MONKEY MUSINGS DAILY OPEN DISCUSSION #54 1/21/10 - 6/18/10

[klaasend]

I just had three van loads of kids park on the edge of my yard and head off to explore a cave that is on our property.

I don't know if I should run them off or what.  They didn't even ask permission.

What do you think their ages are?  Is the cave dangerous?

They couldn't find the entrance.  I didn't think that they could without someone showing them, but you never know, if it might be
someone that has been in it before.
They left.  They were late teens to early twenties, I think.
I'm glad they are gone.  There are Civil War relics and writings on the walls in the cave.  We like to go along if someone goes in.

Glad they left.   

[texasmom]

This is all of the photos I have of the pups to date (I think  )


<a href="http://w118.photobucket.com/pbwidget.swf?pbwurl=http://w118.photobucket.com/albums/o100/klaasen3/Sub8/Magnolias Pups/902053d1.pbw" target="_blank">http://w118.photobucket.com/pbwidget.swf?pbwurl=http://w118.photobucket.com/albums/o100/klaasen3/Sub8/Magnolias Pups/902053d1.pbw</a>

Too cool!  Thanks Klaas!   

[texasmom]

I wish he wouldn't look at me that way....I have wayyyyy too many dogs already!

Someone dumped a female lab mix out and it's taken up with my outside dogs for about three days now.   

I wish she would just move on down the road, but I don't see it happening...she has very sweet eyes...but acts like she's been mistreated.  Poor thing!

[Magnolia]

I wish he wouldn't look at me that way....I have wayyyyy too many dogs already!

Someone dumped a female lab mix out and it's taken up with my outside dogs for about three days now.   

I wish she would just move on down the road, but I don't see it happening...she has very sweet eyes...but acts like she's been mistreated.  Poor thing!

She has been mistreated.  When someone dumps a dog off that is mistreating it.  It is heartbreaking.

[Green Eyes]

Magnolia  The puppies are all so sweet and they are growing up so fast, I just love the TV thing Klaas made of all their pictures. Thank you so much for sharing the sweet little guys with us. You are such a sweet lady to care so lovingly for them. I know they have given you so much joy. You have shared that with us. The last picture of Buck he looks like he is sticking his tongue out at us. 

[islandmonkey]

 

Muffy~I hope you got my message in the last thread........I REALLY need someone to talk to, and someone who has been there. Myy sadness is beyond profound since Friday (what would have been Eli's first b-day), I have no idea what has triggereed this immense sadness and if I could I'd shut it off because honestly it hurts so bad, I'd rather feel nothing than this pain........

[can]

I'm not Muffy hon, but I could not pass by your heartbreaking post, nor do I have anything to offer. 
I hope Muffy or someone who has experienced your grief can stop by and hold your hand.
Hoping you can talk this out with someone soon.
God bless.
can

[islandmonkey]

Ok~I'm just going to keep posting in case your find me.

I can barely be around my daughter now as I can literally feel her pain and I think she can sense the same feeling in me..........I don't know if it's because of his birthday, but the pain and sorrow wasn't this bad last year, maybe because I had to make all the arrangenements, and try to keep my family together, so my defense mechanisms were up, then right befoer Eli's birthday on Friday I lost it, cried literally the whole day and almost was hit by a semi because I couldn't see the sign thru my tears. I feel like there is a void in my heart that nothing can fill right now, it's like all my joy disappeared last Thursday. IS this a normal reaction to the first birthday after the loss or am I going crazy?

I can honestly say if there was some magic pill to make the pain go away, I'd take it in a heartbeat with reckless abandon.....

[can]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

[islandmonkey]

I'm not Muffy hon, but I could not pass by your heartbreaking post, nor do I have anything to offer. 
I hope Muffy or someone who has experienced your grief can stop by and hold your hand.
Hoping you can talk this out with someone soon.
God bless.
can

Thanks sweet can I feel like I'm in a black hole and don't see anyway out, I just want to know if this is normal, because right now I fell bat chit crazy and I'm good with that.....

