.

This is the day the Lord has made.  I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Every day on the daisy side of the dirt is a good one.  I'm feeling pretty good.  I got a shot yesterday to boost the red blood cells because I was feeling pretty anemic by Friday.  Not unexpected at this stage of the chemo game.  So a nice shot of Aranesp and I went to bed early last nite. 

I come here every day.  I see the devotion of each and every one of you.  I feel your prayers and your hugs.  I love you all individually and collectively for your support and your love.  I could not have done this without you all.

Hi Peaches!  I think of you all the time.  I hope that shot perks you up so you are feeling better soon.

HUGS to you Peaches and may you remain strong through your treatments.  I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

Peaches thank you for the update... i will sing the rejoice song with you every day!

Keep staying strong... you are certainly a hero to us all....

and I know that a monkey that wishes to remaim anaymous has just been diagnosed with breast cancer... I know she draws strength from you!!

 :smt038  Applauding our Peaches, as another week begins.  As always, in my thoughts & prayers.

So good to see an update!  I check in on you daily too.   :lol:  Glad you are still kicking and sporting the attitude... it is so YOU.  Keep the faith and know we are here for you. 

Dear Peaches - thank you for the update.

You are in my thoughts daily and on my prayer list each evening.  I know yo will overcome this latest obstacle with the Lord's help and guidance.

Bless you Peaches

Although I do not post much, Peaches, you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers everyday.  Hang in there girl!  ((((HUGS))))

Peaches~
Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}}. You are continually in my thoughts & prayers everyday. Hang in there!  :)

Roos~

  All of my good thoughts are with you everyday Peaches   :wink:
     your Ohio friend  Jerry

 :sunny:  Another Monday prayer that the week ahead is bright for our Peaches.

Coming up on Chemo #4.  I didn't have enough platelets for chemo last Friday.  Bummer.  I hate getting off schedule.  But I was way down and pretty anemic.  After resting up all weekend, I'm headed for the lab to see if I have enough for chemo this Wednesday.  If I get it done Wednesday, I'll have only two more left. 

CA-125 score is 3.9.  Under 35 is normal.  I'm not banking on this score too much since I had good low numbers the entire time I had a stupid tumor growing on my adrenal gland!  At least the Ovarian Cancerf Institute (my doc started it!) at Georgia Tech is working on a better test. 

I felt pretty beat up last week but Carboplatin does that to ya!  I feel better today.  And of course, I am always encouraged when I come here to my very own thread and see that y'all have stopped by to check on me.  I count on your prayers and encouragement.  Thank you.

Peaches ~ Thank you for letting us know you are right up to Chemo #4 this Wednesday and that would leave you with just two more to go.  You are doing it!  Hang in there.  It sounds like you have a good team behind you.  You know we are all rootin' for you here at Scared Monkeys {{{hugs}}} :smt041

Well, praise the Lord and pass the chemo!  WOOHOO!!    Labs drawn yesterday indicate I have enough platelets for chemo #4 tomorrow.

Think about me.  I'll be bored stiff.  Nothing more boring than sitting in a recliner hooked up to toxic chemicals for several hours.  Boring.  But I'll be there.  (I bring my own Benadryl now so I can get some sleep!)

Great platelet update....#4 coming up!!!  I accompanied my best friend to her chemo & radiation treatments many years ago, so I know what you describe.  We're there with you, boring or not.   :smt015 :smt045

Allrighty then!    :thumright:  That's great news Peaches!  You have the platelets to do chemo #4 tomorrow, which will leave only two more, right?  You are staying strong. 

Yes Peaches, I know what you mean.  I went with my mother and was glad to do it.  We're with you in spirit.

Alrighty, I'm getting ready to head out the door.  First stop, Walmart.  Luckily it's just down the block (yeah, right).  Then off to the doctor's office for chemo.  Since I BYOB (bring my own Benadryl), I have a nice nap planned following some reading. 

Thank you all for your support.  You know it means the world to me when this is my last stop as I head to Round #4. 

Tell somebody you love them today.  Be kind to one another. 

Smoochies to you all individually and collectively.

Smooches right back at ya Peaches.

As you head out the door to conquer #4.

Hang in there Peaches. We are all pulling for you & will be with you during your chemo. Just close your eyes & see all our minkey faces right there with you.
((((((((HUGS))))))))) & Prayers for ya.

I'm thinking of you today Peaches as you go forward on Chemo #4.  :smt058

Peaches, been following along with you for a while and wanted to stop by and let you know how much I admire your strength, courage and attitude.  Hang in there!

Peaches~
You've been in my thoughts & prayers all daylong. Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}} and am hoping that all has gone well with #4. We love you lots!  :)

Roos~

Peaches - 4 down and 2 to go!  Almost done!  We are with you all the way!

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Peaches ~!!!
  Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!  BIG HUGS!

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Peaches, I don't post here often, but I want you to know I think about you everyday and admire your attitude and strength.  Keep it up!

Peaches,

I offer my love and support and hope you feel better soon.

We love you Peaches!!  You're always in my thoughts and prayers buddy.

Just checking in on ya girlfriend.. continued success and keep the faith.

Love ya,
Beans

Peaches I'm a first timer to your rally, after reading the posts here there is no shortage  of prayer and encouragement. Just one more.

Hope & pray this is another week of good news.

big hugs to you Peaches! I was just showing my sister this thread, as she's been asking about our Peaches  :smt052 So glad the chemo is almost over for you!!! Love ya sweetie  :sunny:

PEACHES ~!  Best of luck and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!  HUGS!

  As always peaches  you are in my prayers  ,  May the lord give you strength and fortitude to fight this thing <g>
  Soft gentle Hugs for ya  lady  <g>

    Jerry from Ohio




 

Peaches:  Just wanted you to know I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers - today and every day.  Hang in there girl!  We are all pulling for you and are standing behind you all the way...Luv ya!  (((HUGS)))

Peaches

Hang in there, you're almost done.  I've been busy with football, but I think of you often.  I hope you're doing well. 

Keep the faith,

MsVada

Good morning to you Peaches  :sunny:  Today is Friday and I hope you have a great weekend.   :thumright: 

Dear Peaches - I know some days will be diamonds and some other days must be a little less than that, but know that I am sending you prayers and healing love each and every day.  Smoochies.
God bless

Keep the faith Peaches  I am still and will continue to send up smoke for you sweet wonderful friend  <g>
                     Jerry from Ohio

Prayers, strength and hope sent  your way.  God is with you as the monkeys are there with you in spirit.  Just stay strong!  We all know there is strength in prayers, you can see and feel it here!

With lots of love and hugs!

Thinking of you this morning, Peaches, and keeping you in my prayers! You're coming down the home stretch, and you're winning! We've got the whole track lined with your very own cheerleaders!  :smt026 :smt041 :smt038 :2notworthy: :smt023 :thumright: :smt109

Peaches checking in and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... Red is too... he asked me at breakfast this morning how you were doing... 

Keep the faith... you will, with God's help, completely kick this thing!

Another Monday for our Peaches.  Here's hoping and praying she has a good, strong week.   :smt039 :smt056

Peaches allow me to also join 2NJsons mom in wishing you a very strong week sweet woman 
  your Ohio Pal Jerry




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Keeping you in my prayers buddy.

I'm feeling pretty good today.  Of course, Monday I have labs done to see if I have enough platelets to do Chemo #5 on Wednesday.  I feel like I have enough platelelts and heaven knows I've had enough shots of Aranesp to boost those red blood cells.  I just want to stay on schedule and get DONE. 

I don't look sick (most of the time) and most of the time I don't feel sick.  I'm just tired of getting my blood drawn and shots in my stomach.  And chemo is boring.  Good nap time but boring nonetheless.  I'm afraid I'm not a very good at this chronic illness deal.

Thank you all for keeping my needs close to God's ears.  I thank God for all of you every single day. 

Peaches,

Here is my Monday morning rally prayer that your labs turn up with the platelets you need to get this thing DONE.  God bless you.

Peaches
Remember YOU ARE MY HERO

PEACHES..

 Sending you positive thoughts~!!  You are in my prayers !!  I talked to Cubbegirl today and shes thinking of you as well sweety !!!   :smt052

Here is the Pita and Peaches segment from Dana Pretzer with Beth 10/15/07:

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Thinking of you Peaches and hoping that your dreams and wishes come true!!

Peaches, just checkin' in.  You are in my prayers also.  {{{{hugs!}}}}

tidycat

Good morning.  This morning I am going to drive my daughter to school and get her some breakfast on the way because yesterday she said she would like that. I know she hates the bus.  So because I have no official appointment time in the chemo suite, that's the plan.  Often when my girl sees me, I'm not feeling great and I admit to sleeping alot.  Sleep is good for you.   When she wants nothing more than to spend some time in the car, get some breakfast, how can I turn that down? 

Today should be Chemo #5 for those counting along with me.  I have to run to the lab first so they can get a CBC to check my platelets.  I feel like I have enough so I should be good.  Then it's up the street to the chemo suite to spend the day with all my great nurses, get some hugs & see my doctor.  Yessirree, it's an exciting life I lead.

As much as cancer sucks, I have learned so much.  I've had such interesting conversations.  I have leaned on the support of all of you and you  have not disappointed me.  It makes me smile from the inside out to know that y'all are praying for me and my family.  I can understand how the prayers of others provide strength and courage for Beth and Dave.  And you know what they say "wherever two or more are gathered in His name".....

God bless you all individually and collectively.  Your support is priceless.

Good morning Peaches !  {{{hugs}}} to you and Little Peaches.  I'm thinking of you  :smt058

Peaches, hope your breakfast with Little Peaches was delightful and that your day turns out as planned. (http://bestsmileys.com/comfort/1.gif)

Breakfast at McD's was great.  She loves their iced coffee.  And that McGriddle thing.

I'm back home.  Not enough platelets.  I need 100,000 but I only have 31,000.  I can't drop much more or the nurse is talking transfusion.  I told her she'd have to find me!  So Friday morning, I get to have another lab draw to see where I'm at with platelets. 

The best part is my red blood cells were .5 too high for me to get a shot of Aranesp.  Something about my insurance adopting the Medicare guidelines.  What that means is I have to be sicker before they will treat me.  Nice, huh?  Not just my insurance company either.  How inconsiderate of me to get cancer while being a policyholder.  Actually my insurer has been fabulous.  Nothing they've done to me has been cheap and I'm not quite in the poorhouse from it. 

Enough rambling.  I need a nap.  Driving all over three counties to find out I'm too sick for chemo today has worn me plum out.  Smoochies to all.

Pray for platelets. 
Amen!

Peaches:  Thinking of you and praying for you today...So glad you and little peaches got to spend special time together...It's those times that really count.

I will be praying along with the other monkeys for those platelets to rise - I am sure they will...

BIG OLE (((((HUGS))))

Peaches,
       ...there is love.  There is a lot of love for you here.  Praying Friday will be a good day.

I am joining that prayer CJ.... and going to say that any time you can donate platlets do so... I have done it before, and it's painless...Peaches, hang in there...

sending you positive thoughts...

Peaches~ Much love to you.

Oh, Peaches, praying harder for you and those plateletts. Lots of {{{{HUGS}}}}  to you :smt052
You are such an inspiration to me and have taught me many things during all of this. Please stay strong, we all love you so much and are pulling so hard for you.

Roos~

Peaches, am praying for you & the platelets you need. Hang in there!! We are all behind you 2000%. ((((((HUGS)))))))

Praying that you have 100,000 platelets Friday.  You inspire me. 

Praying for a good platelet count for you, Peaches -- so you can knock #5 right out of the ball park.

Peaches ~!!
  Keeping you in my prayers for a good count Friday!! 
 We luv yah girl !! HUGS !!!!

Good morning Peaches  :sunny:  I'm thinking of you today and putting forth my most positive energy, thoughts and prayers for you to have the platelets you need to continue to #5.  :flower:   :smt052

Peaches,

Many prayers for you and your platelets so that you can get your chemo and avoid transfusion. Glad you got to spend time with your daughter...I'm pulling for you, sweetie!!!! :smt060 :smt056 :smt054

 :flower: :sunny: :cheers: :smt038 :2waver:

Monday morning cheer for our Peaches.  How are those platelets?

Peaches heres hoping that you'll be OK Fri for the Chemo  I am praying for you also  and even though I am not sure where you live  please know that if you ever needed an old Cowboys Blood  that I would gladly donate if need be OK   ?  Hugs to ya  Lady   
   Jerry from Ohio

Peaches

Sending you well wishes that your platelets are enough for your next round. 

Keep the faith :)

MsVada

Well, Dang Peaches! The problem is that we've all been praying the cancer cells to just diminish into oblivion, and we've got to reverse gears and keep your platelets visualized as multiplying!  :lol: We probably caused the low platelet count!

OK, we gotcha covered now!  :wink: Hon, you've been in my prayers daily, and you're going to stay there until I see that post from you saying it's all under control. Stay strong and lean when you need to. We're right here and you are in our prayers! Platelets look like rabbits in my mind's eye and they're in an amorous mood!  :D

Platelets were a big 197,000 yesterday so Round 5 went off as planned.  Exciting stuff. 

One more round of chemo and then scans.  And nobody will speculate until the six rounds of chemo are over and the scans are back. 

Thank you all for praying me some platelets.  Thank God for listening. 

  Peaches,  Please know always  just how much you are loved and admired and may that thought keep your heart flying as high as an Eagle.  YOUR  spirit Mam to this Ol Cowboy is what a true American Heroine is made of .
    Jerry from Ohio

Good to hear about the platelet count Peaches! We'll keep up the prayers as long as you need it. You'd do the same for us.
I know it must be tough going through another round of chemo. Hang in there. We're all pulling for you.

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Awright, PEACHES! We got it now, girl! Up with platelets, down with cancer cells! And YES, God, thank you from all of our hearts for smiling on Peaches! Please show us complete healing for her to your glory!

Wonderful news!!!  We love you Peaches!!!

Peaches, very good news! Keep up the good work!

  Great news sweety !!!   :smt052 :smt052  Keeping you in my prayers !! Big HUGS to you !!

Monday morning cheers for you, Peaches.   :sunny: :flower: :thumright: :cheers: Thank God for the platelets and round 5....hope all goes well through the final chemo & scans. 

Hi Peaches  :smt006   Great News!!       :thumleft:  We're here rootin' for you!   :smt041

Wonderful News, Peaches!!  Continuing to pray for those platelettes to be up and those cancer cells to be down. Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}}  :)

Roos~

Yes, it's another Monday and it's full of good wishes for Peaches.  We're hanging in there with you. :smt023 :sunny: :smt039

Hey Peaches! How are you? You're remaining in my prayers and also in my thoughts! I brought you something that I hope you'll smile over.

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God Bless, and take it one day at a time. We're not going anywhere, and remember, God promises to take us "through", not over or around. Keep your eye on the light at the end of the tunnel, because hon, you've already travelled a long way through this. We're going to have a big celebration with you at the end of it!  :wink:

Well, now that I hope a smile crossed your face, Peaches, let me offer you a little inspiration, and promise. Here's a link with a short article. It sites the very passages I call to mind when I pray for your healing. Thought I'd share it with you.  :wink:

http://www.healingscripture.com/

This is YOUR Rally thread, and we're all over it cheering you, praying for you, and believing with you that you're going to be your old self soon. You'll take the depth of understanding and empathy gained from this experience and it will make your life richer and more full of joy than ever!  :thumleft: Hang in there!

Peaches forgive me for being away so long, it's good to read your spirit and spunk within your battle and yes - our family will be praying for platelets and healing for you.

I am so proud of you, I know you never complain and never share how hard all of this is on your body and your constitution. I so admire you and you've set such a beautiful example of grace under extreme pressure for us all.

I know that wonderful hubby and that darling daughter are the best possible inspiration for you as well. Giant {{{ hugs }}} to you and your family.

Ain't no mountain high enough Peaches.......you are our ms supreme.

Praise the Lord, and so much more, Peaches!!

OK, Ms Peach, where are you? I've been checking in for updates, and hoping and praying that all is just going along great. I like keeping my prayers up to date with the latest (but God knows exactly where you are and what you need before I even ask, now doesn't he!)   :wink:

But in case you and God want to share your secrets, I'm all ears!  :D You're in my thoughts and in my prayers, and in my heart, Peaches. Have a Blessed week!

I've been feeling pretty good this month.  I thought when I went to get my blood drawn yesterday that I was feeling so good, I would have enough platelets to do Round #6 this Wednesday.  Barely home from the lab before the phone started ringing.  My nurse already had the results.  A whopping 21 platelets.  For you medical types playing along, it's really 21,000.  The point is that it's not enough.  I have to have 100 to get chemo.  So my precious prayer warriers, please pray me some platelets.  I feel pretty good but I need to get Round 6 out of the way.

Praise the Lord for taking such great care with my BFF's brother.  Merrill only needed a triple bypass instead of a quadruple and is now OUT OF THE HOSPITAL!  God is good all the time.  Thank you Lord for having just the right people there in that small town TN  hospital and guiding their hands. 

I thank God for all of you every day.  I could not have done this without you.  Yes, I have great friends and family offline.  Yes, I have counted on them for support but certainly no less than I have counted on y'all.  I smile when I think of all of you who have stepped up and cared.  I have learned so much from this experience. 

Thank you for continuing to pray for me.       

Peaches,

I missed my Monday shout out for you, but am now praying for the platelet count to get up where it belongs for Round #6.  If you're feeling good, we're feeling good.

Peaches get ready...platelets are on the way!!! Monkey prayers get results ya know.
Hang in there..((((((HUGS)))))))

Peaches ~ I'm praying for your body to be strong as you prepare for the last of the chemo.  {{{HUGS}}} for you.  I'm praying  for you to stay strong in spirit and  for you to have the strength to continue your quest for the total restoration of your health.  You are awesome!

Peaches~
I am beginning to bombard heaven for those platelets, hang in there and keep strong! We're all pulling for you!  :smt052

Roos~

OK, Peaches..............I'm praying for Platelets; hoards of 'em! Come on Monkeys, let's join hands in our mind's eye and enter together into that Holy place where God beckons us to come boldly to intercede for His children. I stand with you all on Peach's behalf and believe and trust that God will honor our prayers and search our heart to find we come in love for a sister. I have faith, more than a mustard seed, and am praising Him for answering our prayers!

Mat 7:11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father who is in heaven give good things to them that ask him? 

Hbr 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Phl 4:6 In nothing be anxious; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 

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On the platelets front, labs from Monday said 21 but Tuesday, it was only 19.  YIKES!  Wednesday was 28 so the numbers are trending upwards (as in toward Heaven!) so it's more labs on Monday and chemo on Tuesday. 

THen, my dad is arriving sometime Tuesday.  Shall I have him honk when he flies down the Interstate past your town, CBB?  He's currently in some little holler visiting my brother and his family in VA.  Since I see him about once a year, this is MY visit!  Never fear, the wonders of technology keep us together.  Dad's idea of fun is to be able to say "call Peaches" when he's in the car so his Onstar calls me and he yacks while he's driving all over NE.  Find me another 83 year old man with a convertible for "pretty nice days" and a Buick (with Onstar) to drive for other days.  He cracks me up.  And I love him to pieces.   

This is my last round of chemo.  Doc said six and #6 will be Tuesday.  I feel confident I'll have enough platelets on Monday.  As always, I thank you all for your prayers. 

Your prayers keep my heart warm. 

 Good  Morning Peaches :+)  I am joining hands with CBB and all the other SM who are praying for you and the Platelet count so just keep believing and God will do his part  sweet Lady <g>
      Small smooch on cheek for Peaches .
                 Jerry from Ohio

  OH  Klaas  that certificate  was a GREAT  IDEA !!!   and did you see about all Peaches DAD still does ?  God Bless them both and I  sure hope that her dad know's just what a very special woman that his daughter is. <g> 
                   Jerry and Jessica  from Ohio

The certificate is FABULOUS!  What a great idea!  It'll come in plenty handy too.  And CBB always finds exactly the right verses for every occasion.  (I bookmarked that last site she sent me!)
Thanks for your continued prayers and support, Jerry.  Smoochies to you and Jessica.

Peaches ~  I'm praying for you to ace round #6 (YOUR LAST)!!!  I hope you can feel all  of the postive energy flowing from all  corners of the earth and from above.     :thumleft:  Feel the love and warmth.  I'm praying for you to be healed and well again.

Peaches, I'm just doing a drive by before turning in. You are on my mind, knowing you have labs today to test for platelets. I'm praying as we all are, and looking forward to hearing good news from you! Big HUGS for you, and I'm thinking PLATELETS!  :wink:  :smt052

Peaches:

Prayers going up for lots and lots of platelets.  We are all here pulling for you!

I am so glad you're gonna get to see your Dad..He sounds like such a character!

Prayers, good positive thoughts, warm wishes, and good vibes coming your way((HUGS))

Keep on Keepin' on!!!!

Hang in there PEACHES!!!  Remember You're my hero!!! 

Let there be platelets, so that our Peaches can finish #6.    :thumright:

Peaches,

My prayers and thoughts are with you.   

I'm thinking of you tonight Peaches, and pray there is good news.   :thumright:

Just checking in on you, Peaches! Hope you're having a great night, and that the platelets were way up! God Bless!

Has anyone heard if Peaches had enough platelets?   I am anxious to find out....love ya Peaches!

aryers for Peaches and hope today went well for you !!   :smt052

PRAYERS !!!!   Dunno what the heck happened there?   :2doh:

Prayers for Peaches from Muffy too.  Angie, I know what happened...You were upholding your title of Typo Queen.  :smt052  How ever you say it or spell it, I hope when Peaches reads here she will feel uplifted.  We are thinking and praying.  [[[Hugs}}}

Peaches,
I know I have not posted on this thread for awhile but be assured I have prayed for you everyday. You have been such an inspiration to us all. Praying again that round 6 goes well.
Sam

We're all together with this, Sam...

