JSM's BEGGING FOR BAN THREAD # 7

[Missiontoconvict]

Bob Marley "no woman no cry" 1979
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  One of my favorite Marley songs

[Tevye]

Tevye, I am really mad and sad right now for you. I have heard smoking may cause cancer, but I have a friend that smoked through her treatments because that and Margaritas got her through it. If that is what it takes to get you through this, have a ciggie.

Also know, we are hear for you!! Except that d*mn CC, he hasn't been here all day long. 

Thanks, JSM, I'm so glad I have this thread to vent in. However, I think I made CC sad last week, and I hope he's not staying away because of that. We all need his wicked sense of humour, and his mad photoshop skills.

I'd be lost without my monkeys!!!!!!!

Knowing CC, He is probably one of the ones with the hangover that didn't go to work today.

That, or this is one of his "forced" days off...which means he's golfing...probably in the rain....possibly as raccoon bait!

[trimmonthelake]

It took me so long to type my last comment ( never could apply myself in school) that I'm way behind on current topic but
                                            to all my monkeys

Hey Mizjay.   

[trimmonthelake]

Tevye, I am really mad and sad right now for you. I have heard smoking may cause cancer, but I have a friend that smoked through her treatments because that and Margaritas got her through it. If that is what it takes to get you through this, have a ciggie.

Also know, we are hear for you!! Except that d*mn CC, he hasn't been here all day long. 

Thanks, JSM, I'm so glad I have this thread to vent in. However, I think I made CC sad last week, and I hope he's not staying away because of that. We all need his wicked sense of humour, and his mad photoshop skills.

I'd be lost without my monkeys!!!!!!!

Knowing CC, He is probably one of the ones with the hangover that didn't go to work today.

That, or this is one of his "forced" days off...which means he's golfing...probably in the rain....possibly as raccoon bait!

With his Obama chia.   

[Fanny Mae]

This must be melt-down MONDAY! I went to Kroger earlier for a couple of things and had the worst anxiety attack I have had in my life. I have been a basket case ever since, and have finally calmed down.

The same thing happened Saturday night when I went for some sick supplies for my son. I have had difficulties leaving home since last summer, so my son and hubby have been doing the shopping for a while. These were the first times I have gone myself in a while. It really got bad last summer around the anniversary of my sister death.

 When I went to the doctor he gave me some anxiety meds, and they only help to a point. I have gotten afraid to leave home plainly and simply. I know there is a name for it, and I believe my mama had it too, although she just didn't admit it. I don't want to end up housebound like she was.

Although I really do have head cold symtoms today, and have a little fever, this has hit me really hard since Saturday night. I know I am not the only one feeling this way, so I wanted you all to know what is really wrong with me.

My hubby and son have been very sympathetic  and helpful, I just wanted my monkey friends to know what is going on. I am going back to the doctor this week or possibly the next. My son is going to make appointments for us both when he can see his way clear on his schedule. It is time for his check up, and I won't have to go alone.

I know if I hadn't had all of you here, I don't know what I would have done. I just especially want NOROSE to know she is not alone in her feelings. I know there are others here that feel the same way.

The MP case and grinding on all of us. I cannot bring myself not to keep up.

I feel the same way about this place.
My mum had agoriphobia, I think. She just thought she was from another planet. It was a fun house some days when I was growing up I'll tell ya.  There was no help for it in those days. Later in her life, she was treated with Lorazepam. And then Paxil. We had to make her leave the house some times. Escort her. Once she got past the hurdle of leaving the house without dropping down dead, she was ok and we would always have to talk to her and remind her of times she did get thru it.
My Dad didn't get it and never did. He was a very social man and a good guy, but when she was in one of the phases of it, he would get just mad.
My poor Mum suffered with it with no treatments for many years. I was older and out of the house when she started telling me about her panic attacks.There are drugs and there is also talk therapy. Your family support is probably going to be the best support you can have, Fanny.

I am on one of the "pams" and like I said, it does help some. My mama never did admit to them except to say she didn't want to be away from home. I didn't understand myself until lately what was going on.  Thankfully this didn't happen till lately, so my children were not subjected to it. My son in grown now, and he is a big support. None of my other children know.