[islandmonkey]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

Thank you can..............any help would be appreciated, I'm very lost right now and in a dark place

[can]

I'm not Muffy hon, but I could not pass by your heartbreaking post, nor do I have anything to offer. 
I hope Muffy or someone who has experienced your grief can stop by and hold your hand.
Hoping you can talk this out with someone soon.
God bless.
can

Thanks sweet can I feel like I'm in a black hole and don't see anyway out, I just want to know if this is normal, because right now I fell bat chit crazy and I'm good with that.....

Hang on -
I'm sure your feelings are normal, and I think grief is like that, and surfaces when you least expect it.
Have you considered talking with your daughter about it, about Eli and how you miss him.  Do you think talking about it with your daughter would benefit her?  Eli was, is,  and is loved and remembered.
 

[can]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

Thank you can..............any help would be appreciated, I'm very lost right now and in a dark place

Hang on hon.  I'm sure there are skilled monkey friends who can see you through this. . .

[islandmonkey]

I'm not Muffy hon, but I could not pass by your heartbreaking post, nor do I have anything to offer. 
I hope Muffy or someone who has experienced your grief can stop by and hold your hand.
Hoping you can talk this out with someone soon.
God bless.
can

Thanks sweet can I feel like I'm in a black hole and don't see anyway out, I just want to know if this is normal, because right now I fell bat chit crazy and I'm good with that.....

Hang on -
I'm sure your feelings are normal, and I think grief is like that, and surfaces when you least expect it.
Have you considered talking with your daughter about it, about Eli and how you miss him.  Do you think talking about it with your daughter would benefit her?  Eli was, is,  and is loved and remembered.
 

Not to much, I don't want to burden her with my sadness and grief.....I don't want to make it harder on her.

[can]

Will you make an appointment tomorrow for grief counseling?  Please.

[islandmonkey]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

Thank you can..............any help would be appreciated, I'm very lost right now and in a dark place

Hang on hon.  I'm sure there are skilled monkey friends who can see you through this. . .

I'm hanging Can, but just by a thread right now or I'd never have come here to burden all of y'all

[mgoblue]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

Thank you can..............any help would be appreciated, I'm very lost right now and in a dark place

Hi Islandmonkey.  Can is right, the grief counselor is a great idea.  I know it doesn't always seem to be the case, but try to remember that God doesn't give us more than we can bear. Please try to think about that.  Does this make any sense?
Hang on hon.  I'm sure there are skilled monkey friends who can see you through this. . .

I'm hanging Can, but just by a thread right now or I'd never have come here to burden all of y'all

[can]

I'm not Muffy hon, but I could not pass by your heartbreaking post, nor do I have anything to offer. 
I hope Muffy or someone who has experienced your grief can stop by and hold your hand.
Hoping you can talk this out with someone soon.
God bless.
can

Thanks sweet can I feel like I'm in a black hole and don't see anyway out, I just want to know if this is normal, because right now I fell bat chit crazy and I'm good with that.....

Hang on -
I'm sure your feelings are normal, and I think grief is like that, and surfaces when you least expect it.
Have you considered talking with your daughter about it, about Eli and how you miss him.  Do you think talking about it with your daughter would benefit her?  Eli was, is,  and is loved and remembered.
 

Not to much, I don't want to burden her with my sadness and grief.....I don't want to make it harder on her.

I'm throwing this out there...for your consideration, as I know that most of all, we don't want our loved ones forgotten.  We want to speak their name and hear there names spoken.

Have you considered it might be helpful for your daughter, to remember and speak about Eli at this time? 

You don't always have to be strong Mama.

[mgoblue]

IM - I went to the Monkey Lounge and Muffy is not on-line @ the moment.
If I see her I will direct her to you, if that's o.k.
can

Thank you can..............any help would be appreciated, I'm very lost right now and in a dark place

Hi Islandmonkey.  Can is right, the grief counselor is a great idea.  I know it doesn't always seem to be the case, but try to remember that God doesn't give us more than we can bear. Please try to think about that.  Does this make any sense?
Hang on hon.  I'm sure there are skilled monkey friends who can see you through this. . .

I'm hanging Can, but just by a thread right now or I'd never have come here to burden all of y'all

Messed up. See note in quote box above

[can]

BURDEN?

Was it a burden when you talked that girl to a hospital so long ago, right here @ SM.

YOU are not a burden!