Peaches? I've looked for you all day. I thought you might have visited the case discussion thread with the news on Natalee. If you should stop by, I just want you to know that we're thinking about you and praying for you and wub you!  :smt052

Peaches ~  Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.  May the Lord hold you and keep you in the palm of his hand.  Be well.  You are always in my prayers.

Thinking of you today, Peaches and praying for you and those platelets and the chemo. treatments. {{{{Hugs}}}}    :smt052
 
Roos~

Peaches ~ I'm praying for platelets for you.  And visualizing lots and lots of platelets forming and sending you on down the road to chemo #6-the last on the list.  {{{hugs}}}

Peaches, I'm praying for platelets.............Thanksgiving is such a great but hectic time, please don't overdue to the point that your body borrows from it's platelet making capabilities, to accomodate the demands of the Holidays! Take care of you! God Bless!

When I went to the lab on Monday, I only had 72.  The chemo nurse says I am doing pretty well because she has other patients who have to wait three and four weeks for platelets.  So she told me to take the rest of the week off and get my labs done again next Monday with chemo #6 on Tuesday. 

At this point, it's not a big surprise that I am having problems with platelets.  Carboplatin is cytoxic.  You can only have six rounds in a row and then you have to stop for awhile.  Nice stuff.  I'm lining up for Round #12 of carboplatin (had 6 the first time around). 

Generally, I feel pretty good right now.  Of course that will change on Tuesday but not for long.  I have to finish strong so I can get a CT and see what my doctor wants to do next. 
Thanks as always for your prayers and concern.  I love you all.

Thanks for the update Peaches.  We love you right back!

Hang in there.

Beans

I'm so sorry, Peaches and know you must have been terribly disappointed. Well, maybe the revised time plan will be exactly what is needed. Please give your body a chance to build up, hon. It will be alright, Peaches. Prayers are always answered, timeframes aren't always ours. Keep the faith, and get some rest. Please know we all want to stand in the gap for you when you're just tired of it, and feeling discouraged. I'm there, Peaches and together we'll just make a monkey bridge over this little valley. Walk over it at your own pace.  :wink: God Bless You!

CBB, you always say just the right things.  I am disappointed in the delay but the delay was good.  I felt good on the holiday and got to cook and eat and party with my family and friends.  Last year I was a yacking fool all day and spent a lot of the day laying in the guest room.  Not this year. DH said every time he checked from across the room I was smiling and laughing.  Daughter had a good day too.  We invited her boyfriend along since his mother had to work.  I'll have to ask him what he thought of it all.  I don't think he's used to seeing 17 people for dinner in one place.  It was fun.  I was too tired to stay too late and shoot pool but I will do that next time I'm there. 

Thanks to all of you for checking on me.  Beans, my friend, I thought about you yesterday during the game.  Very disappointing.  Counting on you to let me know the results of the press conference.

So here I am up early, drinking coffee and catching up.  I saw TerryD in the Cage the other day.  I am so glad he is feeling good.  I know we all prayed hard and expectantly for his miracle.  Expect a miracle for me too.  I do. 

Love y'all.

Peaches I agree with you that CBB has such a way with words that are so uplifting.

I think you're here for a reason Peaches, I've felt that since I first learned more of the details and I still believe you are here for a reason. God works that way you know, I truly believe that God does have a plan for us all.

You must not forget you have a guardian angel too, I'm praying for platelets and for you to be healed and also asking that angel to help you. Draw strength from the family and friends who surrounded you at Thanksgiving, that in and of itself is a true blessing.

Godspeed our Peaches

Wow! its kinda neat to see all the old names and icons again.. I been on top of my house painting, I hired a friend to paint but yikes! he like weighs over 300 lbs and I'm at 160 lbs and therefore it was me painting the top of the house.. Well I bought a new shirt to go with the paint on my house, its like super colorful but I like it..

Since my operation, I been working out at the gym everyday and started playing racquet ball along with all the other stuff I do and I have won every game with 4 different players so they are kidding saying whatever I lost in surgery I must of made up for in my racquet ball skills..  I'm currently on routine type exams and I feel like I can actually say I'm back to being as normal as one can be with the adventure Peaches and I went through..

Terry

It's really great to see you here again Terry.  {{Hugs}} to you and Peaches!  Wub you both!! 

Peaches, I swear we were separated at birth--we must have been!!  I have fought the platelet war too, and now have tons and tons of those little guys swimming around in my veins.  You will win this one, too, I know it.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  Positive imaging, my girl.  Just imagine those little platelet guys regenerating and swimming upstream, mightily!   :lol:

Terry!

It is always so nice to find your posts  :lol:

Another 'monkey reason to be thankful this season.  :cool:


Peaches -- I'm sure all that holiday cheer morphed right into the extra platelets you need. And now you're ready to jog that last little bit over the finish line! But we're all pushing and pulling you across so you don't have to do all the work by yourself  :D

AZ, you never fail to encourage me by reminding me I am not the first one down this road.

Good news is today's platelet count was 233 so I am good to go tomorrow for chemo #6.  I feel good.  The other day, somebody told me I looked awesome (she was drunk like a big dog!)  Yeah, right.  Some days I look more "alive" than others.  When I get really anemic, I look pretty pale.  But at least I have eyebrows again.  That was a scary look for me.  You look in the mirror and without eyebrows and eyelashes, your eyes look like two peeholes in a snowbank. 

The worst part about doing chemo tomorrow is I will be away from the computer and even though it will only be a few hours, I'll be way behind when I get home. 

Thanks for your prayers and encouragement.  God answers prayers.  This I know.

YIPPEE - Great News!  Bet you used your coupon, I'll have to get you another  :lol:

No worries Peaches, we'll catch you up on the case when you get home tomorrow after you've rested a big.

{{HUGS}}

Peaches ~   I'm happy to hear your platelets have all cooperated and you are lined up for #6.   :cheers: We'll be here waiting for you  :smt052 

Well, I missed a Monday morning call out, but reading find that I can be thankful that you, Peaches, have your platelets and can continue.  Somehow, we can all tell when your eyebrows are scrunched up or raised, regardless of your ordeal. 

God Bless You, TerryD, AZLady and all who have struggled through a battle such as this.

XXXOOO

WOO HOO!!!!! Platelets allow #6!!!!!

I'm doing a little dance for joy, Peaches!!!!

We'll catch you up on anything you miss while you're resting, Peaches, don't worry! Let the Chemo work and come back to us to let us know how you're doing when you feel like it. Terry's riding that bike again and you're going to be able to race him soon! I'm praying for your total healing, Peaches. You're getting closer and closer to the goal!

We're right here waiting for you, standing firm, kneeling humbly, and asking boldly!  :wink:

God Bless!

From 72 on 11/19 to 242 on 11/26!  PTL, I made some platelets!  WOOHOO! 

Chemo #6 is over and done with.  Not without some drama in initially acessing my port.  It's just under the skin and it takes a big sharp needled called a Huber.  Usually, they get right in and get good blood return.  I'm watching and I don't see the blood return.  I started boohooing over that because getting stuck once is bad enough.  I didn't feel like starting over.  Thank God the nurse asked another nurse for help (cause if she didn't, I was going to).  Wanda, my angel, got me to relax and did her magic, we got good return and this went uneventfully the rest of the day.  I had a reaction to something so I ended up getting 75 mg of Bendryl.  I napped for a little bit.  Who wouldn't? 

Now I have to wait a couple weeks to give the chemo a chance to work and then have a new scan.     All this waiting.  I hate waiting.  I have to try to view this time in between  as a chance to pray and praise God for bringing me this far and for placing you all in my life to help me.  I believe my miracle is coming.  In some ways, my miracle was going from an undiagnosed pelvic mass on Monday to a consultation with a world reknowned gyn-onc on Wednesday of the same week.    THAT"s a miracle in and of itself! 

I pray for patience for myself.  I thank God for bringing me this far, placing the right people in my life, continuing to hold me in the palm of his hand.  Prayers of thanksgiving for the love and support of all of you.  Y'all will never know how much it means to me.  Sometimes, I sit here and read thru all the prayers and just boo hoo about how lucky I am to have such lovely caring friends. Thank you.

Well, dang, Peaches! Pass those kleenex 'cause now you've got me blubbering..........and laughing at myself for doing it! Laughter through tears is so healing, isn't it?  :lol: :smt089 :lol:

I'm just in a perpetual state of wonder as I watch the way God works, and learn of His nature through what He brings my way. I know that with His hand there are miracles that defy all human explanation, but I can't look at what He set in place for us from the beginning without recognizing His miraculous gifts through which He reaches out to us every day. The sun rises and sets in glorious blaze of color, rains come and relieve a parched earth, winds blow and reseed plants, the moon rises giving us light in darkness and tides regulate, trees bear food, give shade, and present His promise to all who would see.......they spring forth from tender new growth to maturation then loose their leaves to appear dead, only to burst into life again. We are the recipients of those miracles every day.

Your journey reminded me of this because I want for you to just be touched with His healing hand and all the sickness to just go away: instantly. His nature is often to work through what he's put in place for us. Yes, I agree with you Peaches. That world renowned Physician is a miracle and I believe and claim for you that more than just chemo is flowing through that port........I think it carries His miracle just for you.

We all stand with you, Peaches, and because we are here, we too are washed in the ripples of His work......and there are ALWAYS ripples from his Hand. We have spent more time in His presence, grown in our faith because you have so inspired us by being such a shining star of His grace and love, and caused us to see with restored child's eyes, His creation once again. We are all in your miracle, Peaches and are Blessed by it. You are far more than a chemo patient, you're a vessel for His purpose! You take care, and work with the treatment, let it work and if you get a chance, watch a sunrise!  :D I wub you!!!

Peaches, I'm happy to hear chemo #6 is over and done with.  I know the waiting and having patience is the hard part so just hang out here with us and we will help through it.

You are always in my prayers.

We love you Peaches!!

Peaches, so happy to hear that all went well. You are always in my prayers. Love ya chicky!!

Now comes the hard part.  I have to wait at least two weeks for the chemo to work before I get another scan.  My nurse is trying to get a PET CT approved for me due to my history.  I want whatever scan will show them the most detail as long as I don't have to get shoved in a tube.  I am claustrophobic big time.  I told her if there's a tube involved, there better be some serious drugs to knock me out.  So I am waiting for that scan to be scheduled. 

What's next?  What if the scan looks good?  What if the doctor says I'm NED again?(That's No Evidence of Disease for those of you playing along at home).  Been there, done that.  What if there's a tumor sitting in there somewhere that my surgeon didn't see when he was removing my adrenal gland and checking for other tumors?  I could "what if" myself into quite a state.  I'm trying hard not to let my imagination run wild.  It didn't do any good the last three times after I finished chemo and waited for scans. 

I don't "wait" well.

Peaches -

Those PET scans are the best, I know you remember how I said those might have saved Rick's life, so I'm relieved to know that's what you'll have. It shows all the metabolic activity, not just static tumors so it's information you will want to have for it catches things so EARLY. I am praying for NSD for you precious, praying hard.

I thought I'd share this story with you, indeed God has a plan. I won't lie and say that missing Rick is almost something I have to tuck away in a private place most days, if not I'm not sure I could deal with it. So I work a lot but then this new job demands I work a lot - in ways it's a comfort and in others a torment. I have met some wonderful colleagues at this job and I've also met some black-hearted run-you-over-with-their-ambition types too. Anyway, one colleague is a woman who is in her 60's, was a trail blazer as a systems analyst for this very large tech company when women really had a tough path to hoe in IT. She's a subject matter expert I needed mindshare from for the client project I am working on, she's truly the 'expert'. Anyway luckily she lives where I do, our first meeting she suggested coffee since she works from home and I do when I'm not traveling. Anyway, we met and within the first hour I just so admire this woman, a real straight shooter and not emotional/reactive but just damn smart and wise. We have a great meeting, a week later I learn she doesn't like "everyone" and is perceived as "harsh and difficult" by some on our team? Some would exclude her for that when we so need her help with this project.......I've pushed not to allow that to happen, I refuse to let some who can't handle how direct she is (I find it refreshing) and I've lobbied with the execs to ensure she's fully engaged.

Want to know the ironic part? For whatever reason in that first meeting I mentioned losing Rick to cancer, she confided she was a two-time breast cancer survivor but......that like Elizabeth Edwards, they are "managing" her disease now.

She also asked me to tell no one. Today we had a private call to discuss an offshore strategy and she had to cancel, I knew she had routine test this week but they saw 'something' and wanted her to have a bone scan. She instant messages me and promises to call when she returns home - I ended my day not hearing back from her. But I have faith and in her, she said to me "please don't tell anyone for it's taken so long for this group to truly integrate me". She was vulnerable and my heart went out to her all the more. Then she wrote "I'll work out a plan to deal with this too, I'll be back".

Peaches a couple of things about this from me to you, she like you, has enormous drive and perseverance to live - that does matter, I truly do think it does in cancer battles. She's also so bright and capable, just like you, but also a NSh** kinda girl which I love and forgive me - like you :)

I also think God has sent me you, her, even those I meet like my handyman who lost his sister to cancer last fall, to help to keep me strong. To let me know we're all in this together and that I am not alone nor was I ever alone, even though on these chilly nights when I crawl into bed the ache of missing Rick is inconsolable.

Rick would be proud of you and I am proud of you. Keep the faith, I know how tiring this is and the toll it takes on your body, but you are resilient and you are destined to be here. Keep that faith, God bless you and yes he does have a special plan for you.

Peaches ~  I was thinking of you this Friday evening and I hope all is well with you.  Hoping you are feeling better and have a good weekend.   :smt045

Just stopped by to see how the waiting was going for you, Peaches! You haven't slipped from my prayers just because we aren't counting platelets! I'm aware that we are counting days now, and the goal hasn't changed: Total restoration of health for Peaches! God Bless you and give you expectant faith!  :wink:

I've slacked off on my Monday shout outs to you, Peaches, but want you to know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers....  You are a hero to so many of us, here. 

Hi Peaches... I do think of you often and talk to people who aren't even monkeys about how you inspire us all... but just checking in to say even when I don't post, you're in my thoughts and prayers.

Shouting out to my "Husker Peach".  Sending warm vibes your way from the Motherland. 

Hugs
Beans

  GOOD for you Peaches  keep up that great faith that you are known for <g>     your special Ohio Cowboy Jerry

Patience doesn't come easy these days.  I have a CT scan scheduled for next Wednesday.  I need a negative CT big time.  A negative CT will mean I am in remission again.  That would be great.   Of course, I'm sure my oncologist has some kind of "consolidation" therapy in mind.  Probably Avastin which discouraged the formation of new blood vessels.  You can't be a tumor if you can't form a blood supply.  That's okay.  Avastin doesn't have tons of nasty side effects so that would be bonus.  Carboplatin is some nasty stuff..ask anybody.

I just want to know what's next and I want to know NOW! 

Thank you for your continued prayers and support.  I could not have done this without all of you.

Peaches, I am praying you are cancer free, but try to distract yourself and enjoy your Christmas preparations in the mean time.

Peaches ~  I just stopped by to check on you and your progress.  Please know I'm thinking of you and praying for the best possible outcome for you:  a negative CT.  I pray for you to stay strong in body and spirit, and for your doctor to have the wisdom and skill to use what he can to help you on your quest for your health to be restored.  You are one determined monkey and I admire you for so for the battle you've waged.  Prayers for you to have a good and peaceful Christmas with your loved ones.

NEGATIVE CT SCAN FOR PEACHES ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!

From My post to God's Ears, Peaches!  :wink:

I'm with all of you Monkeys, praying for our Peaches!!!!!

No Tumors! No Tumors! No Tumors!
No Cancer Cells, No Cancer Cells, No Cancer Cells!

Nothing showing up in that scan but Peaches!

We got it, Peaches! Don't worry!  :D

 :smt111 :2waver:  Hope all is well with you, Peaches....

Hey Peaches.  Praying for a negative CT scan on Wednesday.  Hope your feeling ok.  Your in all our prayers buddy.

PEACHES! I'm turning in but wanted you to know that I'm going to bed with you in my nightly prayers, and I'll start my day lifting your concerns first thing in the morning! I'm asking God for a joyous day for you and I'm expecting a miracle!

ALL MONKEYS are with you, PEACHES!  :D

Hey Peaches!
We're all gonna be with you in spirit today!  Please know that we are all praying for good news.

Hi Peaches....Praying for good news today.

My prayers are with ya chicky!! Love ya!!

Hey there Peaches  :smt006  I'm hoping and praying for you to have some good news today.   :thumleft:

Godspeed to Peaches - our hearts and prayers are with you !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peaches??? Where are you? You're in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you!  :wink:

Hi Peaches :smt006  Just checking in here to see how you are doing, and hoping you are having a great weekend!   :smt111

Peaches  ... hoping and praying for you to have the most perfect scan... and Christmas ever

No fair keeping y'all in suspense.  I got a call from the doctor on Friday while I was driving to my office Christmas luncheon.  Not a good sign.  He talks fast like a New Yorker and used lots of big words. So I had him fax the report of the CT to my DH.  Once I got to the restaurant, I had DH fax it to me there.  (You have to be resourceful).

Well, it's not perfect.  I know my doc and my onc nurse were expecting a clean scan.  I don't know what I was expecting.  I'm not even sure what I got.  My doctor appt isn't until Jan.14th.  Nice. I get to stew over this report until then unless I call somebody and press for a bigger simpler explanation.  And why?  What this report means is it isn't over.  I'm not cancer free.  There is evidence of disease.  I just did six rounds of carboplatin (to kill cancer cells) and Avastin (to keep cells from forming blood supply).  And still I have some crap going on.

"There is a new subcapsular lesion along the posterior segment of the right hepatic lobe that measures 1 x 1.3 cm.  This is in keeping with a metastasis related to ovarian cancer. "

"There is a stable mild peripheral reticulation within the posterior aspect of the left lower lobe that may represent a minimal amount of atelactasis." (Atelectasis is the collapse of part or all of a lung. It is caused by a blockage of the air passages (bronchus or bronchioles) or by pressure on the lung.)  The patient is status post right adrenalectomy.  Left adrenal gland is normal" (at least something IS). 

"There is a stable 3 mm low attenuation focus with the pancreatic head that may represent a small cyst or focus of intraparenchymal fat.  (I'll take fat to win). 

"There are 2-3 sub-centimeter low attenuation lesions within the kidneys bilaterally that are too small to characterize.  The abdomal aorta is normal." (WooHOO for me.....Dad had a AAA ten years ago... that's some ugly surgery).

"no abdominal fluid collection.  There is no abdominal lymphadenopathy."  I don't know what that last word is but I feel sure I don't want any.

"There are no adnexal masses.  There is no free fluid within the pelvis. "

"Mild degenerative change is present in the lumbar spine. "  (This is new..dammit).

"New serosal metastasis along the posterior segment of the right hepatic lobe."

Sounds to me like I have something on the back side of my right kidney that has to GO.  I think my doctor mentioned laprascopic radio-frequency ablation.  Now that sounds like something that might suck. 

Then again, what could suck more than cancer?

Figure it out and let me know. 

This is what I know until my doctor visit or I lose my freaking mind whichever comes first.

Peaches ~ I hope you are able to get an explanation of your situation before Jan. 14th.  Is there any way you can contact your doctor to phone you back, and while you and another person sits down with the reports you have in front of you, and have the doctor explain again what it means, paragraph by paragraph?    Take notes). I realize there may be some with medical experience online, but you know, the doctor that has been treating you know your history and etc.  I worry if you rely one someone else's words, then your own doc's.  Someone other than your doctor might interpret the report/words differently, making it appear better or worse than it is.  The important thing you probably want to know (or I would want to know) is, where are you going now?  What's the next plan of action?  I hope you are able to get your answers soon, Peaches. My heart goes out to you as you strive to regain your health.  I feel I can speak not only for myself, but for many other monkeys and even others that come to read and can't post at Scared Monkeys, that we are all pulling for you and greatly admire you. Your strength and strong will are admirable.  {{{Hugs}}}  Please post again when you can and let us know how you are doing. 

Peaches, you have been fighting a long hard battle, and for me it is a good sign that you are stll fighting and here to enjoy a Merry Christmas.  Continued prayers for you.   

   My Dear Peaches, Just a note to tell you that I have and will continue to do so  sending up smoke and praying as hard as I possibly  can with all the sincere loving pleading and all that goes with it  for God to allow us to have your wonderful spirit and body here for a good long time ye  and He does know just how much that you have and still continue to do for others  I just feel it.
   I suppose that you heard or read about Jessicas Mom being in a head on car crash and is now in a big hosp in Cleveland  and she is so bad  so when you can please pray for her also this is being so hard on Jessica  and she really does not need to be her mothers nurse for the rest of her life  as she is just starting to get her life up and running  but as I have told her I will support her in what ever she decides to do in this sad sad case .  But I do know that you also believe in the power of prayer and if you can I am sure it will help  because I also believe that you have a special relationship with your God .
   We Love you Peaches,  and again if their is anymore that I can do for you please ask until then  I will continue my positive thoughts and prayers  Have a wonderful Holiday  your friend  Jerry from Ohio .
  (((((((((((((PEACHES )))))))))

MuffyBee...you always know exactly what to say. It is exactly what I couldn't put in words.

Peaches...I hate that you will have to wait for the answers, but I know your faith, strength and spirit will carry you through. Prayers for you and your family during this Holiday Season.

Muffee's right Peaches! The folks who have been treating you know how this report compares to other tests and they need to go over it with you to even know how to characterize it. She also hit the nail on the head when she said that the only important thing is how this report directs the next step to effective treatment.

Yes, please let us know when you've got an interpretation of the report, because it really is an individual, case specific report. And we're with you, Peaches. It may be impossible to get with your caregivers until after Christmas, so try to enjoy this time knowing you'll do what you need to do as soon after the Holiday as possible. I know that's a tall order; I hate to wait just like you do!

You've got incredible strength, Peaches, and something tells me that you draw from your family to fortify it. Soak it in knowing that you already have a plan of action and have identified the first step: to move up that January 14th date.