Thank you for answering my post. Maybe the doctor will have some other solutions for me when I go back. He knew about the anxiety attacks, but I don't think I stressed to him how debilitating they have become. Thank goodness I can talk to hubby and son and to the monkeys here. 

[Missiontoconvict]

This must be melt-down MONDAY! I went to Kroger earlier for a couple of things and had the worst anxiety attack I have had in my life. I have been a basket case ever since, and have finally calmed down.

The same thing happened Saturday night when I went for some sick supplies for my son. I have had difficulties leaving home since last summer, so my son and hubby have been doing the shopping for a while. These were the first times I have gone myself in a while. It really got bad last summer around the anniversary of my sister death.

 When I went to the doctor he gave me some anxiety meds, and they only help to a point. I have gotten afraid to leave home plainly and simply. I know there is a name for it, and I believe my mama had it too, although she just didn't admit it. I don't want to end up housebound like she was.

Although I really do have head cold symtoms today, and have a little fever, this has hit me really hard since Saturday night. I know I am not the only one feeling this way, so I wanted you all to know what is really wrong with me.

My hubby and son have been very sympathetic  and helpful, I just wanted my monkey friends to know what is going on. I am going back to the doctor this week or possibly the next. My son is going to make appointments for us both when he can see his way clear on his schedule. It is time for his check up, and I won't have to go alone.

I know if I hadn't had all of you here, I don't know what I would have done. I just especially want NOROSE to know she is not alone in her feelings. I know there are others here that feel the same way.

The MP case and grinding on all of us. I cannot bring myself not to keep up.

Hugs - big ones for you Fanny.  I'm sorry to hear you are dealing with this fear. For now relax and take a deep breath you are home in your cage now. 

[Missiontoconvict]

Can any nice monkey tell me why when I cut and paste the code for the Caylee banner from Brandi that is doesnt show up?  It shows up as the url instead of the pic?  Dah what am I  ::MonkeyConfused::doing wrong?

Here's the link in Brandi's avatar thread where she explains it:

http://scaredmonkeys.net/index.php?topic=4314.msg995772#msg995772

Thank you so much Muffy 

[Missiontoconvict]

This must be melt-down MONDAY! I went to Kroger earlier for a couple of things and had the worst anxiety attack I have had in my life. I have been a basket case ever since, and have finally calmed down.

The same thing happened Saturday night when I went for some sick supplies for my son. I have had difficulties leaving home since last summer, so my son and hubby have been doing the shopping for a while. These were the first times I have gone myself in a while. It really got bad last summer around the anniversary of my sister death.

 When I went to the doctor he gave me some anxiety meds, and they only help to a point. I have gotten afraid to leave home plainly and simply. I know there is a name for it, and I believe my mama had it too, although she just didn't admit it. I don't want to end up housebound like she was.

Although I really do have head cold symtoms today, and have a little fever, this has hit me really hard since Saturday night. I know I am not the only one feeling this way, so I wanted you all to know what is really wrong with me.

My hubby and son have been very sympathetic  and helpful, I just wanted my monkey friends to know what is going on. I am going back to the doctor this week or possibly the next. My son is going to make appointments for us both when he can see his way clear on his schedule. It is time for his check up, and I won't have to go alone.

I know if I hadn't had all of you here, I don't know what I would have done. I just especially want NOROSE to know she is not alone in her feelings. I know there are others here that feel the same way.

The MP case and grinding on all of us. I cannot bring myself not to keep up.

It is melt down Monday.I think everyone is down and out from the last few days.We all have each other though.   

  Yes we do.

[Missiontoconvict]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

It takes for ever for it to get easier 

[joesamas mama]

This must be melt-down MONDAY! I went to Kroger earlier for a couple of things and had the worst anxiety attack I have had in my life. I have been a basket case ever since, and have finally calmed down.

The same thing happened Saturday night when I went for some sick supplies for my son. I have had difficulties leaving home since last summer, so my son and hubby have been doing the shopping for a while. These were the first times I have gone myself in a while. It really got bad last summer around the anniversary of my sister death.