I wish and hope that you can somehow feel our love and accept the inner peace we'd love to extend to you right now. We wub you, Peaches.

I haven't forgotten my dear monkey friend Jerry from up North, his lady Jessica and Diana from Ohio in my prayers.  I should have stopped and taken the time to let you know when I say my prayers and light the devotional candles you are very much on my mind and in my heart.  As I pray for our Peaches, for the monkeys and their families and friends in need, I also remember to offer up my thanks for all we've been given.  I believe in miracles and the power of prayer.   

Peaches - You deserve to have someone give you an explanantion of what this report means, and what your next step should be in your cancer fight. Please take Muffy's sage advice, and call your doctor.
We're all here for you with prayers and support.

Jerry - Good to hear from you! We will certainly put Jessica and her Mom in our prayers as well. I'm so sorry to hear about the accident, and I know it must be hard on you both.

Hi Peaches,

I'm not a doctor, but I did train to be a medical transcriptionist at one point, and my master's degree is in health, so I can remember some of the terminology.

What it looks like to me is that you have a small amount of cancer cells showing up on the right lobe of your liver. The rest of the stuff is talking about what they see on the scan, but it doesn't look like to me that any of it is cancer-related except for the little bit on the liver.

The ablation procedure doesn't sound too bad, actually. (Of course, that's easy for me to say, since it isn't being proposed for me.) Here is a link to a doctor in Cleveland that explains the procedure. It only involves an overnight stay in the hospital, and most patients are out of bed and sitting up the same day.
http://www.clevelandclinic.org/general/rfa/procedure.html

The good news about the liver is that you can cut pieces out of it and it simply regenerates itself:
"The liver has a remarkable capacity to regenerate after injury and to adjust its size to match its host. Within a week after partial hepatectomy, which, in typical experimental settings entails surgical removal of two-thirds of the liver, hepatic mass is back essentially to what it was prior to surgery." http://arbl.cvmbs.colostate.edu/hbooks/pathphys/digestion/liver/regen.html

The "low attenuation lesions" means there was a little bit of change in the scan waves, but it's saying the lesions are so small they can't categorize them as anything. They could just be something like fat.

As I said, it sounds basically like you have a few liver cancer cells that they're considering removing with laparascopic surgery, which is much less painful than regular surgery.

Big hugs and smoochies to you, Peaches. You have been through so much, but I know you'll make it through this too. You have your wonderful spirit going for you, as well as all the love and support of the monkeys.

Thanks for keeping us informed, and please let us know as soon as you find out more from your doctor.

I worked in a lab for 15 years and BT is pretty right on about what your report says.  I think you are in for a little more work...but sounds as if they are making progress with that evil cancer.  It would appear that this is not as bad as what you have already been through.  When TerryD was taking his chemo he told me he often saw patients that had been battling this stuff for years.  It can be done and if anyone can do it...I am certain it can be you.  Just take it one step at a time.  We will all be here and will be praying for you.  Remember...you are my hero.   :wink:

BT!  That Cleveland Clinic article is exactly what I need!  Your reading of this report and Lala's  agree with mine.  Seems to me the biggest problem is the thing on my liver. 

To me, the more I have read and thought about before the appt, the less confused I will be at the appt.  I want to ask questions that show I'm not just a crazy lady with cancer. 

Now I have some reading to do.  Thank you!

Peaches-

BT's assessment is pretty accurate in that the liver can indeed regenerate itself, in fact even your daughter can donate a small piece of her liver (hers will regenerate), if ever it's decided it's best to even remove all of your liver. I don't know why the liver is such a magnet for cancer except it's such a blood-rich organ, but we explored a lot of options with Rick to include my donating a portion of my liver to him.

I can promise you this, if they are considering laproscopic surgery then they feel sure they can get all of this and that's very good news. Remember, in this day and age 'managing cancer' is a new milestone for cancer therapy, they can do so much which buys you even more time for experimental treatments that could become cures to mature.

God bless you Peaches, God hold you in the palm of his hand for you are precious to us all.

Peaches,

I'm glad there are smart monkeys who confirmed the report.  My interpretation was the same, but only based on a friend's experience with breast cancer years ago.  She had bought this big, white book on 'C' and read from cover to cover.  No much different than yourself, in that respect...for it is wise to know and understand each step through your treatment.  What stayed with me was BBLL...brain, bone, liver, lungs....the object is to prevent the disease from metastisizing there (I do not know if it's the same for ovarian cancer, though).  That small area in your liver, I pray, will be resolved....Keep the faith...yes, indeed, you are my hero, too.   :smt111 :smt045

Peaches, I'm praying constantly for you, luv, and wishing you a Merry Christmas!! You are such an awesome monkey and your strength and humor have sustained me many times over...God Bless You  :smt052

Peaches, just wanted to let you know that you remain in my daily prayers. You are an awesome, caring, compassionate person and I am so proud of you for the way you are fighting this nasty ole cancer.

Love you chicky!

I here for you Miss Peaches.

I just KNOW you are going to get through this ordeal and be fine.
BELIEVE!

Hello Peaches ~   :smt039  I'm thinkin' of you this weekend :thumleft:. 

Peaches, hon, my New Year Wish is for you this year! I wish for you hopes fulfilled, and brand new dreams that will come true!

       HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEACHES!

Sending our Peaches some love this first day of the New Year!  :lol:

Good morning.  I have been having a difficult time with the idea that I may be chronically ill.  I was really thinking that I could blast thru a couple rounds of chemo after having a tumor the size of a honeydew melon removed and get back on my fast track, such as it is.  Well, now it's been two years since the big surgery and 24 rounds of some kinda chemo later an another surgery to remove my adrenal gland and the tumor on it and I still have freaking cancer.  Pisses me off.  Can I say that here?  Oh yeah, my thread.  It never dawned on me that I wouldn't get over this crap and keep right on keeping on. 

The late, great Ruby had cancer back in '59 or '60. Surgery. Radiation. Cobalt. Who knows what all they were trying back then?  One doctor was brave enough to try to save her life.  Thirty four days straight in the hospital.  But she came home.  And she got right back to her life for thirty seven more years.  Alright, hers was a different kind of cancer.  Same neighborhood, just a less deadly kind than mine, then again, it was all pretty deadly in '59-'60. 

Later when cancer reappeared, the doctors had their say and the late, great Ruby had hers.  There would be no chemo, no surgery, no radiation, etc. It was just too much.  She didn't want to live and be sick from chemo, etc.  She felt she had been living on "second chance" time anyway having squeaked away from deadly cancer at age 30.  So Ruby rocked on, traveled, painted china, went out to eat with her friends, sewed for the grandchildren, journaled, and generally did as she pleased.  It was about a year and a half from the time she told her kids and her finale.  She planned everything down to the gnat's ass including two services in two different states, and in the end, it was perfect.

Not knowing what is going to happen next is driving me crazy.  I want to be able to think more than a week ahead.  My anxiety level has been pretty high since I got the results of the CT before the holidays.  I guess it's to be expected. 

Case conference is Tuesday, 1/08.  My appt. is Wed., 1/09, bright and early. 

I figured out the other day that if my doctor thought this latest CT was a big deal, he would have said so.  If this was some big emergency, he would have already dealt with it.  He didn't.  He said I looked fabulous and I shouldn't be unnecessarily concerned.  Alrighty then.  So it IS me!  I have to get a handle on my attitude.  I gotta snap outta this! 

Peaches

In your shoes, I would probably feel exactly the same way you feel. In fact, I bet I would be a lot more nervous than you because I'm a Nervous Nellie kind of person.

You are absolutely right, though, that if your doctor thought it was a terrifying situation, he would certainly have struck terror into your heart about it. That's what doctors do, after all. Do you remember when they diagnosed Terry's cancer? They told him that he only had about 3 months to live and that there was nothing that could be done to help him. In spite of that, he's still around way more than a year later and is now cancer free and feeling great. The doctors seem to like to be as pessimistic as possible, probably to cover their behinds.

It's perfectly natural to feel the way you do, but I just know that you're going to do great! You are in good hands and you're such an optimistic person. Your own strength will help to carry you through this last little bit before you're cancer free and totally healthy again.

Big hugs and smoochies to you.  :smt058

Peaches-

I'm not such a good friend lately, honestly between family and this job and the house showings I fear I don't do justice to little if much of late. You deserve far more of my time and attention too.

First {{ HUGS }}, then remember honey it's a process now, NOW they can 'manage' cancer. I know that isn't what you were hoping for and never say never, for you can't know what new drug or treatment may arrive before you know it.

You have to see this as a game Peaches, you're going to outsmart the C and show it who is boss. It won't take anymore of you for you won't allow it. Your doctors will have a strategy for you and I can assure you, they haven't come this far with you to stop fighting now either. Now they are going to tell you the good, the bad, and the whatever just because they want you to have all the information you're entitled to.

Take some deep breaths, kick back a beer or a martini or whatever you really crave and then flip that C the bird again.

You are bigger than it is, you are better, and you are relentless.

Kick some A and take some names Peaches, the 'game' is about surviving long enough for the cure to take hold. Don't you dare give up, it's okay to go slap something silly for you've fought a mighty war already and are justifiably sick of the aggravation of this.

But remember that precious daughter and precious hubby who love you so very much, perhaps more than you can even imagine. They are part of you and you are part of them. Take that mighty fortress and move on with this challenge, you would not be the wonderful person you are if you didn't fight this back.

Everyone on this thread commit to five minutes of prayer when you go to bed each night for our Peaches, for God to bring her peace and resolve and the energy to go another round, with our love behind her.

Peaches,

BT & None have said it so very well and I'm not sure I can say anything that would top their expressions.  Your thoughts & feelings are so understandably valid.  Whatever the doctors present to you, we are here for you.  Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you daily and they include your family, who are walking the path with you (roadblocks & all), as well as, hope for that cure. 

Let's see what Wednesday brings....in the meantime, I like None's suggestion...keep your chin down and throw some punches.  You're still the champ in our book.... :smt045

What? You mean that you're human, Peaches? Hon, anybody would be having a difficult time with this. The ability to maintain who you are, unscathed by thoughts of how the body you live in is doing, is a really tall order! There is no failure or weakness when you struggle with it. The only measure that counts is how productive the emotional struggle is and as long as it's moving you closer to being able to give the cancer no power over the present, then you're in control and the struggle is only a temporary coping skill needed to achieve that goal. Embrace it as a tool that's accomplishing zero tolerance of allowing the cancer to rob you of a single thing.

Those must sound like easy words for me to say, and I have never had cancer. My Father had cancer. When he was diagnosed, I did the research and knew within hours that the term of the illness, according to the State of the Art information, was 3 months and that the 2 year survival rate was under 2%. I spent 2 hours praying, crying, drinking, and throwing up, and emerged knowing that SOMEBODY had to make up that 2%, so why not my Dad?

I was "Miss In Control" when we got the news, strong as an ox; I was the only one with him and we got the news together. I didn't blink and silently willed myself to be so strong and confident that when Daddy looked at me he would see nothing but absolute surety that this challenge was already won. I calmly called Mom and asked her to come to the hospital, but as soon as she arrived, and I knew he wouldn't be alone, I made some excuse to get the Hell as far away from there as I could. I didn't mean to cause concern, but when no one could reach me for a couple of hours amid speculation of where I might be, Daddy finally told everyone that he knew where I was and to leave me alone. Mom thought I had probably gone to church, or to the library to see what I could find out, or to see a Physician friend for advise; all things I would indeed do in short order. But, I had to be able to exhale from the kick in the gut first, and Daddy knew it because we had felt the same kick.

My point is this: getting bad news and reacting to it is just the initial step; you don't have to stay there, but the way beyond it requires walking through it. You just keep walking in the direction toward hope, resolve, and normalcy. What you're going through just means you've begun.

Peaches, do you remember the passage in Luke 9 and John 6 about the feeding of the 5,000?

And the day began to wear away; and the twelve came, and said unto him, Send the multitude away, that they may go into the villages and country round about, and lodge, and get provisions: for we are here in a desert place. 
Luke 9:13   But he said unto them, Give ye them to eat. And they said, We have no more than five loaves and two fishes; except we should go and buy food for all this people. 
Luke 9:14   For they were about five thousand men. And he said unto his disciples, Make them sit down in companies, about fifty each. 
Luke 9:15   And they did so, and made them all sit down. 
Luke 9:16   And he took the five loaves and the two fishes, and looking up to heaven, he blessed them, and brake; and gave to the disciples to set before the multitude. 
Luke 9:17   And they ate, and were all filled: and there was taken up that which remained over to them of broken pieces, twelve baskets. 

The solution to every problem we can face is given to us within those verses. Jesus wasn't just feeding hungry people, He was teaching us how to surmount insurmountable problems. First, He identified and took what resources there were: two fish and five loaves. What resources do you have, Peaches? I know some of them, but I bet you have more. You have incredible strength, intelligence, love of family, faith, and good doctors.

Secondly, Jesus looked to the Father and asked His Blessings on those resources. He offered them to God with a pure heart to care for others before taking them unto himself.

Thirdly, He broke the bread and instructed the disciples to ACT in faith. They just began distributing the food, and as they did, it multiplied to meet the need. Every step they took in faith multiplied the Blessing to meet the need and do it abundantly. They gave feet to their faith. Twelve baskets left over, and all were fed. God isn't a God of "just barely".

I want to be a resource for you, Peaches. We all do. I want you to know and trust that you have a community here that loves you, thinks about you, prays for you, and is standing strong for you. Don't give the cancer power over your life by dwelling on it, if you can help it. There's a far more powerful place to focus on. I love you, Peaches!

Just sending out a wave to you, Peaches! It comes with hope and a prayer that you're having an awesome day!  :smt039

Despite a rocky start, (see Musings thread) things are going pretty well.  I'm cleaning a little, doin' a little laundry, stuff I never really get done on a day I work.   I have been reading here and praying about everybody and their needs and thanking God he is on my side.  It's a beautiful day. 

This morning, while daughter and I were standing around in the dawn's early light, she said "just think, if this hadn't happened, we wouldn't know how beautiful the sky looks this morning".  And it was beautiful.  We were on top of a hill and the clouds were clearing and the sun was trying to come up and it was lovely. 

So I said to my girl, "This is the day the Lord hath made and I will rejoice and be glad in it".  And I am.

Well, you just made my day as well, Peaches! THANK YOU!

WE'RE ALL HERE, JUST ROOTING YOU ON! AREN'T WE A CREW?

AMEN !!
  Keeping you ni my prayers sweety!!  HUGS !!!!! 

Dear Peaches,

I'm sending you all my love plus best wishes for your good health. I'm praying for you every night.

With love,
Louise

I am home from the doctor.  One of the first things he said was that he was a "people reader".  He said if he saw me out in public, in a restaurant somewhere, and didn't know me, he would think "healthy woman".  Says I look great. 

Alrighty then, let's move on to my liver.  He's already consulted a liver specialist who has seen my films etc and feels I am an excellent candidate for RFA...radiofrequency ablation... of that thing on my liver.  I have an appt. with him on the 15th to talk about that.  No biggie.  It's a laparoscopic procedure and this guy's specialty is liver, pancreas, etc.  Bring it on.

Then once I have recovered from the liver procedure, I get to do some more chemo.  Not a show stopper.  Cisplatin and Taxol.  How funny that I was just posting to Jerry about shaving my head when the weather warms up.  Looks like that's gonna happen.  Chemo will be a little different in that my doctor is going to put in an IP (intraperitoneal) port so the heated chemo will be infused directly into my peritoneal cavity.  Dr. is waiting for his new machine to come in that will deliver that type of chemo so it's no biggie that I am not ready to start that kinda chemo yet anyway. 

Cisplatin is another platinum based drug so the fact Dr. is going to use that tells me I am still responding to platinum therapy.  Same with Taxol.  If it hadn't worked in the past or wasn't working anymore, he'd be switching to something else.  These two drugs apparently do a good job when administered via IP, evidently better than when given IV. 

While I am not wild about two more surgical procedures (liver ablation and surgery to install the IP port), it's all good.  My doctor isn't out of ideas and I'm not out of hope.  This IP chemo may be the ticket to a longer remission.  That would be good.  I'm busy.

I have to make sure that I don't let my life revolve around cancer.  Instead, I need to make cancer revolve around MY life.  I have plans.  I'm going to Nashville in July.  I'm going to take my daughter to the beach!  I have books on order from Amazon so my reading list is as behemoth as ever.  I cannot sit around and be sick.  It's boring and it sucks. 

Bottom line for me here this morning is praise the Lord, he is on my side and taking care of me.  I have the BEST doctor and the best DH, the best daughter and best friends any girl could have.  I am much too ornery and feisty to give up now!  God has placed all of you in my life to take care of me and pray for me and love me and you are all doing a wonderful job of it.  I could not do this without each and everyone of you who stops by.  I pray for the best for you all.  God is great all the time.  Thank you for your support.  I love you all.

OK, you. You've got me blubbering at work. Tears of joy, Peaches.

Thank you Lord for giving us the gift of Peaches! Thank you Lord for giving us a glimpse of your nature through her life!

Thank you Lord for what you are doing for her and through her! Thank you for letting us have a small part in your miracle for her! She's your child and one of my favorite sisters!

I WISH I could hug you, hon! You don't need it, I do!  :lol:

Thanks for letting us know the news! I've been checking in all day! ALL my Love, Peaches!

We love you, too, Peaches, and will be with you on this next treatment regiment....praying that remission is yours.

I'm not done yet...............

  I totally agree with you CBB  Peaches as a friend is truly a gift I am so proud to know so many wonderful people here and Peaches is right at the Top of the list . ( Most high complement ) .
    Jerry from Ohio .





Thank you Lord for giving us the gift of Peaches! Thank you Lord for giving us a glimpse of your nature through her life!

Thank you Lord for what you are doing for her and through her! Thank you for letting us have a small part in your miracle for her! She's your child and one of my favorite sisters!

I WISH I could hug you, hon! You don't need it, I do!  :lol:

Thanks for letting us know the news! I've been checking in all day! ALL my Love, Peaches!
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My heart is bursting reading this from CBB. This message captures all I could ever say or feel about you and your situation. Peaches, your last post lifted me up in a way I did not think possible. I do thank God for the opportunity to know you and to witness his amazing work through you and in you. There have been very few people in my life that I've truly held in extreme high regard and respect, and several of them are posting in this thread. I am praying for you Peaches, always have, always will. You are a blessing and a gift to us all. Keep kicking A sweetie!! We love you!!!!!

Peaches!

You are my hero!!  You make my day better.  God is using you in a mighty way!

Love you bunches!

Peaches...you have always been my hero...you are teaching all of us about the value of life, and I thank you for that...!

Can I send you a list of all the books that are on the bookshelves...?  I am getting ready to pack them up and send them off to anyone who would like to read...lol.

Big prayers heading your way...

Mere

Peaches, I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  Your positive attitude is the bestest medicine.

(((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))

Sarah

Just checking in to check the peaches!  :lol:

I'm thinking about you and have gotten it down to intimate chat sessions with God concerning the Peach! He knows when I enter His Presence and settle in for a while, what we're going to discuss, and His smile is something that I feel within my soul as He invites me to do so. It's getting crowded in there, Peaches! I'm elbow to elbow with all the other monkeys, but I've never been in such good company!

Hope you're having a wonderful day!  :D

Hello Peaches  :smt006 I was checking in on you this weekend.  It looks like a plan in the works for you.  I am very encouraged by your doctor saying you look healthy.  That speaks volumes, imo.  {{{{Hugs}}}} and prayers for you Peaches.   :smt052

Sending you love and wishing that you have a peaceful sleep tonight.

Peaches, I love you!

Peaches~
YOU ROCK!!!  You are such an inspiration to me. Keep fighting, we're all here pulling for you, walking side by side with you, praying without ceasing for you. Be strong and of good courage. Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}} :)

Roos~

Count me present in that prayer crowd. I care about you too Peaches.

Peaches
My prayer for you today is that God will wrap his arms around you and hold you while you fight your next battle. His healing power if mighty and his love deep.  You are my hero and will be forever.

We Love You Peaches!!  You inspire me.

Peaches:  I am praying for you every day.  You are indeed an inspiration to me and all the other monkeys.  Hang in there girl!  We are here for you!

Peaches, you have the best attiutude and are an inspiration to all! Best wishes on the latest round of treatments.

Y'all are such a huge blessing to me.  Thank you.  Tomorrow afternoon is my meeting with the liver doctor.  I have to pick up my films from the hospital and hand carry them to the liver doc.  I imagine I will have more information tomorrow around this time than I do now. 

I am expecting a miracle.  Things are falling into place.  I have a great gyn-onc.  Probably the best in ATL.  And now his friend, the big time liver doctor is going to see me and ablate that thing on my liver.  The plan is proceeding.  God is good all the time.

Love you all.

Hang in there Peaches. Love Ya Gal. With the monkey prayers & the great doctors you have you going to beat this crap!!!

Peaches,

I am one of the few monkeys who has had the privilege of actually meeting you, and I can vouch for the fact that all the wonderful things people are saying about you are absolutely true. We all love you lots and lots, and I know that you are gonna do great. Hang in there - God and our prayers are with you every step of the way. :smt058

If I could write a book...it would be about you.  I have thought about what an inspiration you have been to so many of us through your battle with cancer.  True courage is rare and often us mere humans only hear about it after the fact. In you I have had the privilege to see courage in action. The ability to face a human's greatest fear and meet each challenge head on and come out a winner.  That is why I say you are my hero.  When I sent you that book signed by Beth, I felt an honor had been bestowed upon me in some small way.  You sent me a card back that I have kept that said something about my place being secured in heaven.  It brought tears to my eyes, because I was the one that felt honored for being the person to have asked Beth to sign the book for you.  Yes, if only I could write a book about you. It would be a book filled with inspiration on living each day to it's fullest.  You have never let anyone or anything steal your joy. (Another life lesson I learned this week, thanks Lisa) In fact you already have inspired a title for it....I Bring My Better Angels to Every Fight.

Aww...Lala's, you are such a sweetie.  Actually, I stole that "I bring my better angels to every fight" from Toby Keith's song "Love Me if You Can".  It's such a great thought.  I'm never alone because God is with me and everyone of you is right beside me providing encouragement, guidance, patience and prayers. 

On Tuesday afternoon, I drove over to the liver doctor's office, parked the car and then hiked across the street and up the hill to the big hospital to pick up my CT scans.  I didn't want to park and pay twice so I figured it would be easier just to hoof it over there.  And it was.  Took me about 8 minutes.  And it was uphill.  And I wasn't really in a big hurry.  Getting into the hospital was easy.  Getting my scans was a breeze.  They knew I was coming because I called first.  Getting OUT of the hospital was a challenge particularly when you're in the basement of the hospital anyway and so I headed in the general direction I wanted to go and walked until I came across someone in scrubs who looked like they knew their way around.  Sure enough.  Nice lady walked me to where I could see out and I was good to go.  Back down the hill to the doctor's office.  Can't tell me I don't get any exercise.   

DH met me there.  Doctor was very nice.  Snappy dresser.  Smart.  He drew a big red blob on a diagram of a liver (several views) and showed me where it was and how big.  Size of a quarter.  Then he said something I evidently hadn't heard before... PERCUTANEOUS!  Folks, that means one point of entry.  A long probe with the radiofrequency ablation thingie on the end of it.  They go in similar to a fine needle aspiration.  Of course, they knock you out for the whole thing.  Bonus.  So it's a procedure but it's not really surgery because they aren't cutting me open.  WOOHOO! 

RF of my liver will be done by an interventional radiologist (cause it's his specialty) under CT guidance (so he can watch what he's doing) and I have to stay overnite.  BFD.

I think this doctor must have thought I was going to go home and discuss with my DH who was sitting right there  :roll: so I said "So when are you going to do this?"  Now I'm waiting for them to schedule the procedure.  I told them to get busy because spring is coming and I have plans. 

It's all good.  The song running in my head this morning and many times throughout the day is "He's Got the Whole World in His Hands".  Despite the fact I have cancer and a particularly gnarly kind at that, everything has come together pretty well for me.  I have THE best doctors.  My gyn-onc is the BEST.  He only knows the BEST.  And he wants what the best for me so I'm in good hands.  I know he's working hard on my case as is everyone on his team.  This resting time for me is good because I actually feel pretty good most of the time and that hasn't happened in a long time.  I need this time to get myself in shape for whatever's next. 

I couldn't do this without y'all.  Lala's, thank you.  I love you all.

Way to be, Peaches.   ::MonkeyDance::  XXXOOO

Sweet Peaches-

Sorry I've been so drawn up into work offsite that I haven't checked back in, last weekend I was with son and away too. Boy how you rise up to meet the challenges in this road, how wonderful your daughter can see poetry in a sunrise and what a gift that is from her mom. Imagine how much richer your daughter's life is and will continue to be, with your inspiration and love, and knowing the real priorities and joy in life at such a young age?

I'm so glad it's not invasive surgery and thrilled you are pushing them to get jiggy wid it. You are your own best advocate, I am proud of you.

Rick loved Toby Keith, love affair all began with his song about she thinks my tractor is sexy?  :wink:

I hope you finally got my email I had trouble getting into you, it bounced back a couple of days? If not, I'm actually working from home tomorrow - will try to email.

How about I think your liver's sexy sweet Peaches?  :wink: :lol:

Peaches,

I don't post much here but I am truly in Awe of the type of person you are. You make me proud to be a monkey! I believe in miracles and I believe in you  ::MonkeyCool::

Peaches,
 I admire you . I keep you in my prayers everynight.  Luv yah sweety. You are a blessing to ALL of us here.

Okay, I have to check in at the hospital at 8 for a 10 am procedure.  An interventional radiologist is going to use radiofrequency ablation to barbeque the small tumor on my liver.  I'm trying not to stress over it because there's no reason to do so.  I have the right team for the job at the hospital that does this procedure all the time. 

I may have DH try to post an update tomorrow nite but I expect nothing exciting to happen beyond what they already have planned.

Thanks for your prayers.  Means the world to me.

We're here for you, Peaches.  Some are more eloquent with their message, but I hope you know that maybe in my case...less is more...more of the good stuff I pray for.

OK, Peaches............I know you dread it, but hon, this is step one of the current plan to get all this behind you. It's not weeks and weeks of incremental treatments and waiting for "sick" to pass with each treatment. This phase just goes in and takes care of what needs to go. That's a good thing. That's progress, right now without waiting. My heart goes out to you in admiration of your strength, stamina, courage, and character. I will check in often waiting to hear from you, and my prayers are paving this latest path in hopes it will be a smooth ride for you. We are ALL keeping you in prayer and thoughts as you take this important step. We Love you, Peaches!

Prayers for you Peaches - that the procedure will be a great success!  Love ya girl! 

Peaches Rocks!!!!  ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance::

Peaches please allow myself to join CBB in our greatest wishes and prayers for you during this procedure  we are there in spirit for you Lady <g>
   Hugs   Jerry from Ohio <g.

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 ::MonkeyWink::

I am praying everything went well today, Peaches. ::MonkeyWink::

Checking in with a virtual hug for our sweet Peaches {{{ GIANT HUGS }}}

I'm thinking of you, Peaches.     I hope all went well today.   :smt045 :smt045 :smt045

Checking in on you Peaches. I know that your Doctors did a great job with you today! I'm hoping and praying that you aren't in pain and already on a fast track to recovery from the procedure! You're in my prayers, hon. You're a step closer to cancer-free right now than you were this morning....................now, that's enough to accomplish for any one day!

Please rest and let yourself heal. We're all keeping you in our hearts!  ::MonkeyWink::

Hi.  All went well.  My surgical oncologist said it went well.  The interventional radiologist that actually did the radiofrequency ablation said it went great.  I had a pain pump yesterday and today.  I feel okay.  I was able to do all the required activities for discharge.  My neighbor and dear friend picked me up at the hospital and brought me home.  She'll go get DD from school later so I don't have to drive in my pharmaceutically enhanced stupor. 

Thank you for all your prayers.  I know they were heard.  Everything went excellently.  As expected.  Good margins.  Good prognosis after surgery.  Next up will be an appt. with my gyn onc next week to decide on the next phase of this journey.  God is great all the time. 

Now that I don't have a nurse to wake me up every two hours, I'm going to go NAP!
Smoochies to one and all.

Thank you Lord for hearing all the monkeys prayers for Peaches.  She's really special to us all and now we pray that you continue to be with her and send your healing love to her.  Amen.

 That was my kind of prayer La la's  short  right to the point  and with all of GODS love coming right from your Heart  Bless you La La's Mom <g> 
    Jerry and Jessica from Ohio .

   YEA GOD   !!!  YEA  Dr's !!  YEA PEACHES !!!!!!
  (((((((((((((  Peaches ))))))))))) 
                    Jerry and Jessica fro Ohio .

Peaches...you are awesome...!  I still believe in miracles...and I pray for you often...Hugs, Mere

 ::MonkeyDance::  Peaches ~!!
 God Love you sweety !!  Keep up the great work. You are an inspiration to us all !!   HUGS !!

Peaches, I have been thinking of you and praying for you. I am glad that things are going so well for you!  BTW, those pain pumps rock.... I had one once, but I was accused of trying to push the button too often, hey what the heck. Can't blame someone for trying right. ::MonkeyCool:: Keep on keeping on Peaches, we are all routing for you.

Peaches I am so glad to hear the procedure went off without a hitch. You are a true inspiration to me. Hang in there my partner in crime, we have some unfinished business to attend to when you get wel!!   ::MonkeyWink::

Peaches, I'm so psyched to hear your good report!!!!!!!!

 ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance::

God Is Good!!!

Peaches~
Thanks for sharing the really good report, you are always in my thoughts & prayers. May God continue to bless you and your family. You truly are a tremendously strong person.

Sending you lots of {{{HUGS}}} and am dancing with you ::MonkeyDance::

Roos~

Great news Peaches!
Keep up the good fight. We're all praying for you to continue to get good news.

I stayed home and rested on Thursday.  I thought it was the least I could do since the nurses pestered me every two hours like clockwork.  Good giggly wiggly!  Leave a girl alone with her morphine pump!  I forgot to push it sometimes.  Sometimes it beeped at me.  I guess the nurses weren't amused that my blood pressure was kinda low in the middle of the night.   They wanted to me to roll over.  LMAO!  I told them I'd get up and run up and down the halls if they wanted me too!  Seriously, I had the nicest nurses.  I told them my goal was to hang around and be higher than a Safeway chicken until they let me out.  I told them I might as well push the button, I'm paying for it! 

Yesterday, a nurse from the hospital called to see how I was.  I told her I was doing pretty well.  Then I asked her what position I was in when they did the ablation on my liver.  Well, both arms were raised over my head and I was laying on my left side.  The site where the needle went in is on the right about 4 ribs up.  I said well that explains why I feel like I was hung on a rack!  My shoulders are so sore I can't believe it.  The nurse said I was on the table for a good hour and a half.  Nice.  I can hardly get dressed.  A cup of coffee is too heavy. 

Small potatoes, this problem with my shoulders.  I have to see my gyn-onc next week and see what he has in mind to do next.  My CT, as you will recall, didn't look too bad other than that pesky liver tumor...which is now history.  I am predicting more chemo and that's okay.  Whatever it takes. 

Thanks for your prayers and concern.  I couldn't do this without you.   
 

And what's Peaches watching this morning?  One of my favorites: Josh Turner singing "Me and God". 

http://www.cmt.com/videos/unplugged/josh-turner/130873/me-and-god.jhtml

Such a great message for us all.

That's a great song! I love Josh Turner, and he seems like a really good guy. Music can be very uplifting and soul soothing.

Can you soak in a tub yet? A nice warm bath with Epsom salt would help all the soreness go away.

God Bless You Peaches! We are glad to help you in this small way. I wish I was next door, and I'd bring you dinner. You are one amazing Monkey, and you have such a good attitude. You are a fighter, and you will this battle!

I meant to say...you will WIN this battle...... ::MonkeyConfused:: ::MonkeyNoNo::

For Peaches: 

http://www.alighthouse.com/psalm23.html

  Howdy Peaches,  Lil Puma, and all <g>
  Just wanted to tell Lil Puma that the Psalm 23 was so pretty TY for sharing it with us <g>  and also Peaches if I were closer to you I would come over and hold your coffee for you till you got your strength back . ( and I would too )  you are just too special to us for you too have to work at something so small  but the best I can do is to offer my cyber help and am sending all my love and prayers your way

Sweet Peaches-

I'm so glad you had kind and caring nurses, you deserve all the best support with this battle. I expect they like us, are drawn to you.

I know the soreness is an additional nagging thing but hopefully soon that will dissipate, your attitude is so great and I am actually relieved they were able to remove all of it Peaches. You and I both know that's the best opportunity to position you to beat this, thank heavens for the ablation.

God must be watching over you, I believe you do have a special purpose however unclear it may be at times or even unsettling, God doe have a plan for us all. I didn't want to tell you but Rick's birthday was the day of your surgery, so see, you truly did have a guardian angel.

{{{{ HUGS }}}}}

Peaches~I am glad things went well and you are in my prayers. I had RFA a few months ago and another round a couple of weeks ago. Mine was for a totally different medical condition. I wanted to tell you that it has been successful for me too and I had the shoulder pain, in my shoulder blade on one side. That pain lasted a couple of weeks. My last ones were more painful, but for me it has been worth it. You have an attitude I admire and wanted to ask if you or anyone else has the post you made in the past about miracles. I had saved it on my other computer and it got toasted. If you or anyone else has it, please repost. Thanks

Checking in on you, Peaches! I hope the soreness has gone away, just like that spot on your liver. It's GONE!  ::MonkeyWink::

You're in my prayers and thoughts! God Bless!

 ::MonkeyCool::big hugs to you peaches. glad to hear you are doing so well. 

I may not be here at sm, like I used to be, but I do think of you and my other monkey friends often. 

God Bless,

MsVada

I wish they would have told me they were going to have my arms over my head during the procedure.  At least then, I would know why I was sore.   Instead, I asked the nurse.  What if you didn't know to ask that question?  Stuff like that aggravates me because sometimes people assume you already know you're going to spend a couple hours with your arms over your head.  I had no idea.  Once I knew why my shoulders were killing me, I was much better!!

RFA ROCKS big time.  My liver doc told my gyn-onc that he was very pleased.  I have an appt with my gyn-onc tomorrow so I should have more details then. 

The miracles stuff.  If you read this whole thread, it's probably here somewhere.  Otherwise, I'm sure I was rambling about a Joel Osteen sermon about expecting miracles.   God wants the best for us.  We are His children.  Therefore, if we as His children need something, no matter how big or impossible it seems, we should ask God who can do all things.  And then we should expect a miracle.  Pray expectantly, thanking God for the miracle He is working in your life.  And He is working a miracle in your life.  You know that.  Look where you've been recently.  You may have suffered enormous monetary losses in the fire but God had you and yours in the palm of His hand.  And here you are. 

God is good all the time. 

Keep passing those prayers on if you please.  With recurrent ovarian cancer, the battle is never really over.  But the fight is worth it.  Love you all. 

As promised, an update following my latest doctor visit.  He was delighted to see me.  Said I look great and healthy and it's his job to keep me that way.  Since his pal the liver doc was happy with my RFA, I'm going to do some more chemo.  Once a month.  New drug I haven't had before. Doxil.  I haven't completely read up on it yet but it's given IV.  I asked how many rounds of chemo and he said "indefinitely".  He has lots of other patients who've been taking it for years.  Well, anything those other patients can do, I can do better.

This is a change from what my doctor told me earlier before my liver RFA.  Then he was talking about heated interperitoneal chemo which is some really serious stuff.  The drugs are nasty and it's about six months of feeling really shitty.  I was up for it.  All this time I have been waiting and praying for an answer to the question what's next for me.   I tried not to focus on the fact I wasn't on any treatment so who knows what's going on.  I tried to focus on expecting my miracle and thanking God for looking out for me.  Some may think a miracle is no more cancer.  That would be a big one for sure.  And God could do it.  Changing my treatment plan to something that will be relatively easy to live with is a miracle of its own.  I'll take it and keep expecting.

I feel good.  I look like a healthy person.  I actually weigh less than the number stated on my drivers license.  You have no idea what a thrill that is for me.  I'm feeling pretty feisty today.  I know it's going to suck a little to be back on the chemo treadmill because it's chemo but my nurses are nice and I'll have daughter's laptop so I won't have to miss any cage time.  Being in chemo is nice safe place for me.  I feel like I'm fighting when I'm getting infused.  If nothing else, it's good for a nap.

God is good all the time.  I'm still in the fight.  And I'm confidant I am not in it alone. 

Thanks to all of you.   

Peaches, I so admire you and your attitude. I love ya sistah!

Hi Hon! With all the news in the Natalee Case, I just wanted you to know that I haven't cut back one second on my prayers of thoughts of you. You're my Peach!  ::MonkeyWink::  ::MonkeyHaHa::

Peaches? You asked the other day if I had gotten an e-mail from you, and I wanted to be sure you saw my answer. No, I haven't but would love to hear from you! Klaas will give you the addy if you ask her, and I'll be on the look out for it.

I'n glad to read about your high spirits, and I keep checking here for updates. Yep, God is good ALL THE TIME! AND He's on your side!

Jeremiah 29:11 
"For I know the plans I have for you,
Plans to prosper you
and not to harm you,
Plans to give you hope
And a future."

Awesome news sweety!!!   Love you and pray for you every night!

Peaches, I have to tell you this story from this week. Life has been so hectic lately, selling our home finally and finding the new one, much less negotiating and dealing with realtors/agents/lenders is just exhausting. Everyone wants their 'take' and everyone is feeling the pressures in the current market.

Riding underneath all of that is our family leaving the home we shared with Rick, how hard we know that is going to be and how important it is to take parts of him with us. I asked for our rose as my only request in our contract, but his birdbath and birdhouse will go with us too. Already post finally putting a contract on something yesterday, we drove home discussing where to plant that rose and where to put the bird bath over all things.

Little none often wears Rick's shirts, typically to bed as jammies, etc. Anyway she put on one of his shirts, one that was a fave and has been washed timely ever since we lost him. Well last night she put on that shirt for we were so tired, we even talked about how good it was going to feel to get into our jammies on the drive home. She put it on then ran to me incredulous, sticking out the neck of the shirt for me to smell. Lord it smelled just like him, Rick had such a 'clean smell' naturally, we both loved that about him. We even packaged away some of his clothing in plastic so we'd never lose that smell. In sad moments I go soak my face in it, breathe him in, I suspect so does little none.

I told her it was him giving her a 'hug', that it was his way of letting her know he's always with us and that he's happy we've found a new smaller home we can be happy in. What a gift that is for her to have that moment, when it tears at her heart to know we're leaving the place we had so many wonderful memories with him.

Peaches, as I went to sleep last night I prayed for him to watch over you, to help you go this distance. I know he's there for you, he was that way, so eager and willing to be kind and supportive to others.

God bless you, you will endure and you will succeed. Our love to you always.

Peaches , I know we don't "see" each other as much as we use to, but you are never far away in my heart and my prayers are always with you chicky. I so admire your strength and your attitude in the face of adversity. Stay strong chicky... I love ya!

Today I had a MUGA scan.  Multigated Acquistion.  Something about checking my ejection fraction of my heart for something.  I don't know.  The tech was a cutie and very nice and smart so I forgot what he said.   ::MonkeyCool:: I know he's the only one allowed to handle "nuclear" medicine.  On his door to his office, it says HOT ROOM.  Yeah, buddy!   It was another opportunity to have my left arm over my head for about 30 minutes.  My shoulders are still killing me from the RFA on my liver!

Tomorrow starts a different chemo drug, Doxil.  I'll let you know how it goes.  I'm sure it will have its own set of nasty side effects but don't they all?  It's all about the goal.  Time. 

I feel good.  I look pretty healthy.  And I am so still in the fight.  And while you're praying for me, I found this blog while reading my hometown paper online.  I read every entry and it's an amazing story.  Talk about super mom.  Well, check it out.  I think she's an interesting writer and does a great job of talking about cancer and its effects on her family, etc.  I pray she does well. 
http://punkrockmommy.org/blog/

Love you all.

I am praying for you Peaches.. :smt023

I haven't had a lot to add here lately.  I've just been reading.  But, I want to add my prayers for Peaches along with everyone else.

Keep the spirits high Peaches.

Hey Sistah! Just letting you know that I am still in your corner.....

Love ya!

I came in here to cheer you on once again my dear Peaches and what happened?  You lifted my spirits and made me realize how very lucky I am to know you.  What you have given to the world is immeasurable.  You have allowed us to laugh and cry with you. To pray for a person we may never meet and see God's mighty power in your life. You have helped us down roads of sorrow and despair. To give us love all the while we are tying to let you know we are here for you.  I have had it wrong all along...

YOU WERE BROUGHT HERE FOR US!   YOU ARE MY HERO!!

Hey Peaches,
You are in my thoughts and prayers.  I don't verve off the front page much, but I was browsing and wanted to stop by and give you my prayers today.

 :smt049

Hi Peaches!

I was just checking in on you to see how you were doing with the new chemo. I also wanted to say thank you because you have helped me a great deal with my prayer life. I take the time, even when I would ordinarily think I didn't have it, to just stop, clear my mind, and have a chat with God. It's easier for me to do that for you than it is for me!  ::MonkeyHaHa::

Don't laugh, but I learned long ago that prayer is a two way conversation...........no, God doesn't "speak" to me exactly, but He definately communicates with my soul. Anyway, there have been several times lately that I have been compelled emotionally, and in my mind's eye, to just curl up in His arms and feel His love. I take you with me at His invitation, Peaches. Just wanted to share with you in words what we've already been sharing for some time. Luv Ya' Peaches! You're my "lap buddy"!  ::MonkeyWink::

You're always in my prayers Peaches.

Love to you too Peaches, so much love and support from us !

I have a story to share, I think God does send us messages when we most need them, this is a V-day one but I thought of you while it was happening, which will become apparent when you read it.

Yesterday I was traveling back from the midwest, in a major hub airport and of course, my flight was delayed. Anyway I thought to myself well it's V-Day, I'm missing my kids for today I need a hug, so doggone it if I now have 2 hours to wait due to delay then my employer can at least buy me a good dinner ! So I went to the Macaroni Grill, stood in line for about half a doggone hour, but was finally seated - of course all alone. I will never get used to dinners alone, even when traveling with work, it just feels so darn forlorn.

Well eventually tables change out on either side of me, soon I am sitting next to an older couple on my left and a very young couple on my right. Honestly I was sitting there reading over text messages I saved from Rick, yes I still have them and can't part with them, just reading and feeling sorry for myself that he's not here.

the older couple's meal arrived and they held hands and said grace, it's just so rare to see that, it touched me too. The younger couple is just so cute and so in love, just fun to watch hoping they treasure it, youth is so fleeting. Finally I finish my dinner, it wasn't appetizing so I ate little but it had nothing to do with the quality of the food, but the waitress seemed to know I was killing time - suggested I have a latte. It was just what I needed too. Anyway my latte sparks the older couple asking me if it's good, for they might want one too. Before long we're chatting like old friends, but they had a story to tell, one that made me think Rick was hovering closeby.

They met 25 years prior when married to other people, went to the same church and were good friends. They both lost their spouses to cancer in the last year, even though they no longer lived in the same place, they had kept in touch during the illnesses. They were support for one another, both had spouses with untreatable and inoperable cancers, much like Rick's. So sweet Peaches I had to reflect that although you don't feel lucky, please know the very fact that your liver could regenerate and endure the surgery, is such a bonus.

It seems they 'discovered' last December that what was friendship had blossomed into love. They marrried on xmas eve, have 8 children between them and 22 grandchildren. They both volunteer with hospice now as well, so redeeming this 70-something couple with so much life, zest, and love to give to the world.