 When I went to the doctor he gave me some anxiety meds, and they only help to a point. I have gotten afraid to leave home plainly and simply. I know there is a name for it, and I believe my mama had it too, although she just didn't admit it. I don't want to end up housebound like she was.

Although I really do have head cold symtoms today, and have a little fever, this has hit me really hard since Saturday night. I know I am not the only one feeling this way, so I wanted you all to know what is really wrong with me.

My hubby and son have been very sympathetic  and helpful, I just wanted my monkey friends to know what is going on. I am going back to the doctor this week or possibly the next. My son is going to make appointments for us both when he can see his way clear on his schedule. It is time for his check up, and I won't have to go alone.

I know if I hadn't had all of you here, I don't know what I would have done. I just especially want NOROSE to know she is not alone in her feelings. I know there are others here that feel the same way.

The MP case and grinding on all of us. I cannot bring myself not to keep up.

I'm Sorry you are feeling so badly Fanny. Please know I am here if you need anything. I won't be here tonight because of the stupid meeting, but hope and pray that I get out early so I can get in the cage tonight. 

[Fanny Mae]

Fanny, do you go out at all? Like to church or visiting? Is it special situations (I know I'd be a better shopper if they would just let me bring my Smith & Wesson in with me!) or just "not being home" that seems to trigger the anxiety? Maybe if you did limited runs, it would be easier on you. Sort of "aversion therapy". Unless, of course, your whole reason for staying home is just so you can be with your monkeys. Now we're talking trouble, hunny!

These were limited runs to Kroger. It is only a few blocks away, and I didn't have much to get either time. Church has gotten to be short, and leaving in the middle, way before time. Hubby and Son are with me there. I think it is just the "leaving home" part. Saturday, hubby was with me, so I thought I would try alone today with worse results.  Of course, being here so I can be with the monkeys doesn't sound half bad either. 

I realize there are monkey here, including you, that have much worse problems than me. It almost seems trivial to put it in writing.  But after I got home, I just sat in the bathroom crying, until my hubby and son heard me, and we have been talking about it. I never smoked a doobie, but maybe that wouldn't be half bad either.

[Fanny Mae]

Hugs - big ones for you Fanny.  I'm sorry to hear you are dealing with this fear. For now relax and take a deep breath you are home in your cage now. 

Thanks MISSION, I feel a lot better now that I am "home."

[Missiontoconvict]

Fanny, do you go out at all? Like to church or visiting? Is it special situations (I know I'd be a better shopper if they would just let me bring my Smith & Wesson in with me!) or just "not being home" that seems to trigger the anxiety? Maybe if you did limited runs, it would be easier on you. Sort of "aversion therapy". Unless, of course, your whole reason for staying home is just so you can be with your monkeys. Now we're talking trouble, hunny!

These were limited runs to Kroger. It is only a few blocks away, and I didn't have much to get either time. Church has gotten to be short, and leaving in the middle, way before time. Hubby and Son are with me there. I think it is just the "leaving home" part. Saturday, hubby was with me, so I thought I would try alone today with worse results.  Of course, being here so I can be with the monkeys doesn't sound half bad either. 

I realize there are monkey here, including you, that have much worse problems than me. It almost seems trivial to put it in writing.  But after I got home, I just sat in the bathroom crying, until my hubby and son heard me, and we have been talking about it. I never smoked a doobie, but maybe that wouldn't be half bad either.

   It mellows you out that is for sure Fanny but I am thinking there is something better for you.

[joesamas mama]

mizjay and Tevye thank-you very much for the advise. Everything is taken care of legally, I have power of attorney, he did say once a week he will eat at the senior citizen center uptown, which I thought was a huge deal  He is very clean and has things in order, though I do know it is dusty. The shoveling well that is pointless, he has been doing that forever, after the shoveler gets done, he goes out to finish  there are neighbors and friends that call and check in and he goes out to eat every couple of weeks with some of them. Thank-you all for the advise. 