God knew I didn't need to feel so alone in that airport without my Rick, I am convinced of it. Sweet Peaches I think the message is for you as well, for you're always in my heart as I ask Rick to watch over you...........we need to count our blessings. You have a fighting chance, I never was so bold to post how dismal the prognosis was for Rick, but it truly was dismal. I think I felt if I acknowledge that prognosis somehow it would come true, sigh.

You can beat this, you have so much love and support behind you and you are such a fighter.

I shared with this sweet couple the story of my friend Peaches, about how you've had physicians willing to provide cutting edge treatment and how hard you are fighting to beat this, and even about your lovely husband and daughter who are behind you throughout. Well just know she's already emailed me and asked me to tell you they are praying for you, and asking their support group for spouses with losses to cancer to pray for you too.

Thanks for sharing that blog, what challenges people have and like you, I so hope that mother can move beyond her cancer to a long and happy life.

Happy Valentine's Day sweet Peaches

Peaches,

I haven't posted here lately and I didn't want you to think I had forgotten you.  Just have been like a gumby lately, dealing with the sale of my parent's home and clearing out all the stuff.  Have had little time on the internet. 

Just know that I think of you daily and feel the same way as Nonesuche and the other monkeys.  You are an inspiration.  Keep on keepin' on....

XXOO

Peaches, you are a miracle. Thank you for letting me learn so much from you. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad you are not going to have to do that interperitoneal chemo...Stay as strong as you are! I love reading your posts!!

Keeping you lifted up high in my prayers Peaches..God Bless you,Tot

Well, the new chemo seems to be okay.  If I can steer clear of the PPE side effect, I'm good.  I talked about PPE to my chemo nurse so now I understand what kinds of things I can't do for about 4-7 days following chemo.  No biggie.

I don't look sick.  I have a reasonable appetite.  Once the weather warms up, I'm thinking about walking.  But not till it's warm. 

The battle is far from over here on the ovarian cancer front.  My post-RFA CT looks great.  Your continued prayers are of course appreciated and crucial.

Smoochies to all.  You are fine bunch of people.  I love you all.

Big smoochies right back at you Peaches.I want you to know that I'm interceding on your behalf daily in my prayers. The "JOY"of the Lord is your strength.If the devil gets that,you weaken, so I pray for your joy and strength always.You are precious to me..God Bless you..

Hang in there girl!  My hero once again!  {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

Peaches......God Bless You!
You are an inspiration to us all.

Peaches - I cannot tell you how much it means to me that in the midst of all you are going through that you'd reach out to someone else.....to me. I am honored to take your hand and cling with you. I do have faith that God has a plan for me, and for my children, and I appreciate your prayers more than you'll ever know.
I am asking Him for my miracle, and offering my thanks up to Him. I'm so glad you pointed that out to me!
You are also in my prayers, Peaches. I think of you often, and hope that you're doing well, and that your miracle is taking place. God is a loving God, and indeed he does love you, and me, and all of us.

May I touch your heart dear Peaches
May I keep that love you give so dearly
so freely
May I use it to touch others hearts
and bring healing to all those in need

You are a real lady
A champion beyond this world
You know it - inside - you do
May you be blessed this very night
as I whisper your name to heaven above
Go in peace little angel
the light trails behind you
Always

Kermit, that is so beautiful.  I needed that today.  Thank you.

I had my follow up visit with the liver doctor yesterday.  Evidently my post RFA site looks great.  Wish I could say the same for the rest of the CT scan.  As you recall, I had a CT last Wednesday and I had the nurse call me with the "results" because I told her the suspense was going to kill me.  So she called me and told me what she was told to:  the post RFA site looks great.  Well, it wasn't a total lie.  That site does look good. I should have known when she would not fax me the report before I saw the doctor. 

It's the five new tumors that don't look so good.  Three are on my liver, two are on my ascending colon.  Nice.  No RFA for this crap.  Laparoscopy is out too.  It's nice when you have a target to go for but it's not the best if you have several things to snatch out AND want to take a cursory look around.  Y'all see where this is going, don't you?  I know I do.  Open abdominal surgery, my personal favorite.  It's going to involve the liver doc and my gyn-onc because they specialize in different areas of surgery and are both oncologists.

I had the liver RFA on 1/22 and this CT on 2/27.  Count the days.  Five new tumors.  36 days.  I asked the obvious question of the liver doc:  When do we need to do this?  I was told a couple weeks.  Great. 

So this morning, my gyn-onc's nurse-practitioner is going to have him call me about this situation because I can't get an appt. until next Wed. (like I'm gonna wait until THEN!)  I guess until I talk to Dr. B that I really don't know anything else for sure.  But this isn't my first rodeo either.  I sense some urgency here.  I am creeped out by the idea of walking around with five new freaking tumors so some of the urgency is mine.  And the weather is warming up and the pool opens Memorial Day weekend and I want to go to Nashville for the 4th of July to see my DH and his chorus sing on the International stage and I want to go to the Cape to see my sister and I need to teach my daughter to parallel park so she can get her drivers license and I'm just too busy for this crap.

More to follow later.

Peaches, I know we don't "talk" alot anymore, but please know that not a day goes by that I don't include you in my prayers. I am in your corner. I love you chicky!

Peaches,

It is incredibly poopy that you should have to go through surgery again, not to mention the stress that you must be experiencing.

Please know that you have countless numbers of monkeys holding you in their thoughts and prayers all the time. We all love you soooooo much, and that's not a fraction of the amount of love that God feels for you. You're gonna do great!

Hugs and Smoochies

I didn't get to talk to the doctor today either.  I have to have a chest CT tomorrow because the other CT report suggests it.  My doc is a big picture kinda guy.  He wants all the info up front.  No surprises in surgery.  And two of these new liver tumors are close to my diaphragm.  So tomorrow at 3:00 p.m., I'll be having a yummy Berry Contrast cocktail and a CT chaser.  I can hardly wait.  I'm trying to keep my chin up because I haven't talked to my gyn-onc yet and he's the expert.  But the liver doc made it sound like surgery was next in the line up.  I guess I'm not surprised really.  This is what they mean by metastatic disease.  Every couple years, you have to go into the hospital and get buffed up to go some more until you just can't go anymore.  I can't see Dr. B jumping for chemo with 5 new tumors that popped in 36 days...all under 2 cm, the smallest being .09 cm.  I've had platinum as recently as last Nov. and that's usually the big gun so it's probablytoo soon to do platinum again.  I guess I get to wait until I talk to my doctor and spend my time praying rather than speculating.

Thanks for stopping by.  Love to you and Simon.  And send my smoochies to TerryD.  I hope he's doing better than me!  Tell him a little status report to the fan club would be nice.

Oh Peaches,

I am praying for you.

Louise

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Peace be still little one, your gift is coming.

Peaches, my sister in crime, you are always in my prayers. Hugs gal & I have some windmill cookies stashed for us to have with coffee!!!

Hugs to Peaches.

Prayers of strength to help you through.

Peaches - I'm sorry to hear that you are facing surgery and all that it entails. I will continue to pray for you, and your family, and for the miracle you so derserve. I'm also praying for your doctors, because they have such important work to do for you. And this time, I'm offering you my hand to cling to as you so generously offered yours to me.
We all love you Peaches, and our prayers and love will surround you. Fight on.

You are my hero!!!  God is there with you...hang on...it's another bumpy ride...until we get past the curves and then it's smooth sailing again.  {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Home from the gyn-onc.  I was a basket case when he came in and he said "I haven't even started talking yet!"  At first, he started talking about shrinking the tumors with a different kind of chemo.  I said wait a minute, the liver doc told me it's gotta go and y'all need to get in there and have a look around and he's talking in the next couple weeks!  So he left the room, talked to the liver doc and now I'm waiting for Dr.'s adim. asst. to call me with the schedule.  Nice.

That's all I know so far.

Hey Peaches!
My internet's been down for almost 2 weeks, and I couldn't get to you!  ::MonkeyShocked::

Well, I see that you've had a lot going on and even more to think about! I like your attitude, and am glad you're able to "take charge" and forge ahead step by step. I know the thoughts of surgery are daunting to you, and I just keep thinking that if those little tumors could talk, they'd tell you they are a lot more daunted by surgery prospects than you are! They aren't going to be around anymore afterward, and that's just great.

You're feeling good right now, and I hope you absolutely bask in that. You have faith in your physicians and that means a lot. You have faith in God, and you join a tremendous chorus of loving, healing hearts in that faith poured out for you. Pitted against a few little tumors, I'll take the God that created you and the Universe, anyday!  ::MonkeyWink::

You, dear one, are an inspiration for us all and we're going to need to learn from what God does in your life for many years. You'll be fine, Peaches. You will heal, by God directing your Physician's hands and our prayers for a well loved sister. There are far, far more positive forces at work here than destructive ones. I'm not going to lend any power with my worry and fret, so don't you either, k? I'm going to crawl up in Christ's lap with you and watch sunsets, we're going to look at our children's faces and marvel, and feel the Spring sunshine warm the trees and flowers until they burst into color and promise. And while we take all that is beautiful in, we'll look up and realize that Christ has been teaching us of himself. The entire earth responds to Him, Peaches. Those few small tumors don't have a chance.  ::MonkeyWink:: I love you, hon!

Phl 4:8   Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
 
(Upon Jesus' entry into Jerusalem, our Palm Sunday)
Luk 19:38  saying, Blessed [is] the King that cometh in the name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in the highest. 
Luk 19:39   And some of the Pharisees from the multitude said unto him, Teacher, rebuke thy disciples. 
Luk 19:40   And He answered and said, I tell you that, if these shall hold their peace, the stones will cry out. 

Peaches,

I'm a fan of the books of Deepak Chopra, and I rememember an interesting story from one of them. Dr. Chopra describes how an older woman came to his office one day, along with her daughter. He did an exam and tests on the older woman, then talked privately with her daughter and explained to the daughter that her mom had widespread cancer that it was too late to treat. The daughter asked that he not tell her mom it was cancer. He agreed to the daughter's request, and told the mom that it was nothing serious.

Dr. Chopra said he didn't see the woman again and made the assumption that she had died of her cancer not long after he had examined her. Several years later, however, the woman showed up at his office again. He was amazed to see her, and when he examined her, he found that she was totally cancer free. After he told her she was in good health, she told him that when she had come to see him the first time, she had been convinced she had cancer. After he had told her she didn't, however, she knew that she was going to be okay.

The lesson here, I think, is that you don't have anything to worry about. You are a woman of strong faith who does not let some little piddly thing like cancer frighten you. You know you're going to be okay, and so do all of us who love you.

Keep up the good work and keep kicking that cancer's butt!!

 :smt058

It Takes Courage
   
 
It takes Courage to care about each member of the family and the struggles they face!

It takes Courage to care about friends and the daily test they encounter. To let them know you will stand by them through each struggle.

It takes Courage to complete each commitment you make toward others.

It takes Courage to confront the weaknesses in your life and be willing to address needed changes

It takes Courage to confess your thoughtless words or neglectful actions toward a person you love.

It takes Courage to proclaim your faith and convictions to people who are judgmental.

It takes Courage to live each day with Integrity.

It takes Courage to respect others when others show little or no respect for you!

It takes Courage to focus on what remains rather than what you've lost

It takes Courage once you recognize that life is a test and your willing to accept the everyday challenges.
© 1999 Gene Bedley

Gene Bedley
 
Peaches you are one of the most courageous women I know.  You strenghten me.  Keep up the good fight.  We're here for you buddy. 

 ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance::
 

Peaches,

I caught up reading here, yesterday, as I was behind in everything since we were away for a week on vacation.   I didn't know what to say at that moment, so I gave myself some time.  I'm not as spontaneous or as eloquent in posting as some of the other monkeys.

Anyway, I thought and prayed and believe you will do all the things you've mentioned you want to do.  I believe it and although it's crappy that you now have these new tumors to deal with, you will get through it.  You're tough, you're resilient and as Lala's has said many times, you are our hero...I have no doubt that the Lord will bring you through this.

XXXOOO

Good Morning Peaches

Psalm 118:23
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.

In Christ's Love

Janet

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Whispering Hope

Soft as the voice of an angel
Breathing a lesson unheard
Hope with a gentle persuasion
Whispers His comforting word

Wait till the darkness is over
Wait till the tempest is done
Hope for the sunshine tomorrow
After the shower is gone

Whispering hope
Oh how welcome thy voice
Making my heart in its sorrow rejoice

If in the dusk of the twilight
Dim be the region afar
Will not the deepening darkness
Brighten the shimmering star

Then when the night is upon us
Why should the heart sink away
When the dark midnight is over
Watch for the breaking of day

Whispering hope
Oh how welcome thy voice
Making my heart in its sorrow rejoice

Whispering hope
Oh how welcome thy voice
Making my heart in its sorrow rejoice

Words & Music: Septimus Winner
Artist: -Anne Murray

Sweet Peaches,

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

Standing in the gap for you with my prayers..

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Peaches, regarding plantar fasciitis, the thing that helped me the most - besides pain meds and ice - is keeping the heel and arch supported 24/7.  My doctor said to support foot even when getting up in the night to go to the bathroom.  Slip into shoes or have supportive slippers or sandals handy. The only time the foot should be without support is when you are in the shower.  Good luck!

Peaches, in the spirit of keeping things positive and cheerful, I just had to offer you this for your Easter Avatar!  ::MonkeyHaHa::  ::MonkeyWink::

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Keeping you in thoughts and prayers!

I love it!  Thanks so much for everything!

 Hi Peaches sweetie :+)  I knew that youd pick the Basset  that is such your humor  and CBB  great Job !!
  Luv ya both  Jerry from Ohio

Peaches, I too suffer from Plantar Faciitis. One of the best devices I've found is a night splint which my podiatrist ordered. I have literally been pain free for over a year now because of it. Taping and massage help, as well as Ibuprofen, to reduce the swelling and inflammation.

Here is a link to some wonderful information and instruction videos (on the right hand side).

http://www.sportsinjuryclinic.net/cybertherapist/front/foot/plantarfaciitis.htm

I'm not sure how your insurance would handle this but, mine paid for the splint 100%.

Good luck. I know how painful it can be. I'll say a prayer for you!

Plantar Faciitis

Me too.  I use a tennis ball to roll over.  Need to stretch calf muscles.  If you can't get a splint, try a high top tennis shoe (at night or when resting).  I tried all sorts of fancy, expensive  inserts...but the best one was the 1/2 (little) Dr. Scholls, blue ones...about $6-7 (and they even fit in dress shoes). The "heel" pads were terrible and slipped all the time. The ortho (made to fit) insoles gave me back pains.  Good luck.

All the best, in everything.  You're always in my prayers.

For you Peaches...

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That is very painful.  The doctor wanted me to get cortisone shots in the heel.  I got a pedicure (my first ever) and it worked.  Every time I feel it start up, I get another one.  It helps every time.  I can't remember the last time it bothered me.

Peaches, I think of you and say a prayer for you often.

I just love to see your cute monkey face, it makes me want to grab your cheeks and give you a great big smooch!

 ::MonkeyHaHa:: ::MonkeyCool::

Hey Peaches!  Your lilttle bassett hound is so darn cute! Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and that you and your family remain in my prayers.

Hang in there Peaches

Sorry to hear you have tumors on your liver.  My younger sister 25 has tumors on her liver too, she's had em for a couple of years now. They were aggravated when she was on birth control pills, I guess the hormones wreak havoc with them. I am guessing in your situation, that hormones might be a factor?  My sis is doing fine with hers, I'll say prayers that your going to stay strong through this too. 

I had a plantars wart years ago on my foot, hurt like a son of a gun, so I cant imagine what pain you're having with the fasciitis/  I'll say a prayer that it goes away soon for you!
Hang in there, we're all sending positive vibes your way
MsVada

Lot's and lot's of prayers and hugs for you Peaches...



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Peaches....I don't talk with you often .... but I think about you and pray for you every day.  You might like to know that the nuns still pray for you and whenever I see one of the elderly nuns, she asks me "How is 'oranges' doing?" ...lol....You are still my hero....and I still believe in miracles....Mere

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Praying for you Peaches...

You are in my thoughts and prayers as always!!!

Still pulling for you Peaches! My prayers are with you everyday!!!

Just stopping by to to check on you Peaches. You're always in my thoughts and prayers.

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Keep you lifted up in my prayers Peaches...

Thinking of you dear sweet Peaches and wishing you a very happy Easter!!!

                                   Happy Easter, my dear sweet Monkey-face!!!                     

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Remembering you in my prayers Peaches...

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Where are you buddy?  Check in with us when you can.   {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
You're in our prayers.

Peaches,

Just to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.  You really have a big and fine group of monkeys praying for you. 

"when you need to lean, lean on Jesus"

I don't post much here, but think and pray  for your strength and healing in God's hands!   He's there for you, as we all are!  God Bless you!


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Peaches ~ Check in when you have a chance.  You're in my thoughts and prayers everyday. 

Hugs to you.

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Peaches ... trust our Heavenly father every step of the way as you walk through the storm.  You are His child and though ... our finite understanding cannot always comprehend ... His love is absolute and ... His ways are perfect.

2 Corinthians 12:9

“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

In Christ's Love

Janet

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Lord I Lift Your Name On High

Lord I lift your name on high.
Lord I love to sing your praises
I'm so glad your in my life
I'M im so glad you came to save us.
Lord I lift your name on high.
Lord I love to sing your praises
I'm so glad your in my life
I'm so glad you came to save us.
You came from heaven to earth to show the
way
From the earth to the cross my debt to pay
From the cross to the grave
From the grave to the sky
Lord I lift your name on high.

By Katinas

Dearest sweet Peaches,

I've been traveling with work for 6 straight weeks now, finally at home with a moment to come to SM, didn't even realize I was signed in for over a week or more? Life is entirely too busy with all of this travel, the first thread I was drawn to tonight was this one. God must be guiding my mouse tonight.

Peaches, isn't cancer crummy this way? It sneaks up on you and frightens you, it exhausts you too that way - sometimes I think that is how it succeeds against some who aren't surrounded by alert and intuitive doctors as you are.

You aren't weak, you are a valiant fighter. Cancer fears you, your vigilance and your perseverance. You can endure and you can lean on all of us, imagine we're enveloping you to carry you over this next obstacle. Try to envision that when you close your eyes, that you can rest against our shoulders and we will carry you for a while so that your body can devote to the fight and then the healing.

I believe in you and I believe in your quest. Go forth and conquer, we are with you and you are never, ever alone.

SO many hugs and kisses sweet Peaches to you !!!

Peaches...we're here with you. You are strong, and you can fight another day, another week, another month, another year. Whatever it takes. And we'll be with you every step of the way, with our thoughts and prayers. You are so loved by your Monkey friends. Wrap that love around you, and let it give you strength, just like none said.

Peaches...I miss you in the mornings...I don't post here much, as the other Monkeys say it so much better than I can, but read your thread all the time...You are in my thoughts and prayers today as you are every day and have so many wonderful Monkeys pulling for you. Bigs Hugs Peaches.

 :smt039  Peaches, I see you out there.  You're always in my thoughts and prayers. 

OK, Peaches. Where are you, whatcha doing, how are you? You are with me in my prayers, and they are said aften, but I miss you here! I wub you!

Always in our thoughts and prayers! So whats your take for April 19th? We miss you and Bean needs your support. Go Huskers!

Hi Peaches!  :2waver:

Thinking about you today.  I actually thought about you last night, someone gave me peach iced tea with a peach slice in it instead of the regular iced tea.  I thought you must have needed an extra prayer and that was my cue.

Wishing you strength and hope, today and always and sending you a heaping helping of monkey love.  Monkey hugs cutie!

I second all of the emotions - we miss you and are pulling for you Peaches  ::MonkeyDance::

Good morning, my friends.  I haven't had much to say recently because there's nothing happening.  Well, sort of.  I have to have surgery on April 17.  Guess I'll miss the Spring Game for the Huskers.  The liver doc is going to resection my liver and clean up a couple other tumors in my abdomen and install an IP port. 

How do I feel about this?  Am I worried about this upcoming surgery?  I feel like I knew it was coming.  The RFA of my liver in January went really well.  I felt good about it.  So did my doc.  The CT to check the RFA site provided an opportunity to find the five new tumors.  They're not very big.  Size isn't the point.  The point is the five new tumors are there at all!  I have had minimal time off since January 2006 when I started chemo.  My docs have been blasting my cancer and me with some really serious and expensive shit and yet, it's back like a mooching relative.  WTF?  It is interesting and noteworthy that since my initial debulking surgery in Dec. 2005, I have not had a tumor show up on a pelvic CT.  Every recurrence has showed up on my abdominal CT. Chest CT is clear as well.  Anyway, when the liver doc told me I had five new tumors, I don't think I was surprised.  He told me in Jan. that the good thing about your liver is that it regenerates itself.  The RFA site has probably already repaired itself.  I'm not worried about my liver really.  My labs have always been good.  I feel good.  I look great.  No joke.  I have hair and I look like my drivers license pic... maybe even better....just a tad more grey.  I take pretty good care of myself in spite of this stupid cancer.  Geez, I'm rambling.  I must need to ramble.

Am I worried?  About surgery?  Why?  What good would it do me?   What's in it for me?  Worrying about surgery is a tremendous waste of time.  I have the best liver doc in Atlanta.  Let him worry about it.  That's why he gets the big bucks and gets to talk on the website about DaVinci robotic surgery.  I am confident Dr. D. can do what he says he will do.  He is an expert in surgery AND oncology.  He's a good guy.  Besides, I'm too blonde to even know what to worry about.  Yes, it's open abdominal surgery.  BFD.  Been there before. Done it.  Got the scar (which looks fabulous by the way).  What do I care?  I'm more of a tankini kinda girl anyway.  And I heal well.  I'm the right weight for my height and other than smoking, I'm doing pretty well for my age and a helluva lot better than some with and without cancer. 

I can't let cancer win.  I just can't.  It pisses me off.  I worry I won't be here for my daughter and my husband and my father (God bless Fred).  I have a good life.  I am so very blessed by so many people in my life, many of whom are right here.  My problem is not THAT big.  God is so much bigger than my problem.  And He can handle it.  All I have to do is ask and let Him and then watch and pray and thank Him for the miracle that is coming.  Sounds like a better idea than worrying and obsessing about a little surgery.  Alright, a big surgery. 

If I have to sit in the hospital 5-7 days, oh well!  It's a nice hospital.  My liver doc is a big cheese there so I'm confident I'll get great care.   I'm coming home to a new deck off of the master bedroom on the second floor!  Well Happy Birthday to ME!  And thanks Fred.  I'm going to recover from my bedroom, wander out my French door onto the deck, watch the birds at their feeders, watch my dogs chase squirrels from aforementioned feeders and get some sun.  I'm going to read some books.  And I'm going to work from my bed in my jammies.  When I am not in the office, my guys are discombobulated completely.  I've been taking care of their every administrative need for eleven years.  When I had surgery the first time, my boss said they whined at every Monday meeting about when I was coming back.  I love them.  So I'm going to have them email me stuff to do and I can email it back for them to print and sign.  Means I better teach them how to do envelops.  That's the adventure for next week.  I'm thinking about a flash drive to grab my docs and spreadsheets and stuff from the office and it'll be almost like being there!  The best part is that it will keep my guys and their stuff away from the other person that would be most likely to hand it off to.  What I do for them cannot be handed off.  Yeah, they dictate sometimes.  And I listen and recompose as I go so they sound smart and confident like the insurance execs they are.  In some cases, they just scratch out a note saying "deny based on this" and give me the reason and documentation and I do the rest, print it, sign it and out it goes.  They never see it again once it comes to me. Nobody else can do that for them.  Nobody else will.  It's what I do.  I ghostwrite vice presidents.  Besides, it'll give me something to do since I won't be running up and down the stairs. 

Today, it's a rainy Saturday.  I am taking my only baby to get her drivers license.  Good grief.  She took to parallel parking like a duck to water.  I thought that was going to be an issue.  PUHLEEZE!  She watched her dad do it a couple times, got back in her car and parked it between the two trash cans (about 25 feet apart).  Then she took turns parking all three cars. Done deal.  So we're going to do a road trip to Blue Ridge and then my baby will be on the loose.  (Hardly.)

Enough rambling.  Thanks for hanging in here with me.  It means the world to me.  Do not worry about this surgery thing.  I will of course have Mr. Peaches report in that evening.  You won't miss a thing, trust me.  It's a good time to ramp up those prayers.  He's listening and I appreciate it.  I love you all.

Keeping you lifted up in my prayers Peaches...

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Peaches - you are amazing!

OK..now down to business.  I've been working from home for years, even before I started working from home full time.  I can give you some tips on how to make things run smoothly!  A flash drive is a must but you already know that.  Another suggestion would be to get a small external hard drive.  You could wait until almost before your last day at work before surgery and copy ALL of your files onto the external hard drive and then take it home.  Just depends upon how many files we are talking about. 

There are also ways to set it up where you can actually get into your computer at work from home.  YOU could then do the envelopes for them as long as they know how to put them in the printer (I know..it will be hard to teach them, lol).

Email me if you have any questions!

smklaas@hotmail.com

HUGS!

Hi Peaches...as Klaas said ... You are amazing!

Thanks for letting us know what is going on. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Good Luck with your 'Baby' driving and so sorry you will miss the game!

God Bless You, Peaches.

Peaches ... thank you for sharing.

Hugs

Janet

Sweet Peaches, indeed you are heads above many and an inspiration to us all.

You will endure and take it from me like Klaas, I worked from home since 2000 and have loved it - only wish now I didn't have to travel. Actually I have learned to work perched on the floor in the airport with my laptop between my legs for hours and hours, kids hopping over my legs, wireless signals going in and out - start, restart  ::MonkeyHaHa::

Laminate a how-to card for the guys to learn envelopes and tell them not to whine about it.

Keep it up, you endure and you surpass our expectations daily  ::MonkeyWink::

What a daughter, no doubt she's a chip off Mom's block and therefore able to handle a mountain or two, much less parallel parking !!

Love you too Peaches, oh and here's something for you in advance of your spring game!

Wow, Peaches! Just Wow! You made me cry. I'm ashamed of myself for not always being able to maintain an attitude like yours with less reason not to!

OK, you've given US a shot in the arm, and we're teaming up in prayer for you! This is going to go your way, Peaches!

Hi Peaches, I'm a lurker. I just wanted to pop in and tell you that my prayers are with you in your upcoming surgery. I wanted to give you a little encouragement. My boss was diagnosed with two different cancers in January. Melanoma on his neck and liver cancer. Yes two different cancers. He had liver resection in February and he's like you, very determined and very much forging ahead with a very positive attitude.  He's really been an inspiration to us all.  He has some amazing doctors at the cancer hospital in Tampa.  After his liver surgery, he was back to work in a couple of weeks...not full time mind you, but his doctors would really amazed how quickly he bounced back. He had his lymph nodes taken out of his neck a couple of weeks ago. He was back to the work really quickly then too, doing the boss thing..giving us a hard time LOL. We've always complained that he's hardheaded and quite stubborn..but I believe those traits have helped him in this fight to beat both these cancers.  You're not a quitter either and you're also such an inspiration. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

I wanted to also tell you, if you weren't aware already, that there is a way for you to access your computer at work. It's www.gotomypc.com . You can actually log in to your desktop and the only requirement is that your computer at work  has to be on. I've worked at home many times using this program and it's very handy. You also would be able to print  and it would send it to the printer at your workstation.  It's just as if you were  sitting in front of your computer at work. Hope this helps!

Peaches, you are amazing.

I am sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Peaches - You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday!  You will come thru this surgery with flying colors - no doubt!  We all love and support you!  You are a true inspiration!

(((((((((HUGS)))))))))

Peaches ... I can relates to all your emotions.

In 1990 I had major brain surgery to remove a tumor the size of an egg.  I had never had any symptoms ... not even a headache.  It was discover in the nick of time because of something completely unrelated.

Peaches ... like you ... I had so many blessings in life and ... although I had assurance of eternal salvation ... I did not want to leave my husband, kids and father.  If I was going to leave them ... I would go out kicking.

I have lots of extended family ... good friends but ... when all is said and down ... husband, kids and father were my focus.  You learn your priorities in life real quick.  The job, house, possessions and bank account mean absolutely nothing.

Our two eldest had already graduation from high school but ... surprise package son turned seven years old two days before my surgery.  Actually ... the week before surgery when the tumor was discovered and ... its position in relation to the brain stem implied that it had to come out immediately ... I informed the surgeon that son's seventh birthday party was the priority.

Long story short ... after a relatively short recouperation period ... after putting my family through a H--- on Earth ... I was back at work three month sooner than docs had predicted ... I have never looked back.  Yearly cat scans became two year cat scans and ... now it is every three years.

In the eighteen years since surgery I have been afforded many blessings that I do not take for granted.  I was at my precious  father's death bed holding his hand.  I was there to when youngest son received his high school and university diploma.  I was an honored guest at all three of my children's weddings.  I held all five of my grandchildren shortly after they were born.  Four year old grandson ... I was present when he took his first breath.

Peaches ... my prayer is that eighteen years from now you will be able to look back at this cancer experience as a real bad nightmare ... a real bad nightmare that has allowed what you have learned to benefit others who are being forced to endure the storms of life.

God Bless

Janet

Peaches - Your strength amazes me, and like Lala's.....you are a hero to me as well.
Fight on. We're with you all the way!

Janet, you never cease to amaze me.  I found your story of survival to be very inspirational. 

pdh3, still praying for improvement in your situation, whatever it is, whatever you need. 

Today, I get to go to the doctor to meet with the nurse, sign consents, do labs, etc.  I am not feeling particularly anxious about the surgery today, other than I am anxious for Dr. D. to get in there and get those tumors OUT.  The sooner that happens, the sooner I can get busy recovering and get back on my feet and back to whatever chemo is coming up next.  And I know there is chemo in my future.  Probably for the rest of my life.  Oh well.  I'm really pretty good at chemo having had lots of practice in the last couple years.  And having a little surgery once in a awhile to clean things up and then doing chemo certainly beats the alternative dirt nap.  That is just so NOT on my schedule.  So I will persevere with the help of all of you and God. 

In my head today, is Josh Turner's tune, "Me and God".


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Smoochies to all.

Today!!!

Peaches ... I thought surgery was on Thursday.

I hope you do not mind.  At our church ...the ladies have a prayer chain.  When there is a prayer request ... one lady phones another and ... the last lady phoned ... contacts another church and ... the chain continues.  The prayers are ongoing as ... the chain never ends.

Yesterday ... I requested prayers that would uphold my friend "Peaches" and her family.

Hugs

Janet

++++++++++

It is Well with my Soul

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

Horatio G. Spafford

Peaches ... I get it!  I misunderstood the "today" part of your post.  I have yet to consume my first cuppa coffee and ... the cobwebs clouded my thinking.

 ::MonkeyHaHa::

Janet

Peaches,

I don't get too much time to visit but when I do I look for you and I was surprised that your having to visit the doctor again.. You are always on my mind as a lot of you on this site have been..  Take care and I just know everything is ok..

Terry

You're always in my prayers, Peaches. 

Peaches, I love reading your posts...for some reason they make me feel so good! I am so proud to "know" you sweetie. I love what Janet said about looking back in 18 years at all of this. That is definitely my prayer for you Peaches!

I am amping up the prayers for you now and you have been on my prayer list at church. I love that prayer chain from church to church idea. that is awesome!

PEACHES! I was just coming here to post the link to Josh Turner's "Me and God", and was catching up when I saw your post!  ::MonkeyShocked::

Well, we're on the same wavelength, aren't we? All I can say is that evry sentiment expressed there is what I hold for you! Luv Ya, Peaches!

Dear Peaches....you are, and have always been, on the prayer list of the nuns in my sister's Community...I am amazed when one of them asks about you because there are so many people for whom they pray....but I should not be amazed....there is something so special about you....and they must know it.  My sister will mention you at Mass tomorrow and ask for special prayers as will the rest of us.....you are my hero....!  Mere

Off to the hospital.

Thank you.  I love you all.

Peaches,

I am with you in thought and prayer today.   You are a true insipration to all.  Simply amazing!

Hugs

Janet

Peaches,

I'm with you, too....will be here for you.

Well, now that I'm home, I'll resume my tale here.  I feel great today considering what I had done last Thursday.  You have to figure it's some serious surgery when you wake up with a cue ball running pain medicine into the suture area via two tiny catheters, an epidural and a big ole IV running into my port in my chest. 

Being in the hospital was not easy.  I had great nurses and great care.  I have a great doctor.  And I'm one stubborn ole girl.  Ovarian Cancer is a real piece of shit and it pisses me off.  So I have to do what I have to do and fight and stay positive.  I know that the end result is already figured out.  God already knows how the story ends.  He has me in the palm of His Hand because I am the apple of His eye.  Why should I sit around and worry?  What a waste of time!  I have things to do, dishes to run, lists to make, emails to read, people to pray for, flowers to plant and a husband and daughter and friends and family and you all to care for so I really don't have a moment free to just "worry". 

I'm going to be fine.  I am fine.  Today, I am disease free.  God is good all the time.  I  love you all.  Thank you for hanging in there with me.

and we will still be looking out for you via prayer and standing with you...

Flowers for you!

Love ya, Monkeyface!

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Peaches - You've got mail.

Here's a peach orchard in bloom ...

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Peaches-

So glad to see your resolve, yet life is good and you will endure. It's spring and that's a time for renewal, you are our velveteen rabbit - so beloved with a few tears and tatters from a life well-lived  ::MonkeyWink::

BIG HUGS !!!!!!!!!!!

I was just thinking about you, Peaches, and wanted to wish you a beautiful morning and a thorough healing! Luv Ya, Girl!

Peaches, I am so proud to know you. Your strength & resolve are amazing. Hang in there gal, you are a winner & this is but one more battle in your quest to beat this & then be able to thumb your nose at it!!!
If ya need help planting flowers, give me a call. Here is a pic of my flower bed. Just seeing flowers growing & blooming makes me smile.

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Peaches, sending you much love and as many hugs today!!

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Hi Peaches

I hope you are having a good day.

Hugs

Janet

I am doing pretty well, I think.  My incision looks good and the staples will come out on Wednesday.  Staples are creeping me out.  I know it's going to heal and stuff but the metal bothers me.  I can't eat much at a time because I didn't eat for several days in the hospital (while I had the nose hose) so just a yogurt fills me right up.  I'm trying to nap and stay off my stupid ankle.  It looks better but not normal.  Ligament damage most likely, so says my surgeon.  I'll have to get back to you on that, I'm pretty busy here.

Yapperz, your yard looks great!

Such beautiful flowers when I come to this thread.  And such lovely, hopeful thoughts.  I'm doing my part here.  I am thanking God for another beautiful day and that He is looking out for ME!  You all bless me so much every day and I thank you. 

Peaches,

You are really an inspiration. I can hear it in your posts, how well you are doing.
Vitamin e on the scar is suppose to heal the scar. But in your case, I have a feeling you'll wear that scar proudly.
Take it easy though. Healing takes time.

Peaches, I know those staples are big and creepy looking, but they aren't as foreboding as they look. When it's time for them to come out, it's easy as pie and there's no pain.  ::MonkeyWink:: Just know that we love you and are standing by you, sweetie!!  ::MonkeyCool::

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Waving to you Peaches, and thinking about you! I know what you mean about the staples! I had them after my hysterectomy: fairly long incision because they took uterus, both ovaries, and cervix. They look and feel creepy, but Mishy is right. No pain when they're removed. I bet you have a lot of bruising too around them, but that fades and the scar from staples is minimal.

Rest well, and heal fast! You're in my prayers as a permanent fixture, and my thoughts everyday!

I had those nasty staples too. They use a staple remover to take them off, LOL  ::MonkeyHaHa::


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Hmmmmmmm, a quick check of my Palm readings indicates the same thing, Klaas. Friday's going to be a special day for Peaches!  ::MonkeyWink::  ::MonkeyHaHa::

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God Bless Peaches... just checking in....
I don't always write you but I do check in and say lots of prayers....

I hope those staples are out soon, they are an annoyance for sure. It is spring and I'm finally home for more than a weekend and once our new fence is up, I am going to plant a cherry tree for my days in GA. When I saw some in our development in bloom a few weeks ago, I thought of you. It's not peach trees but the pink yoshino blossoms just remind me of you !!

Pretty in pink, right !  ::MonkeyWink::

Hello Peaches!

Thinking of you, and admiring your resolve! I agree with you about the staples....they are kinda creepy when you think about it. I had the same reaction when I had surgery. But I'd take them over stitches any day when it comes time to remove them!

I am now inspired to plant something in your honor. I don't know what I'll plant just yet, but it'll be something beautiful and enduring, like you. Maybe a flowering tree, like a Magnolia, or a camellia bush.

God is good everyday, and I thank you for reminding me of that fact. Go live your life Peaches. You have earned every beautiful minute of every beautiful day.

I had the nicest surprise today. ::MonkeyCool::  A great big box arrived from parts unknown.  In the great big box was a great big basket with all kinds of treats, some flying monkeys, some soft cuddly monkeys along with some wonderful bath items too numerous to list here.  As soon as I'm cleared for it, I"m in for a long relaxing soak. 

Thank you to all who made it happen.  I am so happy to know each and every one of you and to be able to share what is not always a real nice story about me and my cancer.  What a lovely group of folks you are!  ::MonkeyDance:: My daughter just shook her head.  DH chuckled.  It's really so special to me, y'all have no idea.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart.  You all continue to bless me every day in so many ways.  Smoochies to all. 

Klaas said you could use the slingshots to shoot off your 2nd story deck!  ::MonkeyHaHa::

You'll have to let us know what an Annie Oakley you are, Peaches!  ::MonkeyWink::

Klaas did a great job  ::MonkeyCool:: We have such a great group of people here and I am proud to be a part of it. I believe in miracles Peaches and I believe in you!

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Hi Peaches - I made two batches of soup this weekend for you and klaas, who is under the weather these days.

Chicken soup:
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Peaches hope you got to have at least a good cold beer to celebrate Cinco de Mayo!!
Love ya my partner in crime & call me when you feel like talking. I still have us some fresh windmill cookies!!

I stand with the fruit!!!



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I hope you feel better and stronger each day.  God bless you!

YAPPERZ!!!!   I did sit on the deck on Sunday afternoon and have a couple beers with my BFF.  Her DH is building an extension on my deck.  He's doing it because he is gruesomely under-employed and because he CAN do the work and he does a darn good job.  He also installed all my hardwood floors and tiled a bathroom for me.  And the Fishbowl (AKA the sunroom I built last summer.  I never liked my kitchen so when my deck built by the goof we bought this house from started to rack and twist, we tore off the deck (and yes I helped), tore out the wall and added some more space to the kitchen and THEN hung the deck off of that.

This year's brainstorm was a Juliet balcony off my bedroom (second story).  I wanted to be able to go outside and sit in the sun and see the birds and the sky and I didn't know how long I would be home recovering from this recent surgery.  So I had a deck built, removed a window and replaced it with a French door (and a screen door.... it's still the South).  It's like my own personal prayer porch.  (Alright, it's not really a balcony.  It's about 8 x 21.)  I can go out there anytime I want since it is but steps from my bed and sit in the sun and think about just how wonderful I have it.  Makes a great place to contemplate.

I forgot where this was going.  Oh well.  I'm doing pretty well. I feel pretty goood.  My doctor hasn't said I could go back to work yet but then he hasn't made any big bank deposits for me either so since I am sitting out getting well on my own freaking dime having long since used up any vacation long ago with other various surgeries and side effects from the wonders of cancer, I believe I am going to go back to work pretty darn soon.  I have my first IP chemo next Monday, the 12th, so I will be out that day anyway.  If IP chemo doesn't knock me down too bad, I'm going to the office next week.  I can feel like crap anywhere.  At least if I go to the office, I can feel like crap in my own little cubicle and get paid for it.  I've done it before. 

I guess I could have waited till June to have the surgery (because then I would have vacation days again) but when the subject of several new tumors first arose, I was told I should have the surgery done pretty soon.  The surgeon even said "well you can't wait till the 4th of July!".  I told him I already had plans for the week of the 4th of July that didn't involve either him or St. Joseph's (wonderful as they may be).  So it's my own fault.  I wanted to get it over and done with and not eff up my summer.  It's all going to work out.  I know it.  My doctor may not be too pleased but I can live with that.  Bottom line is I have to get back to work.  I'm bored.  I don't feel that bad.  And I hate wasting time at home when I can't lift anything heavier than 10# and get anything done.  I might as well be at the office, getting paid, getting some work done and if I feel like crap, it won't be the first time. 

Cancer is not for wimps.  Getting older is not for wimps (not that I'm getting older).  Cancer is not convenient.  It aggravates the hell out of me, not that I got cancer but that I got the nastiest kind of ovarian cancer out there.... the recurrent kind.  It means I may always be on some kind of chemo.  I will always be logging time with my GYN-ONC and there could be more surgery in my future (no time soon folks).   I just want to be here.

And speaking of being around, please check out Punk Rock Mommy's blog.  I found it by accident.  She is a young mother of six with Inflammatory Breast Cancer.  It doesn't get nastier than that.  I'm betting she could use our collective prayers.....

http://punkrockmommy.org/blog/

Thanks for following along........  I love you all.

 ::MonkeyShocked::

You and Klaas both resire in construction sites which you call home.

 ::MonkeyHaHa::

Peaches ... thank you for sharing.  You are right ... cancer is so unpredictible.  This is why it is so important to do what you can and ... leave the rest up to our Heavenly Father.  Enjoy each day to its fullest.  At the best of times ... our days are numbered.  Our life stories were written long ago ... I only wish we could peek at the last chapter.  Then again ... maybe it is a good thing we are not pivy.
 
Hey ... I know what you mean about getting back to work.

Following my surgery ... it was so important that I get back to "normal".  I actually returned to work "three months" before the date that my surgeon had indicated on the forms and ... I was receiving a full paycheck.  I had great benefits!  I talked it over with my surgeon and ... his response was ... "You know how you feel."  As skilled as this wonderful guy is in his profession ... he definitely is no "Dr. Welby".

Anyways ... the company doc had concerns and ... suggested I come back part time ... MWF and ... see how it went.  I was thankful I followed his advise because Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays for about 2 months ... I was wiped.

Peaches ... at home you can feel that you are fine because ... you allow yourself to rest throughout the day.  At work there is no couch with you favorite pillow and blankee.  There is no soft background music on your way to Lala land.

Maybe give part-time a try to begin with.

Hey ... what is BFF?

Peaches ... I am going to steal a bouquet of flowers from you and ... give them to Klaas.

 ::MonkeyHaHa::

I have no clue how to save and copy images and ... I have no interested in learning.

Have a good day friend.

Hugs

Janet

Peaches
Staples come out fairly painlessly.

Take it easy and remember You are my hero! 

Peaches,
I don't say much, but wanted you to know how much I admire your strength
and stamina and wit.  I keep you in my prayers.  Try to wait a little longer
about going back to work.  The body needs rest to heal.

Peaches love for life and the person she is just makes me have a huge smile every time I see her post.. ::MonkeyWink::

Why thank you, *******!  I always look forward to reading everyone's comments.  It really is encouraging.  Today is one of those days I definitely need some!  One of the things Dr. D. did for me in the hospital was to install an intraperitoneal port.  It's a port that is stitched to my ribcage and has a cather that is laying in my abdomen.  I figure it must be kinda like a soaker hose but what do I know?  Maybe the soaker hose idea just sounds efficient to me.  So on Monday, I had the first Intraperitoneal Chemo treatment with Cisplatin.  The nurse also uses my other port in my upper left chest to infuse saline, Aloxi, Decadron, and Emend (heavy duty nausea drug) and Ativan because I'm a bundle of nerves and whatever else the pharmacist has mixed up for me.  Ativan is a good deal.  It knocks me out so I sleep thru the whole thing.  Every 15 minutes, the nurse comes over and tells me to roll over so my insides get evenly basted with Cisplatin to kill any microscopic POS ovarian cancer cells.  WOOHOO.  The next two days, I take Emend at home.  We're talking one pill Tuesday and one on Wednesday and the RX co-pay was $60!  I've never had anything that was that much!  But it's pretty good stuff. 