  Here's hoping for a mild winter up that way!   My father fired up his lawn mower a couple days after the yard guys had been there "cause it rained and he would go ahead and get the new growth"  Let go and let God I guess.
Good that he has such nice friends, takes a little of the worry away for you.

Mizjay. Sorry about your mom, it must be hard to deal with older parents. I really don't know what I would do if I was in your and No Rose's position. I am a hard azz to my dad and step mom with their health and getting them to the doctor. My mom, not so much, she is pretty healthy.

JSM~  Yes, it's hard but I feel lucky that the situation has been gradual. Up until my mother got sick 2 yrs ago basically the biggest problem was hoping they didn't get ptomaine poisoning from ancient food in the fridge, but I really think they have iron stomachs from ingesting leftovers that of course would be just tooooo wasteful to throw out!
The business with my dad has a lot to do with the fact that ya know for 80+ yrs things were always the same and when she was gone all of a sudden he just didn't seem to know what to do. Sell the house, not sell? Keep all the stuff, get rid of it? Meanwhile the grass is growing, bushes blowing up and those lazy azz brothers of mine twiddling their thumbs. the men folk in my family have the "don't ask, don't want to know the answer" philosophy. Why bother to figure out a solution when waiting and doing nuttin is easier?  Answer: Bring the smarter sex into it
  Anyway, I hope it works out, he deserves a little help, it was a learning experience for him to take care of her and the house as best he could. Thankfully it seemed like a "meant to be" thing that I was injured on the job, was off work for quite a while and could go back and forth to help. It was helped along by some guardian angel or something because I'm sure that I would've quit my job to be there for them so........... a big thank you to God.
It's a reality that most of us will face at some point, but you being one of the young chiks here get's to see some of the dilemmas and maybe solutions before you might come up against any of this. That's a positive thing, I wished I'd read a few of those things about aging parents before. 

Mizjay it has to be tough on the parent/child relationship too when the child is now having to be responsible for the adult. I think that is what makes a lot of older people tough to deal with because they are not the ones in control.

You made me laugh when you said Bring the better sex into it.

[Fanny Mae]

I'm Sorry you are feeling so badly Fanny. Please know I am here if you need anything. I won't be here tonight because of the stupid meeting, but hope and pray that I get out early so I can get in the cage tonight. 

Thanks JSM, I knew that already that you would be here. I am safe and snug here now. 

I know you hate these meetings. Start coughing really loud, and maybe they will dismiss early. 

[joesamas mama]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

[trimmonthelake]

Blink has a new post up about SOmer Thompson.   

[joesamas mama]

Tevye, roll a couple of doobies, I'll be right over, just make sure you have some extra apple pie 

I guess I'll have to check into my state's medical mary jane laws.....LOL! for now, tho, I'll just get wasted on ciggys! Oh, and there's another apple pie in the kitchen...that seems to be folks favorite "feed the sick" dish, and I am SO good with that!!!

Ask the doctor for Marinol (not sure if that is how it is spelled), same thing, just in pill form. They gave it to my friend during chemo/radiation. 

[no rose colored glasses]

 Trimm  My thoughts and prayers.         mizjay, I know what you are saying about your dad, that is with my dad also, married for so long, and then your wife passes, and what to do. Very difficult indeed, and scary. And the guilt I have being so far from him       Fanny, do I know what you are talking about, boy do I. I got a bad one yesterday while shopping. I also don't leave the house much, and when I do, a trigger goes off telling me I have to go home, now. Not funny at all. I will shop and I see moms with their grown daughter or son shopping and I get mad, mad as hell, I want that, ain't ever going to have it again. And your right the anxiety meds help to some degree, but not enough. I've gotten to where everything just sets me off, whether crying or angry, hardly any in between. Glad you are going to the doctor, I will be also next week, to tell him give me some pills that somewhat work.    Carrie, glad you are going to the doctor. 

[trimmonthelake]

Fanny,this week is the 2 yr anniversary of losing baby Aiden,so I get what you mean about the anxiety.We'll work through it. 

  I'm sorry Trimm.

This was just about 3 weeks before he died.I'll take it back down real quick so Muffy don't get me with her stinger.