The last two days have been tough.  I wanted to go back to work.  I need to get a freaking grip.  I've been cuddled up with that soft grey monkey from y'all and a heating pad and a bucket for the past two days.  And did I mention Cisplatin is toxic to your kidneys so you have to drink alot of fluid?  Just what I feel like doing when I already feel bloated from the approximately two liters that I got IP.  YEEHAW.  We are having fun now.  Seriously, I feel better today than I did yesterday and I thank God I have a great doctor and a patient boss and just the most wonderful friends right here who are praying and encouraging me every single day. 

From a cancer standpoint, I'm in a great place.  Thanks to Dr. D., I am no evidence of disease at this point.  I am doing a new kind of chemo that I haven't done before and is pretty heavy duty stuff.  But I can't give up.  I'm just not ready.  As bad as I feel some days, I never feel like I just can't do it anymore.  No sirree!  "Quitters never win and winners never quit"  Words to live by from my late great mother. 

God bless each and every one of you for caring about me.  Some of us have met and most of us have not yet you all have a special place in my heart.  Thank you.  Smoochies to all. 

Peaches,

I sooooo admire your wonderful attitude. You are one of the strongest people I have ever met. I know that you have inspired and comforted so many through your own struggles, and we are all blessed to know you.

Hugs and smoochies.

Remember we are all here rooting for you to feel better soon...you know we love you!!

You are my hero!  One tough lady with a heart of gold.

I just wanted you to know Peaches that I am still keeping you lifted up in my prayers always...:)

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Dear Peaches,

I saw your post responding to me in Musings about how a nap had you up and posting at 3am.  I have a friend currently on Chemo for breast cancer, though not IP.  She's had one and has 3 to go....once a month cocktail starts with anti-nausea, and two other bags of other goodies I can't name, at the moment.  Seems she's having the best days of her month right now, just before her next treatment the end of the week.  All of this will be followed by radiation. 

I didn't realize you'd started the chemo....if you posted, it didn't compute.  Can't believe it's been a month since your surgery, already....I know you don't like to have your time wasted....Just know that I hope it kicks azz, gets the job done, your blood count cooperates, you stay healthy and you can get those things you've got planned done before long. 

Will stop the rambling (I can talk alot...DH used to tell me to come up for air once in awhile  ::MonkeyHaHa::   )....just figured I'd let you know you are on my mind.... Hang tough!!

Thinking of you dear Peaches. My sister asks about you frequently, so just know that there are people that you've never even heard of praying for you all the time!!

Love you sistah  ::MonkeyCool::

Hey Peach! I'm keeping you in my prayers and in my heart! I'm thinking that the chemo is the James Bond of treatment. It's hunting down any of those bad cells and getting them wherever they may be hiding. They don't stand a chance!

My absolute best wishes and faith that you tolerate the chemo without too much discomfort, and please know that you are loved!

Good Morning Peaches

I hope you have a good day.

God bless.

Janet

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Isaiah 40:31
... they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Peaches, it is impossible not to love you.  You are such a gift.  I love 'unwrapping' your posts, they are always something to think about, and sometimes chuckle about, and sometimes fall on the floor laughing about.

You have so many gifts and I am so blessed to know you.

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Just as we are blessed to know you too Bearly, you have a heart the size of Texas!

Peaches, I have to hit the road again soon for about six weeks but wanted you to know I'll be praying and thinking of you. It's hard for me to post when on the road with work demands, I fall into bed nightly hoping for 5 hours sleep, much less a full 8. But I will post when I can and wanted you to know you are never far from my heart or my thoughts. You'll tackle this next round just as you have all those that came before, your zest for life is a mighty sword !

Peaches  - Fight on! We're still here with you!
 You are truly an amazing woman, and you inspire all of us. I have you in my prayers every day, and a really wonderful lady told me that "God is good all the time"! ::MonkeyWink::

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Kerm,
Don't worry about Piggy, Peaches can take her with both hands tied behind her back.

Kermit!  That is precious! 
None, take it easy out there on the road!  I know you're out there...I can just tell.

Well, what has been occupying my time?  Just getting better!  I have round two of chemo (Cisplatin IP for those playing along at home) coming up on June 2nd.  If they add Taxol IV, then I have to go Tuesday as well.  I have Wednesday and Thursday penciled as "stay home and feel like crap" but that is subject to change.  I'm going to insist on some bigger guns for the nausea and pain.  I have to get back to work.  I would like to get two rounds behind me before that happens but I don't know.  I just can't see going in for two days only to be gone for the next two.  Doesn't make sense to me.  I doubt HR sees it that way. 

I remember this chemo roller coaster.  About the time I start to feel good, it's time to go and do it all over again.  Such a deal.  Still beats the alternative dirt nap idea though.  I got an invitation to a Survivor's Day function at the hospital where I had my initial cancer surgery.  Interesting.  The entertainment is the chorus I sang with for many years.  I don't know if I will go or not.  It's downtown and it takes a lot to get me downtown.  Must be a small town girl thing but I just don't like downtown.  The idea of being a survivor is a good one. I like it.  So far, so good.  I just have to make it last.  It's strange though because I don't think of myself as having "survived" yet.  I'm still in the fighting mode.  I guess in order to still be in the fight, one has to be a survivor of sorts.   I'm just trying to "keep up the good work" and look fabulous. Most days I just wish I felt as good as I look.  My boss says if he didn't know me and just saw me out in public, he would never ever guess I had cancer.  And he's been watching this drama unfold since the get go so he's seen me look pretty bad.  Pisses me off sometimes that I don't "look" sick because I sure feel it some days. 

Thanks for your continued support and prayers.  Means the world to me that each and every one of you take time from your busy day to think about little ole me and wonder "how's Peaches today".  The answer is blessed.  To be here and have such lovely friends.  Love you all.     

Thank you for sharing Peaches.

I will continue to uphold you and your family in my prayers as you continue you battle this relentless invader/ enemy called "cancer".

Peaches ... if you can make it the the "survivor's party" somehow ... I believe that you will find that you will be encouraged as well as ... be in a position to encourage others.  If you phone the coordinator of the "party" and relay your desire to attend ... maybe transportation can be arranged ... maybe a "survivor" resides near you..

Following my brain tumor surgery 18 years ago ... I was introduced to a support group whose members were survivors of the same type of tumor and ... I am still in touch with three out-of-town ladies through Christmas/ Birthday/ encouragment cards as well as periodic telephone conversations.  These ladies were and continue to be God-sends.  My family and friends were beside me every step of the journey to recovery but ... when all was said and done ... I was in a place that they had never been and ... a place I pray they will never be.
 
Hugs

Janet

My daughter's favorite babysitter is now all grown up and working on her PhD. at Stanford in cancer biology.  This year she is running a Team in Training marathon to raise money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.  On her Team in Training website, she lists the people she is running in honor of.  Guess who's on the list?  Little ole me.  I am so touched.  So I am putting this link out there so that should the urge hit you, you too can support this wonderful girl and help fight cancer. 

http://www.active.com/donate/tntsvmb/KJameson

She is actually in San Diego and the half marathon is today but I'm sure the donation page still works should you so desire.  If you do, thanks, if you don't, thanks for checking out her page and thinking about it.  I am so proud of her for doing this race.  She is a wonderful role model for young women.  And her mother is one of my dear friends.  And her dad, a cancer survivor just like me. 

Have a great day folks.  It's a beautiful day for a Half Marathon to fight cancer.

Peaches you are in my thougths and my prayers....what a warrior you are!  You know already you are my hero but I will say it again!!  YOU ARE MY HERO and a blessing to know!!

Peaches what an honor for you, we need marathons every week I think for cancer touches every family in some way or another. I am 'out there' and I often pray while up in the air on the plane knowing once I hit the ground the days and nights will be hectic.

Please take care of you and trust that your boss will handle whatever HR thinks of the time you need, let go of that and focus just on you and healing. HUGS and LOVE Peaches !!

Well, I am back to work and feeling pretty good most of the time.  IP chemo is pretty tough but it's the latest and greatest so they tell me.  I think I have round 3 coming up next week, the 23rd & 24th and then again on the 30th.  (I have a printed schedule, I just show up when it says to do so). 

I woke up with a huge headache this morning that I was able to fight off with the help of a couple Percodan. 

I think my hair is going to fall out again.  What fun.  What a nuisance.  On the one hand, I don't really care.  Been there, done that.  I just look so sickly without eyebrows and eyelashes.  I don't know when it's going to really get busy and fall out but from the handful I got this morning trying to get my hair to behave for work, I don't think it will be very long.  Back to the ballcap. 

Labs again today to make sure I have enough platelets to do chemo on Monday.  I only had 88 last Friday and I need 100.  I'm pretty sure I'll be okay but prayers for more platelets are always dandy.  Your continued prayers and support enable me to me keep on keeping on.  Thank you all.

Got you covered with those prayers for platelets and all good things He may extend your way.  You are one amazing woman.  Yes, indeed.

Peaches,

When I met you in person, you were wearing that ballcap, and you look mahvelous in it, dahling. Seriously, your face is so pretty that it doesn't matter at all if you have hair or eyelashes or whatever. You are one of those people who are lucky enough to have beautiful features that don't need things like hair to accent them.

Hang in there, and lots of prayers are headed toward the heavens for you.

Smoochies

Peaches, I am praying for you that you will have dandy platelets.  I hope it feels good to be back to work.  This new chemo is kicking azz, I just know it is.

You are such a gift.  I always love to hear what you have to say on the forum.  Take care.  Love ya, dear. 

((Big smooch on your cheek.))

Lots of love and prayers to you Peaches!  You are such an inspiration to all of us!  I love your posts....some very thought provoking....most leave me giggling.  It's an honor to know you through this forum, and I hope your treatments wipe out all the bad cells.  I'm sure if you lose your hair it will come back in time more beautiful than ever, and maybe even some longer lashes too!  Hang in there!

TM
 ::MonkeyCool::

I LOVE Peaches  ::MonkeyWink::

Peaches; you are my inspiration.  Every time I think I can't handle being sick any more, I think of you and the courage you have shown throughout your whole ordeal.  If I give you my address, do you think you could send me a small package of your "fighting spirit"?  You are amazing!

I believe it was last Thusday when I noticed my hair was indeed falling out again thanks to Taxol.  It's job is to kill fast growing cells and hair follicles are on that list.  Oh well.  I was getting wild over it by that afternoon and phoned a guy at work who has a clippers.  Of course, our plan was to meet early before work and he would shave my head.  He shaves his own and moonlights as a barber so I'm thinking I'm safe.  Except that he had loaned his clippers to his BIL and now they need to go to the shop. 

By Saturday everytime I touched my hair it fell out by the handfuls.  It's not painful.  I do get a creepy feeling in my scalp right before it starts falling out.  THAT's weird.  So I had another bright idea!  Called my neighbor.  He has the appropriate hair cutting equipment since he is a pet groomer (and a dandy one I must say).  Sure he'd be glad to shave my head for me except he's in freaking South Carolina!  Fishing or some such other nonsense.  He's been my neighbor for years.  He rescues me constantly in so many ways.  And he didn't let me down.  He called his wife (home across the street from me) and told which tools and everything.  Well, she didn't want to use the doggie clippers on my head.  Isn't she sweet?  But she knew I was going postal so she called their buddy and our mutual old neighbor, Chris, who bless his heart has his own clippers!  Chris came over and shaved my head for me.  He did an outstanding job.  I dare say it was better than the last time I had it done at the barber shop.  Nice and even, paid attention to the cowlicks.  I mentioned to Chris that me DD needed a shave as well and so my neighbor went and got his and Chris gave him a haircut too!  DD agreed it was better than his last cut at the barber!

I tell this tale to demonstrate how very blessed I am.  Every day somebody does something to bless my life.  On Saturday, it happened to be Chris who said he was looking for a reason to quit cleaning his house anyway.  He came over and shaved my head and Dan's just because it was what we needed and it was something he could provide.  How wonderful is that? 

Today, I had my second day of the third round of chemo.  It was IP Cisplatin day.  Always painful.  Always a long day no matter what just because of the volume to be infused.  I felt really crappy driving over there and truth be told, I should not have been driving myself.  I was having chills and felt really bad overall.  I made it safely, thank God, got signed in and in my lounger to wait for my nurse.  I was still chilly so I was curled up in my chair with the two blankets I could reach.  Evidently, I looked like I was still chilly.  A lady across the room who was there keeping her friend company came over and brought me another blanket and tucked me in better.  It was so sweet. 

My nurse could tell I was feeling bad because I am usually more fun. I try to make my nurses laugh because I figure their job must be sad enough sometimes, taking such good care of all of us not knowing who will make it in the long run.  She gave my Ativan IV first instead of orally.  Bonus.  She also heated my saline and the cisplatin which is nice when you consider that's a lot of liquid being pumped into the peritoneum and left there.  Warm is always better.

As I was leaving, a pretty lady who's hair was still really short, but cute as could be, stopped me to talk.  She could tell I was having a sad day.  I sat down and talked to her for a little bit.  She reached out and took my hand and held my hand while we talked.  She's from Chattanooga so we talked about what else!  The meatloaf at Big River Brewing!  It was an encouraging conversation that she knew I needed to have.  Another unexpected blessing for the day!

My point my friends is God brings these people into my life just when I need them, just as He has brought all of you to me.  Every day, I come here and read the uplifting comments.  Sometimes I smile.  Sometimes I cry.  I always thank God for all of you.  You bless my life every day. 

My challenge to all of you is to take your concern and your love and support for me and act locally.  I know many of you probably do it anyway every day just naturally.  It can be easy to bless someone.  Smile at a stranger, compliment an office mate on something, do something nice for someone else for no reason at all.  You never know when your smile or your compliment will be the answer to someone's prayer. 

Thank you all once again for your continued prayers and support.  It means the world to me in my journey.  I am blessed to be able to share my story with you all.  Thank.  Love you all.  Smoochies.

Peaches it is not you who is blessed by these people entering your life,but it is them who is blessed by you entering theres. I am a good judge of character and if you look anything like the person I have come to know,then you are amongst the the top super models in the world,with or without the hair.  ::MonkeyCool::  Keep up the good fight young lady,your posts really inspire this ******* and you reminded me just how special some people are in this world.

Peaches, you are truly the answer to many prayers.  I will think of you each time I give a\that smile or make that gesture (no, not THAT gesture, okay, THAT gesture, too).

I enjoy reading your updates.  Even on your sickest days, you are an inspiration to all around you.

When is the next haircutting bash?  You may want to make it a monthly event along with punch and cookies.  You may have started a trend.  Next thing you know "Peach Fuzz and Buzz" days will be sweeping the nation.

Stay strong, I will be praying for you!

Hey Peaches! I'm so sorry that you're going through the side effects of chemo again. I know this sounds nuts, but I've always been rather encouraged when someone recieving chemo looses their hair. It's proof positive that those rapidly reproducing cells are being taken care of by the drugs and you know it even before the tests show it!

I've seen and read so much about the incredible promising results of stem cell treatments for cancer, I was curious as to whether that was anything your physician has explored in your case? Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that you are in my heart and prayers and that you are such a shining light to all us monkeys. Hang in there Peaches, you've been around this block before and please try to remember that after the treatments are over, you'll feel like yourself again.

I love you, Peaches! God loves you, Peaches! He's right beside you and He's keeping us all holding hands around you!

 ::MonkeyHaHa:: ::MonkeyHaHa::

Peaches

We are blessed in so many ways.  Just imagine ...

  ::MonkeyShocked::

Janet

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This Following is an exact copy as written and found in an old book,
spelling errors and all.

WASHING CLOTHES

Build fire in backyard to heat kettle of rain water
Set tubs so smoke wont blow in eyes if wind is pert
Shave one hole cake of lie soap in boilin water

Sort thangs, make 3 piles
1 pile white
1 pile colored
1 pile work britches and rags

To make starch, stir flaur in cool water to smooth,
then thin down with boilin water.

Take white things,
rub dirty spots on board, scrub hard, and borl,
then rub colored don't borl just wrench and starch.

Take things out of kittle with broom stik handle,
then wrench, and starch.

Hang ole rags on fence.
Spread tee towels on grass.
Pore wrench water in flower bed.
Scrub poorch with hot soapy water.
Turn tubs upside down.

Go put on clean dress,
smooth hair with hair combs
Brew cup of tee,
sit and rock a spell and count your blessings

Peaches, I'm always amazed when I come here and read what you have to say. You are a true blessing in my life. Thank you for giving me the encouragement in my life when times get tough...Things will turn out OK, won't they? You are one miraculous woman, and I'm proud to know you sweetie!!

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              MIRACLES ARE DROPPING FROM HEAVEN,

              BLOWING YOUR WAY

              AND BEING LIFTED UP,

              JUST FOR YOU, PEACHES!!!

Peaches-

What a wonderful post, that comes as no surprise for you are such a deep and wide and rich person with a glorious soul. I can remember sitting in the waiting room at Rick's oncologist or in the chemo room, or at Duke waiting/praying to be admitted to clinical trials. I used to look around the room and know in my heart, that every person there had a personal story that mattered, was loved and cherished also or hoped that they were.

It is those little kindnesses that make such a difference. I try to remember that and traveling so often, I try to remember even helping someone else on or off the hertz bus at the airport can impact their day - but somedays I fail to make the time or I'm feeling tired or sorry for myself.

So thank you for that reminder. Did you know that when Rick's hair fell out I did the crummiest job of shaving it off? Darling daughter cleaned it up, I can still remember her on the screened porch with the clippers laughing with Rick about what a crummy job I did.  ::MonkeyHaHa::

I so hope others always gravitate to you as it appears they do now, to provide a pat or a word of encouragement, or even a head shave. May God bless you always.

 :smt039 :smt039  Thinking of you, Peaches. 

I'm just checking in for a report, Peaches! You've been on my mind, and always in my heart and prayers.

So much for "dancing with NED".  Because I was complaining of pain in my side, I had a CT on the 26th.  (I had IP chemo the day before).  Apparently, my cancer was unimpressed by the intraperitoneal chemotherapy.  So if it doesn't work, we move on to something else.  Of course, now I have this IP port which I am not going to be using so I have to have it removed.  (Removal is a good thing....it's annoying as hell). 

So now I am moving on to another drug, Topotecan.  It's used for several different cancers so perhaps it will have some luck with mine.  This is why they call it "chronic".  I have "new disease burden" in various places, well, more like some of the same old places.  Only one mass was measured in CM and the rest of it was all in MM.  The aim of the new drug is to get rid of the new cancer.  Cancer is every changing.  Some drugs work for awhile and then they don't.  What gets you to remission once may not get you there twice.  Happened to me. 

This is really more mentally challenging than anything else.  It's discouraging to almost never get a CT with any good news on it.  Of course the news could always have been worse every time but it hasn't.  My plan here is to play along.  My nurse said they are not out of ideas or drugs or giving up on me.  Lately I have been feeling particularly crappy but that's because of this goofy pain in my side.  Chronic pain pisses me off. 

I have to wait and pray.  God is bigger than my problems.  He already knows how the story ends.  I am the apple of God's eye!  He wants nothing but the best for me.  Why should I worrry?  Isn't worrying just praying for what you don't want?  (The girl who wrote  "Crazy, Sexy Cancer" said that, not me, on Oprah.)  My doctor has many patients who are "chronic", I'm certainly not the only one.  I am one of the best looking ones though I must say.  (JK.. some people are just easy to fool).

Back to the shaved head look.  Great for summer.  Freaks people out.  Oh well.  So that's how I am.  Waiting to start a new chemo next Monday.  Expecting the usual side effects.  Staying the course.  Thank you all for your prayers and support.  As you can see, I need them now as much as ever.
         

Continued prayers for the strength your body needs as you stay the course.

Rays of sunshine sent your way to help keep your mind and spirit focused and uplifted.

You have had more roadblocks, twists and turns than anyone I have met and still plug along.  God Bless You and keep you on course....Yes, you have things you want to do....you've made that clear and I'm in your corner. 

Hang tough, Peaches. (understatement for you... ::MonkeyWink:: )

Peaches…You continue to amaze with your Strength, Courage, Attitude and Faith. Thank You for sharing your journey with us. Continued prayers and God Bless You, Peaches.

Hello peaches!  I am sorry to hear that the IP didn't go as well as expected. I love the fact that your medical team stays encouraged and moves on to the next treatment. I am praying that the Topotecan will give you great results~!! I agree also with everyone here, you are a great lady with  enormous strength and unrelenting Faith, I so admire you!! Hang tough !

I love you Peaches!!!!!!!!!

Hi Peaches,
Just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers! 
Johan555 posted this for me, it is from his garden....I want to share it with you!

Love and hugs,
TM

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Peaches~
You're in my thoughts and prayers always. God Bless You, Sweetie!!!  :)

Roos~

I was thinking about you early this morning.  I don't know why, but I was worried for some reason.  Maybe I have taken my eyes off the greater blessing you have given me in my life, I don't know.  I asked God to hold you in his arms today and from now on and to help you beat this cancer.  I know we are all given only a certain number of days to be on this earth. Some days I take them for granted and get down and out, but then I come here and I see you.  You are the inspiration for all of us and words are never adequate to tell you just how very special you have been to us monkeys.  Hang in there and remember this....YOU ARE A HERO TO ALL OF US!! 

We love you.

WOW!  What a lovely rose!  I'm just not good when it comes to roses.   These are so beautiful and I don't have to water then!!!

THanks for the flowers.  I'll put them next to the the "real" flowers I got from one of our attorneys!  I am such a blessed girl.  Even in the pain of now and this "latest little procedure.  Yesterday I was supposed to start new chemo, Topotecan".  That did was delayed for technical issues.  Monday morning I got invited to Norhside for a nice visit due to the pain in my lower right quadrant.   Intractable is the technice term I think.  So here I go again.

Thank you my precious prayer warriers.  You're doing an amazing job as advocate.  I told the hospital chaplain I had a dedicated widespread group of people all over the country and in some other countries. He said God hears them all, every one of them.
THanks.  Don't know what going on next here so it much be time to stroll to the garden.  Love you all for hanging in with me. 

It may be a long journey but it's always better shared with friends.











                 

Dear Peaches – my prayers and positive thoughts are always with you.  Thank you for sharing your progress with us all. 

You cannot possibly have any idea how many people you must have helped by detailing your experiences with the discovery, treatments, and reactions in your ongoing fight against this disease.  In my own case it has helped me to understand what my relatives are going through and what the methods and drugs used in their treatment mean.  It has also helped me to understand their hopes and fears when they were not able to articulate them fully to others.  It is such a personal battle, but one that others who are close, and care so much, wish and need to share.

I have also given links to this thread for others who have been touched by this disease or who are close to those who have been affected, to read and from which to gain hope and also more understanding.

Your posts have also brought to the surface a great deal of caring and compassion not only for you and your family but for all others who suffer ill health or are suffering in some way.

Peaches you are not only our hero, but also an angel put among us to teach us to love, care and share.  Thank you and God bless you.

Thinking about you today Peaches and hoping today is a good day

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You are one tough Monkey! I am cheering you on with prayers and wishes of strength.  ::MonkeyDance::

Looky Peaches! Klaas found you a peach rose~!

I'm keeping up with your journey, Peaches, and just wanted to remind you that there are lots of prayers being said for you everyday. Thank you for sharing this with us. It's not a unique sentiment, but you have so Blessed us!

My prayer hasn't changed one bit, Peaches, nor has my expectations. I'm expecting a miracle and just waiting for healing. Your physicians continue to look for the right combination of treatment, and they'll find it. Your patience, stamina, and outlook inspire me as you wait.

God Bless you, girl! 

Here's another rose for your bouquet   ::MonkeyWink::

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We love you Peaches

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I would like to add to Peaches' bouquet. Love you Peaches!!!!

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Apache Blessing Beauty

May the sun bring you new energy every day.

May the moon softly restore you by night.

May the rain wash away your worries.

May the breeze blow new strength into your being.

May you walk gently through the world

and know it's beauty all the days of your life.

Thinking of you Peaches ~ Muffy

Sorry about that Peaches, I was trying to organize my photobucket a little...and moved your flowers....silly me!  Luv ya!
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Peaches -  You and my mother are the two toughest women I know. I don't know how either one of you do it. There is some inner spirit that refuses to be broken.
I am just so inspired by your tenacity, and your grace under fire. I will continue to pray for you, and for your medical team, and your family.  I think of you often, and hope that each day brings you closer to winning your battle with cancer.
Fight on, Peaches. God has given you some powerful weapons.

Where are you Peaches?  I need to see your sweet face in here.   Drop in and tell us how things are going.  We love you!!! 

In case I haven't said so....YOU ARE MY HERO!

Happy Sunday to our wonderful Miss Peaches.  :smt058    We love you lots!

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Thanks so much for all the lovely flowers!  I don't have to water them and they always look fresh!  Unlike me, last week.  I wasn't feeling too good on Thursday so I split early, went to get my labs done.  LOW platelets.  Well, no wonder!  So I got in bed on Thursday and didn't get out until Sat. a.m. around 10.  I must have needed it.

Felt better on the weekend.  Spent a few hours down at the pool so that was good.

Basically, I'm waiting to see if the next chemo works better than the last one.  My CA-125 is down to "7" with under 35 being "normal".  Don't let it fool you.  In some people, of course, it is not a good indicator of tumor activity.  Enter ME! 

I'm doing okay.  Staying the course.  Waiting and praying, watching for my miracle.  Thanking God my miracle is coming.  Because He said He would.  No problem I have is too big for God.  None of them!

Thanks for being my very best support system.  Love you all.

Darn those platelets!  They need to make happy and multiply.  Praying for them to increase with each passing day.  I am praying for that miracle too.  Take it easy and take it one day at a time until you get stronger. 


Love you bunches!!

 :flower:

Such pretty roses!  Peaches, you just never know when God is going to give you a miracle.  Sometimes He gives you what you need and you don't realize it for awhile.  You got to this website where you have so much love and support and so many prayers going out for you.  I'd say that's something of a miracle.  So there's no reason we shouldn't ask for and expect another. 

 :smt058

Peaches dearest - Just dropping by after months on the road again, to let you know I'm thinking of you and praying too for that miracle for you !! I like thinking of you dreaming of roses too, for those positive thoughts and the love from your sweet family will help you forge ahead.

So many here love and support you too, God bless our Peaches.

Peaches… Can’t bring you a rose, so I borrowed this beautiful one from BT. Hope it brightens your day. Praying for your miracle that is coming. God Bless You Peaches.

I don't typically even turn on my TV while working, for some reason today I did, I guess I was looking for a distraction. In any event the View came on, Katie Couric was a guest and she was there to discuss the epidemic of cancer in our country. The statistics are shocking, even to me post Rick's experience, 1 in 2 of all men will have cancer in their lifetime - 1 in 3 of all women. This is a frightening statistic for it exceeds heart disease now?

In any event, a new PSA was aired that brought tears to my eyes, a new movement branded Stand up 2 Cancer with it's own website. www.standup2cancer.org

Peaches, did you know Katie lost not only her husband to colon cancer but also her sister to pancreatic cancer? I knew of her husband but not her sister.

In any event, monkeys please visit the website, the PSA is there as well on the front page. You can join a group to fundraise for cancer, or lead a group, or make donations or create stars for those who have suffered cancer.

That PSA reminds me of our Peaches, how she's stood up to cancer and refused to be defeated by it. Peaches, you have a whole nation behind you now, keep going and keep fighting. I plan to lead a group to fundraise, I know Rick would want that too. He wore his live strong bracelet every day of his life post his diagnosis, daughter still wears hers and on days I feel up to the emotions of it, I wear mine.

So in honor of Peache's battle, visit this site and look for ways to be part of the movement to support her please.

God bless you Peaches, my prayers are with you.

Bless you Peaches. I am praying for you & your miracle.

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Still keeping you in my prayers Peaches.  Sometimes when I pray I say "Peaches" and sometimes I say your real name.(which I love by the way.  Had our son been a daughter he would have your name)

He knows who I'm talking about.  I know he hears me, and I know he loves you.

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Peaches, straight from my garden to you. Love Ya my partner in crime. Hang in there.

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Thinking of you Peaches, much love and prayers to you as always.

I was searching the internet for something entirely different and ran accross this rose. I immediately thought of Peaches. 

We haven't heard from you in a while Peaches, hope you know how much we are in awe of you!

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Peaches, if you keep getting roses, we're going to have to find you a vase!  ::MonkeyWink::

Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Stop by and give us an update when you can. We love you and are anxious to hear from you!

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I'm doing so much better than my cable connection is!  My ISP has had my phone line and cable line up and down for the last couple weeks.  It's wearing me out.  Now they have to run a new line from the street to the house.

That's where I've been.  I'm okay.  Next chemo is scheduled for Aug. 25, 26 & 27th.  I'll probably keep doing this one until around October and then get another CT scan. 

Peaches! I'm soooooo glad to hear that you're doing well!! ::MonkeyDance:: ::MonkeyDance::

It's great to hear from you, and I hope they get your cable connection straightened out soon.

Smooch, smooch, smooch

It's a good thing you checked in Peaches.  I was preparing the bat signal just for you.  We monkeys have been known to call the local authorities and ask them to check on people.  I can see it now..."Monkeys raid home looking for Peaches!"


Hey did I mention?     YOU ARE MY HERO!!!!!   

Peaches...Great to see you... Hope your internet company employees speak a little more English than mine do.

You are always in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.

I hate it when the cable company has problems!!  I'm their worst nightmare when it happens, I call every hour it seems, lol.   ::MonkeyHaHa::

Glad to see you are feisty as ever!

There you are, Peaches!  ::cartwheel::

Glad to hear the problem was only with the cable company! Next time, just post their phone number: we'll monkey ambush them!  ::MonkeyWink::

Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you Peaches!  I'd already copied the link to this flower before I came here and was surprised to see the others posted recently; I think we all are choosing the same colors for you! 


Hope your cable gets fixed soon, I know how frustrating that can be!

Hugs,
TM

Peaches in the morning, Peaches in the evening, Peaches in the afternoon.....

Just thought I would send a little music to listen to while you are admiring your flowers.

Blessings on you.  Love you!

Just sent my cable guy out to keep you company while yours is being fixed.  Would you please buy him a shirt that fits?




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We love you Peaches!!  Glad you're doing better.


Bearly..........oh.....my........just reminded me of sumpin.  Hubby has been wanting a Bowflex.........I said "baby if you can look like the Bowflex man again like you useta did we'll get one of those bad boys today".  lol  OMG......think I'm gonna order one right now.

Peaches, came to check in on you and was glad to see your post. If I knew how to post a pretty rose for you, I would!

I hope the chemo you are having soon is not too hard on you. Will be thinking and praying for you.

Well, another bizarre week.  Because my blood counts were really low last week, they wanted me to come in for some shots to boost the white blood cells and red blood cells.  When I came in on Sunday morning to get my shot, the tech mentioned I should probably call my team and get admitted.  She was right.  So I was admitted Sunday morning for intractable pain and my blood pressure was way too high and I was dehydrated so there ya go.  Yap, I would have called you but I got a new phone and haven't finished rebuilding my address book. 

It was also determined that one of the reasons I was in so much pain is because I had a nasty pocket of fluid sitting on the lower right area of my abdomen.  Nice.  Just last Wednesday, my nurse and I were discussing paracentesis.  So I had that done either Monday or Tuesday.  No biggie.  Very weird to watch on the ultrasound machine.  I'm the star of the show, dontcha know!  Turn that screen around here!  I wanna see!!  So they showed me the fluid and pointed out various sights and shapes and shadows for me.  The nice nurse managed to draw off nearly 2 liters of fluid.  I saw my belly go flat in about 15 minutes.  Felt a little lighter too!

Yesterday, I managed to get myself busted loose in the afternoon.  Now that we have a new pain management routine, it will be interesting so see if I can just get this managed so I can go to work, go home and feel like crap every single day of the week.

Of course, I am sitting here on this lovely August day thanking God for another day on the daisy side of the dirt and that my miracle is coming. 

More later.  Gotta go empty the dishwasher and make coffee before the boss comes in.

Good Morning Peaches...I was wondering where you were! The dishwasher can wait...the coffee can't.

Continued prayers for Your Miracle that I know is coming. God Bless, Peaches.

Peaches
I love you girl!  I woke up this morning thinking of you and wondering where in the heck you had been.  You are never far from my thoughts.  I hope this new pain routine helps and you are quickly on your way again.  Prayers are still being sent from me and most of all I have come to now say, "Thank you Lord, for bringing Peaches into my life and showing me what it means to live each day to it's fullest".


YOU ARE MY HERO! 

Peaches, just wanted to stop in and send love to my girl! I hope they can get your pain under control...I want my Peaches to be as comfy as possible...Thanks for the update...you know we can't let too much time go by without hearing from you...

Do you know how much you ROCK!?!?!?!?!

In lieu of flowers, I thought I'd send you a fruit basket to enjoy

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Peaches

I'm so glad they got rid of that nasty fluid for you, and I hope the pain management makes you feel much better.

Wub you lots!

yes we do wub you lots Peaches !!!!

It's so good to read your post, I've been taking some vacation and helping my mother through some surgery so I've been away too long. So glad to see you are continuing to get very proactive care Peaches, we do so admire how you manage so much including pain and chemo, work, family........you are the miracle worker.

I want you to remember this also Peaches, two years ago this week I forced to let Rick go, now look at you two years later? TWO YEARS Peaches.......God must have a special plan for you.

Keep the faith sweet Peaches, we do love and support you always.

Peaches...Thinking about you as you head into another round of chemo...Keep up that great attitude...Your Miracle is Coming, as None said He must have a special plan for you. God Bless.

Hang in thar Miss Peaches, something good is coming.

We love you Peaches.

Yeah, there has been a Peaches sighting.

So sorry to hear you are in pain and had that much fluid hanging around.

I am praying for you and your miracle.  I am praying it is soon.

Your picture is now in the dictionary under courage, strength, and leader.  Love you, Peaches.

May your smile be as wide as those lips can reach.

Hi Peaches

I was strolling through cbb's beautiful garden and ... saw the most beautiful flower and thought about you.  Impulsively ... I picked it.  I am sooo bad.

Take care.

Hugs Janet


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Peaches, I hope you are doing ok. I see you started chemo again this week. I pray all goes well for you.

Hey, Sweet Peaches!  ::MonkeyWink::

I was thinking about you and thought I'd come here to let you know. You are such a gift to all you come into contact with. It's your turn to receive a gift. It's coming, Peaches.

Stay strong, hon. I love you!

Peaches,

I was hoping I could come over and play.  I have some new roller skates and no one to go skating with.. Your pal terry

Peaches! I've been thinking about you, and missing your posts! How are you? Looking for an update here! Keeping you in my prayers, Peaches!

Hope your day is filled with peach roses.

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Calling out to you, Peaches...letting you know you are on my mind....praying your pain management and treatment are working according to your specs......please stop by and let us know what's going on.  Miss your monkey face around here.

Hi Peaches,
Just wanted to say I've been missing you!  Hope you can stop in for an update soon!
Hugs and prayers,
TM

P.S.  Thought I'd share one of my bluebonnets pics with you....one of my favorite things about Texas!  Plus I love the sky in this one too!

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Peaches: 

Just wanted to let you know you are never far from my thoughts and always in my prayers.  Hugs and lots of monkey kisses  to you!

Hi Peaches...Been thinking about you. Sorry...No roller skates or bluebonnets ro pretty roses...just my Thoughts and Prayers...

Check in soon Peaches...

Remember Saturday at 8 Eastern...My Buckeyes are going to need you on their side!

What Kimmy said. Keep the faith your miracle is coming.
Sam

Peaches~
Sending you lots of {{{{HUGS}}}} today. You are in my thoughts & prayers all of the time.  :)

Roos~

Peaches, I was just thinking about you, and thought that maybe your spirits needed a little lift, so these are for you:

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I miss you Peaches, and hope and pray that you are getting through your treatment well. We're here and if you need a little "fight" refurbishing, we've got our gloves on for you! We would love to hear from you, whenever you feel like an update!  :smt056

Oh CBB, I love that pic! It sure gave me a much needed lift! I just want to let Peaches know that I'm out here thinking about her and praying for her!!

Someone just thanked me for something in another thread, they said "thank you, you are a peach".  I immediately thought about you and how I've missed your stopping by here to let us know how things are going. 

Stay strong, we are with you always, even when you don't feel up to posting. 

(((HUGS PEACHES)))

Peaches - Just wanted to stop by and let you know I'm thinking of you, and praying for you all the time. Stay strong.

We love you Peaches!!!

Peaches
I hope you are doing well...I think of you each night when I go to bed.  I wonder if you are sleeping too and I wish only the best for you each time you lie down to rest.  Praying that God's angels are holding you and sheltering you under their wings.  Please let us know you are okay...I love you.

YOU ARE EVERYONE'S HERO!

Peaches, I think of you and your bravery in the face of adversity and it makes me feel really small to be whining about not having cable, internet and even electricity....You are my hero and I love you chicky!
You have taught me so much through your many trials and troubles!
I pray for you every day and thank God for putting you in my life to teach me that my troubles are but little ant hills and that I should be thankful for what I have.... I love you bunches!!!

Hi Peaches! This is for you. I love the songs you've shared with me, but this one is my gift to you in hopes it's just as right for the day as yours have been for me! Prayers and Hugs and Strength for you, Peach!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NmKSY12hclQ

God Loves You, I Love You, and We Love you!!!

BUMP

Peaches.....wanted you to know that I htink of you so often and pray for you nightly....you are missed

Peaches,

OK, cut it out, Peaches.  ::MonkeyWink:: It's 4:32am and I'm up thinking about you! That's ok, it's a worthy cause. Just want you to know that you are thought of, prayed over, and well loved! I'm asking for strength wrapped in comfort for you Peaches. Most importantly, I'm expecting that miracle for you. Climb on up here with me, Peaches. We'll lean on His promises together. 

2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.


STANDING ON THE PROMISES OF GOD

Standing on the promises of Christ my King,
Through eternal ages let His praises ring,
Glory in the highest, I will shout and sing,
Standing on the promises of God.

Standing, standing,
Standing on the promises of God my Savior;
Standing, standing,
I'm standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises that cannot fail,
When the howling storms of doubt and fear assail,
By the living Word of God I shall prevail,
Standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises I now can see
Perfect, present cleansing in the blood for me;
Standing in the liberty where Christ makes free,
Standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises of Christ the Lord,
Bound to Him eternally by love's strong cord,
Overcoming daily with the Spirit's sword,
Standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises I cannot fall,
Listening every moment to the Spirit's call
Resting in my Savior as my all in all,
Standing on the promises of God.

Dearest Peaches

I'm saying prayers every night for you.  I send you all the love and strength You need to beat this thing.  You are a beautiful person and I enjoy reading your comments here at SM, 

Take care of yourself,

MsVada

Peaches,
I have been thinking of you and I pray for you each morning.
You have been so strong.  Hang in there.
Love you

We're here for you Peaches, and you are always in my prayers.  We love you buddy.

Hey, sweet Peaches ~ if you're not up to posting right now,  could you talk Mr. sweet Peaches into posting a little update for us?  Pretty please?

We want to hear from you ~ we love you ~ and we're all here for *you* . . .

Hugs and prayers, tcu

Peaches ~ Just dropping in to say hello.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.   :flower:

Peaches~
Just checking in to see how you're doing, been thinking about you lots lately. Praying for you & your family every morning. Sending you some big {{{{HUGS}}}} today.

Roos~

Peaches, just stopping in to let you know we monkeys want to encourage you and support you. Even Terry cycled by to see how you are, he's been asking me privately about you daily and we are all praying for comfort and healing for you. Please when you feel up to it, let us know how you are and if there is more that we can do for you.

We care so very much, we want to travel the ups and downs of this with you always, you are never far from our hearts.

{{{{ MEGA Monkey HUGS}}}}

  :smt039 

Peaches, I wanted you to know I was thinking about you today and wondering how you are doing. You truely are a special person.
L, Shell

Lots of love going out your way, Peaches....the silence from your end is making things a little tough for us monkeys, but we know you have the upper hand...you are a tough cookie and we all love you for that...keep on keeping on.....we are here for you...and are behind you 100%...XXXOOO for now.

I'm still hanging in there.  This most recent chemo, Topotecan, is a real butt-kicker.  It's really hard on blood counts.  I wound up really anemic last round.  Next think I knew, I was too weak to cross the room.  I am so blessed by all of you and I count on your support more than you know.  Today, I am feeling pretty good.  I'm sitting here watching those PIRATES!  WOOOHOOO!!!!! Getting some time on the field today.  I feel like a proud auntie.  I saw a nice full screen shot of him early in the game.  I'm so silly, sitting here watching for him.  Pirates are playing a good game and seem to be off to a good start this year.  I'm just glad to see him on TV!

I guess I am going for six rounds of this nasty stuff before the next scan...end of October, I think.  I seem to have the pain under control somewhat.  Fatigue is the other problem.  I'm beat most of the time.  Typical of this chemo.  Last month I had to get two units of blood because I was so anemic.  That was exciting.  Not.  I did feel better a couple days later but it what a hassle.  I'm still here.  Waiting on the miracle I know is coming my way. 

Thank you all for your continued support.  Y'all have kept me going through this whole thing.  I could not do this without all of you.  I love to see the flowers and the balloons.  It lifts my spirits and I sure need a lift these days.  I am "Standing on the Promises".  Thank you all for standing with me.  I love you all.

Peaches - We are so happy to hear from you!  I'm praying while this drug is kicking your butt right now it's also kicking the cancer's butt.  You are going to show improvement when you get your scan come the end of October, I just know it!

HUGS!

Sweet Peaches ~ Oh, I am so happy you're checking in . . . . we're *all* going to hold you and walk with you . . . your miracle is coming.  I just know it!

October's news will be better than good ~ take care, rest, and we love you!

OH, MISS THANG!!! I'm sitting here fighting tears, hanging on your every word!  ::MonkeyHaHa:: Thank You, Peach, for taking the time and effort to post! I feel like I have been on a team without a coach........I know what to do but wasn't sure where, in the plan, we were!! Now, I do. You're in the midst of some nasty chemo, really fatigued, and in need of some red blood cells. You could also use a little lift, emotionally because this stage of the battle is hard. Gotcha!  ::MonkeyWink::

Peach, someone else who would have been called upon to walk in your shoes would be moaning and groaning and wallowing in self pity. You are an inspiration and hero; maybe even more so because you recognize this stage is difficult. I know what to ask for, and we all are going to cozy up to you right where you are. Thanks for letting us know where to gather!

Klaas is right, this chemo's doing a job on all of you, but however hard it is on the way you feel, the cancer cells are dropping off like snowflakes in July! I love you Peach! You've got a whole team here, expecting your miracle!!!!
 ::MonkeyDance:: ::cartwheel:: ::MonkeyTongue:: :smt109 :smt052 :salut: :smt060 :albino: :thumleft: :thumright: :cheers: :smt041 :smt038 :smt039 :smt040 :smt045 :smt058 :smt055 :smt026 :smt023 :bigup: ::MonkeyDance:: ::cartwheel::

And Peaches, this is what that chemo is doing to those nasty cancer cells:
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